No use living in the past

Because the future is

Here

And here

Here

And

Here

Here

Again here

And...

Back in the day
When the rain hit the roof
Pitter-patter didn't seem like much
But along with it came the truth
That nowadays things ain't so right
Nowadays, everything is a might

When you used to tell me
That I was the only one
Your sole source of confidence
All we had was lighthearted fun
But now, now it seems like a joke
A sick and twisted turn of fate
For the worst or the best I don't even know
But all I have now us this disgustingly clean slate
Hanging on a hook like writhing, live bait

I don't get a weekend
Cause I'm stackin' bands
Hope I get to see you
Once my flight lands
Been up in the air
For too long
I just wanna touch your hair
And sing you a song
So this ones for you
Out there in shades of blue
I hope you know it's true
When I say I love you

I never really thought
it'd come to this
A war hard fought
And you, I missed
I'm past trying to save face
I can't hide the feelings
I'm here and I hate this place
I'm done with trying and failing
You pop up in my head again and again
The way you move and you talk, baby, I'm a fan
I just don't know when my flight will land
Crawled too far up and you're buried in the sand

I used to trip down the street
With nothing in my head
Asking myself questions
I never knew the answer to
Over again and under
Nothing has ever made sense
So why should it now?

Why do I care?
What the **** right does insecurity have over me and my life?
What purpose does it serve?
Why does it want me in a hole?
Why won't it realize that it's not welcome here?
And why can't I have a days peace without these nagging thoughts?

I like to get drunk
Probably a little more than the average person
And it's all because of these things
These things, these thoughts, these horrors
That take me to their pit
Introduce me to their leader
Bleeding black and spitting acid in my face
I'm burned now
And have been, time and time again

I think it's time this stops
I seriously need to rid myself if this ****
This living Hell
I need to take a stand
Get the **** up and scream or something
Let it all out
And live everyday like I'm a drunk *******
Saying whatever, whenever and to whoever I want

Yeah, that'd be the life.

there is no end to the river of tears
no stopping the onslaught of fears
no end to that which has been seared
no zenith to love which i've been geared
toward

On the weekends
I talk to bottles and cans
Of wine, of whiskey, of gin and of beer
I ask them why
I feel the way I do
But they never answer me

For a minute there
I didn't know
What the **** was that?
You didn't show
Any signs of the like
So how was I supposed to know?
I just don't know
I just don't know

Things float on
And they pass
No matter how long they take
They seem too crass
To even hold accountable
For the situations that arise
But I think they're surmountable
In time, of course
In time, definitely
But my voice is too hoarse
My ability is too coarse
Too coarse, of course
I can't read Morse Code

I had a dream about you
On a night that I thought would never end
I walked over to talk to you
Don't take it the wrong way if I just wanna be friends
After all that's happened over the years
I can't take anymore tears

I know you like to do your own thing
And I need my independence
It just never seems we are ready at the same time
Never heard of interdependence
The classic way of doing things
Was never for me and clearly isn't for you
So lets just be true and cool
But were both fools

Oh hi, hey
Will you stay?
Do you wanna?
Tomorrow day?
Can you feel it?
Am I dumb?
Don't give a ****
That's no fun

Oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh-ohh
You dont know, oh
What I know, oh
But will you just play along? Oh.
Will you let me do you wrong?

Oh hey, hi
I heard it through the grape, the grapevine
That you said you thought I was fine
That you hinted you could be mine
Oh, well unless you give me a sign
Because I'm a geek, I'm meek and prone to whine
Are you signing at the dotted line?
Are you the reason to these rhymes?

from ripe to rotten
sitting on a filthy shelf
from remembered to forgotten
praying for some kind of help

mumbling through the forest
tripping on broken branches
stumbling through my brain
ripping up old love letters

If there is one thing I'm proud of
It is that I can create
I might not be the sharpest knife
But use me and you can relate

School was never easy for me
My parents hardly pushed
That was a good thing though
I've never succeeded when rushed

My brain works in odd ways
I make connections where others don't
The light at the end of the tunnel
Is where I move to when others won't

I tend to think low of myself
For good reasons sometimes
But I know I will come out ahead
For I remix the reason and the rhyme

I also look past things
Where others tend to grasp
Holding my shallow breath
With eyes on the true task

What does lay before me
I will never truly know
But I'm building my barricade
To the sky and it will show

For by the end of the end
When my body is done on this Earthly plane
My soul will live on forever
An old man who needs not a crutch, nor a cane

I coughed up a lung
Trying to talk to you today
Looking at you over there
I know what it is you're trying to play
But right now, I'm leaving
And I'm not sure I'm gone
And then I'm in my car and weaving
Through the icy streets with the heat on

I really thought I knew who you were
The 1 to my 1 that makes one two
I just shook my head when I heard for sure
I don't know how I didn't have a clue
All my walls are dripping navy blue
Down through the waves just trying to get you

You are my sweet double-etendre
But where do you start and begin?
You say one thing and start to cry
Where is the place that we're headed?
You never hear me out and you never tell me why
Is it that you've been having second thoughts again?
I'm packing it in not because I want, but I have to
Will you think of me in the future as a friend?
The end seems bitter but the bitter isn't always the end

Floating over
Soaring above
My own body
Personal horror
Objectified
Newly minted
As just another
Nook
Or cranny
In the vast ocean
Of my existence

Stars shine bright
Glisten off my water
The darkness between
Doesn't seem so black
Anymore
For the light of the stars
And the warmth of the moon
Keep me company
On those darkest of nights
And they tell me everything will be alright
They have me know it's just a phase
Just another tock
To balance out the tick
Before it

She told me
To come over
And on her
Never saw her
Like that before
Changed before my
Eyes sinking high
Looking for the sky
All I saw
Was darkness fading
In and out
As I went
Forth and back
Near had a
******* heart attack
When the door
Opened a little more
But it was
Only her dog

Forget it
Just don't even consider
What I said
Just brush it from your conscious mind
And pretend that **** words
Could never possibly exist in the same sentence
Together
Together like I
Like I once thought we could've
Could exist on the same side
With the same mindset

Together, together, together

But I've realized
That these things
How I imagine
In my own head
Languishing in the glory
That my brain constructs
Is too much
It's just not feasible
For a girl like you
With that past
With that kid that you still follow
And wish was yours
Like me
Just like me
The only difference is that
You've been with him
And we've been talking for years
But you say
That you want to be with me
But it just had t happened yet
It's just not an option right now
But you still follow me
Like you want me
And you still follow
For reasons I'm unsure of
But please
Please

Please

Just tell me
Just be honest
Speak from the heart
When
Or
If
You ever tell me
That all you want
Is
Me

Only

Me



I've never sunken this low


In my life


I'm drunk


And I'm thinking irrationally




But please


Please


Just say


It's only


Me

Drip, drop
Kick, pop
Crash, sizzle
Out for the ****

Bang, boom
Whip, zoom
Smash, break
Down the drain

Ping, pang
Oh, the same
Stay, sit
The same old ****

When things get heavy
Too much to bear
Your body might sag
You might forget to wash your hair
Getting up is a chore
When your being feels deflated
And your light starts to dim
When you find yourself feeling less than elated

Then one morning
You get up with a purpose
Your legs want to move
Faster, away from this circus
You pack up your things
Only bare essentials
You leave your doors unlocked
Your emotions heighten tenfold

So you're running away
You've been given no other choice
With all the things people say
It tends to drown out your voice
In your head, you know
This may not be the wisest thing
But in your head, you grow
The wildest, most beautiful white wings

Fly away now
For this is for you
Fly up and out
No need for your shoes
No need to pout
Now you can't lose
You're flying and then you shout
"I don't care about your news."

i never understood people
who preferred tapping on keys
to gripping a beautiful pen
and scratching thoughts on
paper

tapping, tapping, tapping away
all day
has it's advantages
but in the end
it feels so
hollow
so

empty

but still
here i am
tapping
tapping
tapping
tapping
away
staring at my pen
glaring at my paper
tapping
away

I'm standing on the sand
The grains sifting through my toes
I smile as I look out and raise my hand
What I'm looking at, wishing for, nobody knows
But I know exactly what I want, what I'm doing
I'm not some lunatic talking to himself and smiling
It's all because of what's happened and what's been brewing
You put me on your hex list, I watched as you were writing

But hey, do what feels and looks right
Take it as it comes, leave it as it goes
These things always start a fight
From one side to the other coast
Everything happens the same way
Someone says something and another hears it
Then it goes on and on and they play
Little by little, the truth becomes a tiny bit
A blip in the burning stratosphere

On the outside
I seem
To not even
Try.
To not even
Care.
And I don't
Think I do.
For the most part.

On the inside
Fires rage
And it seems
They burn
Stronger
With each passing
Day.
On the inside
Planets collide
And burst
Like so many grapes
In my stubborn
Grip.
On the inside
I don't know
What the outside
Wants
Or needs.
On the inside
I am a
Lion
Watching carefully
Approaching
Slow...
...ly
Afraid
To pounce
To roar
To talk
The way that
Everyone
Seems prone to.

The lion lays
Down.
He shakes
Droplets of water
From his mane.
Tucks his big, hairy
Head
Between huge
Paws
And never
Ever let's his
Tears
Reflect sunlight.

On this day
I don't know what to feel
This Sunday
You're gonna pull your reel
But on this day
It's cold as the steel
Of the .45 caliber revolver

Your pain is something you wear
Strapped
Pinned
Stapled
Nailed
To your chest

You can't hide it
There's no use
Why would you try to tuck away something so
Gratuitous
Toxic
******
And
Beautiful?

It's too big to hide under your bed
Too shiny to hide in your dark corners
Too smart for you to try to convince it that it doesn't existence

So you're stuck with it
And since you're stuck with it
You wear it
Wear it like the Badge of Courage it is
Like the Medal of Honor you earned
Like the Nobel Peace Prize you worked so hard Just to say
That you finally made it

Could you find it in your heart to tell me what I mean to you? I don't care if I'm a molecule or a nervous little stain on your brand new carpet or a skyscraper built in the prime of the city's financial boom. Just let me know, open your mouth, put a pen to paper for me. Graffiti my heart. I've just got to know.
Maybe I'm not strong enough to knock down your wall of insecurities and doubt. But I'm not a wrecking ball. I'm just a boy. A boy with doubts and insecurities and negativity all his own. Bit please... For me, if you can find it in yourself to just do me this favor, I will be forever grateful. Forever content with the fact that you'd offer me this one thing. And if, by any chance, you can, then I can find it in me to make the right time and mend appropriate bridges and search and scour for the ample space where you and I may fit.

Yours,
X

Never experienced pain so excruciating
Never swelled up so much
In my life, I'm debating
Whether to just jet or stand in for the weak ones

My head is filled with questions
And my brain is loaded with hate
Trying to stay optimistic
But the **** is just piling up, it's too late

No one knows what I know
No one sees what I do
My eyes are weak and worn
The blood's tracked in via my shoes

Now it's close to over
Now I'm **** close to done
Just gotta keep it together
Open me up and let me know when it's time for the real fun

i was floating above it all
i always got up after i'd fall
staring down at you in your bedroom
had a vision of us, bride and groom
but you were there just bawling your eyes out
and now i'm here whispering what i should shout

it was never really meant to be
i had eyes but i just couldn't see
but looking back it was for the best
at least our collective heart is still beating in our chest

i never realized what a **** i was
always ****** up searching for a "because"
so many fights on the phone at night
could never get the words out so i'd make light
of the simple fact that we were so far down
and this whole time you were in love with a clown

your heart is a violent gang
prowling the streets after dark
mine is the bird that once sang
covered in blood & curious marks

when my bird and your gang collide
there isn't an obvious winner
neither regard the rules or, by them, abide
both will eat your family for dinner

jet black boots and thoughts to match
your legs are barbed-wire baseball bats
i never asked if there was a catch
and now my legs are scared little cats

but inside me sleeps a bomb
it doesn't tick, but it's always rolling
like a panzer tank emitting a sad song
i press a button and we both go strolling
everything is nothing but everything is showing

I saw you at the party
And I said "what's her name?"
But nobody knew
I wondered why you came
You're a mystery
Shrouded in things unknown
When you saw me
You looked down, drink in hand
Took a sip, and I took a stand

I asked you to hit the floor with me
You whispered about your boyfriend
But baby, I could barely see
I couldn't tell if this was the end
So I took a step back
Eyes locked all over you
Did you really have a boy or was it something I lacked?
Either way, I'll never find out what's true
Because just as I turned
You swigged your Jack
Thought I got burned
But I guess I'm back

You don't dont know the meaning of subtlety
You came up around the side
And flanked me where I couldn't see
You led me away to that darkened room
Questioning if what was happening could really be
Did I drink too much?
Have I partied too long?
But questioning my sanity is never as fun as *******
But baby, you're strong
Or maybe you're drunk as hell too
You don't know it but I can go long
Down field and back to vibe with you
The look on your face
Says "tomorrow is new,
So lets do this thing.
Because, right now, only this moments true."

Get up
The minutes pass you by
Mechanically
They've no need to lie
To you
Passively watch as they wave
You're glued
To this path you've long paved
Your way has been set

In and out and out and in
Situations predetermined before you knew
There is no real way to win
Now, you find yourself turning blue
You were green at the start
Eager to get it done with ease
But now that that part
Is over you just want sleep
Forever in the menagerie of eternity
Heavy on your head and thoughts
Long is gone, the vanity of deceit
This is the life that your family has bought

Fearing a life of struggle and pain
Unsure of the path of least resistence
To join an organization, the same
As everyone won't give you a listen
To fight a war of secrecy
Killing innocents with a smile
Innocence is lost, you see
Might as well run your mile
But this life promised so much more
Your hopes and dreams scowl at your incompetence
Everything was so bright and white before
Now things continue to make no obvious sense

The paths of
Glory
Are lined
In doubt
And
Hesitation

Hesitation
Observation
Contemplation
Yanks me back and forth

Running
Bounding
Chasing
Never sure which way to sway

Ticking
Flowing
Finding
New truths each day

Thinking
Wishing
Hoping
My life isn't a waste

Scratching my head
And my thoughts
With this fine lead
Thinking I ought
To quit already
It doesn't do too much
Good

It's like I can't even talk right now
It's like my mouth is broken
While these old kids come around
Trying to cash their counterfeit tokens
But I just look away, I don't see it
There's no reason for me to be rude
Do what you're gonna, don't give a ****
Ain't no reason for such a sour attitude
Like the patch kids we used to eat
As kids watching cartoons and playing N64
Just stay there don't get outta your seat
For some reason, I feel like I've been here before

Looking back I was always afraid to look ahead
Swerving this anxiety like I'm on a busted sled
Knocking myself out trying to do the right thing
But all by myself I could never truly bring
The things, sprout wings, sit with the kings
But hey that's why I just open my mouth and sing

My face is made of stone
It never really changes
Some scratches here and there
But mostly it holds true
It's natural form seems to unsettle
People are always asking
If I'm heartbroken

I never really think too much
About things I think are sad
They just seep through the cracks
In my head and take over
I guess I am heartbroken
But I've never trusted a woman
Enough for her wrap her love
Around my heart too tight

I always like to breathe
I guess you could call me a fan
Oxygen is life
But then again
What is life?
What is my life?
How is it significant?
Is it the love of others
That makes a life worth living?

my heart's on fire
with burning desire
ignite the funeral pyre

it's time to go
and you should know
i am aglow

you think i'm sad
but i'm glad
i've mastered the art of deceiving you
or have you perfected the way you're deceived?

Do you still think of me?
When you close your eyes and you can't see
Do I tread the same part of your head
Back when we shared the same bed?

Because when my thoughts point to you
Everything I thought false seems true
All the wrongs seem right
Even that heartbreaking fight

Outside the school with tears on your cheeks
Your makeup smeared for weeks
I played the devil because I was new to love
Every saint was once a sinner and every crow wants his dove

Now that it's all washed out and air dried to high heaven
There's really no excuse for my sixes and sevens
I can tell you I was young and I can claim I was dumb
But I'll never call it my idea of fun

Now this is my apology
A poor attempt at sincerity
But I would never forgive you
If you told me you forgave me too

Person Number One
Looks at
Person Number Two

Person Number Two smiles and
Moves a little bit
Closer

Person Number One returns the
Smile
And inches
Even
Closer

Person Number Two closes their eyes and
Puckers their lips
Leans in
And

Person Number One closes their eyes
Just the same
And, wouldn't you know it
Puckers and leans

Person Number Two's lips touch
Person Number One's
And they share
That first
Kiss

Smiles all 'round
Both of their faces alight
Thoughts of happy futures and
Secure days
Ahead

Fast forward
A year or so

Person Number One slams their car door shut
Gets out
Walks through a
Large parking lot
No one around
Except Person Number Two

Person Number Two rushes
Politely
Toward Person Number One
Her heels make little
clickclickclicks
As she moves closer and
Closer in

They are five feet apart now
Person Number One smiles
Person Number Two's heels clickclickclick
And as sure as they do
Person Number One and Person Number Two
Stride, slide and click
Right
Past eachother
Without even a
Second
Glance

I am stuck
Returning
Still sitting and
Burning
Flipping over yearning
Turning
Sides with the tide
Learning
To keep my head on straight

With your absence
Brings frequent gloom
Nothing that you said
Seems to escape my head
The words they bounce
Just as buoyant as ever
You can never be mine
But my ties will never sever
What we were

Adjusting every day
As my belt begins to loosen
Losing weight and gaining bad thoughts
All the while you still linger
At the forefront of my mind
You say ****** things
And then tell me that you're mine
I guess that's just the way I like it
Even though I think I hate it
Someone needs to save me
From these masochistic ways
I'm just gritting teeth and hoping
This is just a phase

In the Pine Barrens
Where we go, where we sleep
Is the place where the wind
The wind blows and water's deep
You can hide your head
And disappear for a while
In the thick trees and tall grass
Natures gateway, natural turnstile

So meet me there
When the Sun is hanging low
Don't brush your hair
Only thing you need is to go
With your heart in your hands
Intent on burying in the sand

In a place
Where the blood
Flows like wine
And the wine
Tastes of poison

Things seem so
Complicated
On the surface
But beneath
The thinned skins
Lies the stuff
Thats brings knees
To floors

Round and around
And back down
On this rusty Ferris Wheel
Creaking and moaning
Trying to take us this morning
Up and down
But we only go around

The reason I'm here
Has never been clear
All I know is that I know
That I care about you so
No real backbone and a hazy facade
Greet me every time I try to read your sign
Your expect so much but only give a little way
I don't know how you expect me to stay

Staring at me gloomily
Choking your pistol grip
Submerging your hands deep
Loading your gun and pressing the tip
To my extremities
Alway threatening
To ******* to pieces
I can only look up and smile
This night might take a little while

Inside, I lay
Safe
From various perils
Frozen breezes, choking wheezes
Limb stiffening arctic temperatures
And
I can't forget
How can I forget to mention
The disease

Life-stealing, soul-*******, heart-stopping
A parasitic plague of putridity
It's been ages since
It first grabbed
At our necks
Now, it seems
Most of them
Have fallen
Down
Down
Only to
Lift ourselves
Standing limp
Heads bobbing
Drooling
Bleeding
Black
Groaning
To the
Sky

The kicker
Is that
As much
And as
Loud
As they
Groan and gargle
No one
Seems
To
Do
Anything

A massive bison skull hung grandly in the back room
Overlooking a dirt-caked, ripped to **** couch from 1976
The year of the bicentennial
The same year he first killed something
It was a deer he shot twelve times on a hunting trip with his grandfather
But when his grandfather inspected the ****, he swore he'd never take him hunting again

After that he had to resort to setting traps
Little wooden cages with trip wires he made himself in his room
Wittling away with the Bowie his father kept in the shed
And he heated up wads of cheddar cheese in the oven until it stunk to high Heaven
Put the cheese in his cages and set them up in the woods behind his house
Then he'd sit behind a big boulder and watch silently
Barely blinking, heart racing
For hours
Until a rabbit or a cat or a raccoon caught the scent of the cheese
And zip inside the cage
Trapped and zipped up up forever
Because he'd take his catch back home
And with the same Bowie knife he used to make the cage
He used to cut the animal's head off
And arms and legs
Heart
And
Brain

Eventually his father caught wind of what he was doing
And his father asked him to come into the garage
He asked why and then his father dragged him
By the back of his hair
Like one of the many rabbits he plucked from his cages
And his father took that same Bowie knife
And then took his hand
And sealed it tight into the bench clamp
With the Bowie knife
His father sawed his pinky and ring fingers
Off his right hand
Slowly
Blood spurting all over both of their faces
As he screamed and cried
His father spat his blood
Right in his face
And told him
"That's for stealing my knife."

such
high vibrations
call for celebrations
like graduations
or transitions
from the low
low depths
of the deprived
floors of the
atlantic or pacific.

many
nights spent floundering
and pounding
on locked doors
like i actually
wanted to know
what laid so
apathetically on the
other side.

but
now with horns
and the might i've shorned
be it from the gods
of the greeks
or romans
i prepare
for a fight
for in dubious
battle
i shake
and rattle
while
inside it is so quiet
like a pit
in the midst
of a war fought
by men stripped
of guns, grenades
and vocal chords.

When you come around
Come around this little town
There's a story that you'll hear
That makes you smile and shed tears

He was a little boy
When his momma told him "Son,
There ain't nothin' hear for ya,"
But he found a way to have his fun

He knew he should try harder
And make his mom and pop proud
But they were just farmers
And he fancied his pop a coward

So one day he said "Momma,
I'm leaving this town for good.
I'm packin' my bag and hoppin' on a
Big ol' train," and do just that he would

His momma kissed him goodbye
His pop just bowed his head
And off he went to the city
There was not a tear he shed

He then met some boys around his age
They liked to shoot and loot
He didn't mind the ruckus
Or the terrorizing of old coots

They robbed and they shot
They stuck and they stole
And they laughed all the way
He was happy he got himself out that hole

But then one day the sheriff
Flicked his badge and said
"It's time for you to leave this town,
before I shoot you all dead."

His friends put their hands up
And slowly backed away
But the ol' boy had drunk his share
And thought it time for the sheriff to pay

So he pulled out his revolver
But before he could shoot
A shot rang out and smoke fluttered
The sheriff let out a hoot

Our ol' boy laid on the floor
Bleeding like a pig
He smirked and he died there
But he never felt so big

you're so gentle and you shed so much beautiful light.
but it's like we're driving down that dark road at night.
i feel you next to me, you put your hand over mine.
i was blind once, but you made it so i could see the sign.
i owe you more than i could ever put into words.
i've said it once already but it seems you haven't heard.

so when i break down, i need you to start me back up.
it sounds like a lot, but for you it won't be a problem.
and that's why, from the floor, i'm saying i need picking up.
i'm a child, i know, and you're a pretty pink blossom.
springing from the ground without a care in the world.
or a thought, and that's why i fear you'll be running away.
once you catch wind, once you hear what i'm trying to say.

Krash!
Shards of glass shower the squeaky clean tile floor
A well-muscled arm swing violently
Veins pulsing with raging blood

Ding!
A metal chair leg
Shaped like a U
Hangs limp from the seat of the chair

Thud!
The impeccably carved muscular mass
Hits the floor
Breathing in, out in short bursts like the crack-bang of multiple Magnums going off at once

"You'll never have me!"
The coppers chain the hands behind the back
Give the head a nice shove into the tiles
"You can't stop it! Not even I can stop it."

The problem with you is...

You always

                   Always

Love

The
       wrong
                  

Girl.

I know I'm coming off
As whiny, you scoff
At my childishness and
How I refuse to bend
But it just seems to
Me that all of it plus you
The whole world operates
In the opposite of what you dictate

You can't push too hard at all
Because you only end up on the floor
Clutching your hair and humming
Crazy on the doorstep, punching the door
You always end up punching the door

From purgatory to paradise
I'm just trying to escape
To get to where I won't have to think twice
About touching you, about being a little forward
I'm a reserved man and I take pride in that
But I've got to take the reins sometime to move toward
Where I know I should be, I could be
Timidity is for the meek
And the meek shall inherit the Earth
But am I still meek if I dare take a peek
At the future in order to alter the water
That flows through the bridge underneath?
I don't know, but what I do
Is that I think it would healthy
To take a stand in order to make myself a little more wealthy
In all aspects, I'm not talking about currency
I don't need it, I'm past that
Even though it's nice to get that
What I need is fulfilment
What I need is intelligence
On top of some diligence
Trying not to tear any ligaments
Doing what need be
Getting what I want
Running as far as I can
Hitting home runs instead of settling for bunts
I'm grown now and it's time for me to realize it
A man is only man enough to go where he can dream
And if I can dream of blue skies, high rises and top prizes
Then I have to take it upon myself to tread that road
To **** up the negativity and spew gold
Spinning diamonds out of dust
Getting silver from rust
Turning distrust into trust
Being brace enough to weather the storm
Through the unrelenting swarm

Maybe I'm playing the wrong game
With the wrong attitude
Things just ain't the same
Throwing curveballs to the dirt
Feeling, soaking in the hurt

You spit in your palm
And look deep in my eyes
Put your hand behind your back
And keep spoon feeding me lies
Well it couldn't hurt to try

Please just hold tight
While I **** back to swing
Pulling for the fences
While mending my wings
To fly through these clouded, muddy things

Knowing my sordid past
When it comes to this game
Making us last
Won't come without pain
And it's a **** shame