walking through hell with steady legs & a straight face
then i laugh my face off when i realize it's my favorite place
nothing you say can stop me from becoming what i'm going to
been losing forever but i don't mind winning every now and then too
playing the underdog is something i'm quite used to
just like i was everyday when i was kissing you

so baby, just maybe this wasn't a mistake
maybe this grave you dug turns into a lake
a lake of fire and lake of heartache
headaches, stomach aches, it all molded & shaped
who i am but i'm ready to pop like a grape now

she's the sky when it's purple and red and pink
she's what i think about when i cant think
just hope that she sees me and she hears this
always thinking i'm owed one last kiss
always hoping you'll give a ****

i know i could've helped you when you needed it
when i was in that black cave, my torch you lit
i should've been there when your tide shifted
should've focused less on getting lifted
you really showed me what i was looking for
you made me feel dumb rich when i was dirt poor

when things never go right
it's easy to give up the fight
and you're in the hole with no way out
taking punch after punch in this constant bout
you can sharpen your nails and try to climb up
but they'll break, because you're brittle and you don't really give a ****

you make me feel better than i've ever felt
but you'd be better off with almost anyone else
but you'd be better off just looking out for yourself
cause lately i've been thinkin' 'bout my neck and a belt

it was 5am and i detected distress
from your heart you emitted nothing less
you fell to the floor and looked into my eyes
i started to cry as you said your goodbyes
you told me to batten down my hatches & **** it up
but what you said left me with scratches & had me all ****** up

i wanna hop in the convertible
and drive down to the beach with you
what we had didn't seem that durable
but when we're getting high in the sun it's true
what they say that when you meet someone
and synapses start firing, you feel the weight
you can't even help but have fun
no matter what our ultimate fate

i could suffocate you with clever wordplay
and say that i'd pay to lay with you for another day
but i'm past the point of the paradox and price
in that skirt that first night you looked so nice
i couldn't imagine what i'd done to see that
your walk is like a bash to the skull with a baseball bat

so lay me down and cut me open
let you see inside while you still can
baby, lets just vibe in the moment
baby, you eliminate all my torment

you're just a blip on my screen now
double-tapping your pics and asking myself how
how could things have just snowballed
i just wish you would've picked up when i called
now my heart is filled up and tapped out
but, my death, you won't know about