yes i love you
but there is a but to that
there can be no future
where there has been no past
all that is before us
is but a part of what has passed
the bulk of what we could have become
was but ballast

the truth of the search
no matter how long it took
is that everything you saught
was always in the last place you'd look

we dont look like them
we dont act like them
we dont dress like them
we dont think like them
we dont think we want to be like them
but we are all us now

with every new favourite everything I ever knew
now nothing more than a fast fading memory
I wonder if the wonder I felt in their company
was as real for them as it always will be for me

acting all surprised
like harvey weinstein opened eyes
hyper critical belies
this most hypocritical of people and places
casting couch denials
humblebragged ****** defilement
worked the feminista angle
best audition of the day

cant lose what was never mine
nor the lust left behind undiscovered
though our bodies may have lain intertwined
her heart was bound to another

exponential potential wasted
all shiny baubles and pretty faces
prototype for a vacant nation
flag held high before the setting sun