i feel
a relief
and a new burden

i feel
an ending
and beginning

i feel
panicked
and at ease

i want
a new life
with the good from the old

i want
a fresh brain
since the used one has been scribbled on
doodling your name
over
and over
and over again

i want
the old memories
when we were so new to each other
that the adrenaline kicked in
with every innocent glance

i need you

to be flexible
and new
and awake
and aware

please be ready

because i'm not ready to sit on this plateau
and pick the grass with you
because you have so much love to spend
and i need you

now lets journey

Please know that i am fine now
I forget about your existence
Until i stumble upon a memory

I'm sorry for trying
We didn't have much time together
I took your kindness way too far
And confused us both with
My enthusiasm
Lack of self respect
And desperation

You were a new concept
I was the listening ear
But there was never a we
Only in my daydreams
Where we meet again
And you would actually miss me


Turns out I was wrong  

But again I am fine now
And you forgot me from day one
So i know you must be fine too

Remember the night the trees were in the stars
And we were in the trees
And the earth was warm
And no one could find a reason to cry

Remember when we heard the sweetest lullaby
And hid secrets in the bark
And found joy in each other

The buzz of night
Happy shadows
Good auras of light
And yet the comfort of wandering alone

Have you ever listened to a song
And in those few minutes
Known your true idenity
You feel the presence of yourself
And the lack of yourself
And everything that is you, inbetween
You are sewn to the earth
You are the moss
You are the trees
But you also dont belong here
You belong everywhere

Please find that song
And never replace it with anything less