as much as i try
i cannot plan euphoric moments

things that went unplanned:

light trails and dance dresses
uniqueness found in a flood of people
hope that goodbyes will linger on
palm trees in the palm of your hand
lake eyes and tan laughter
discovering we were running for no purpose
and reminiscing barefoot nights in the trees
coughing up regretful truth
waking up on the ashy grey carpet
yet still hunting for bears
smoke and animals and faint music
letting the boiler burn and not feeling any pain
adopting gourds and playing pretend
because that's everything we can do in this life
and now i hope to never plan again

for just a minute, close your eyes
think of where you are
in this universe
on this planet
in a country
probably sheltered

think of your current reality
what problems are you having
why are you troubled

now just think of all of the places you haven't been
all of the people you have never met
and all of the opportunities you could take

you have to have a purpose
you will find it
just allow yourself

i think my heart might be the moon
i feel how bright it shines
this ***** is rarely present
orbiting in space
circling the globe
rocky
weightless
shifting tones from orange to silver to yellow
feared and loved
waxing and waning over time
black when full of jealousy
crescent when i spot a glimmer of hope
full when experiencing pure bliss
and reborn every month
to go through the cycle again

button eyes
button nose
button lips
button girl, your soul, she kindly sips

little drink
brandy more
some is poured
let this girl slowly be your overlord

tie your tie
zip your slacks
comb your hair
a word from her, both will be in underwear

eyelash eye
stick of lip
sweetly curled
her lack of innocence, in front of you, unfurled

eyes of green
fade to red
"I want you now."
takes you all without a single holy vow

cleaning up
done whats done
kiss goodbye
she's already gone to find another oblivious guy

words are evidence
his friendship was betrayal
eyes on fire in ignorance
sarcasm in the cruelest form

what does she see in him
other than lack of anyone else
bright young girl with a sad smile
his rein on her mind is clear

our dislike of him shows no dislike of her
it shows our love for her
how she is one of earth's diamonds
with a ***** lump of coal

****** the ticking of the clock

the passage of time
cannot be in your mind
and if you let it unwind
tracing life down your spine
vertebrae harder to climb

leave me sublime

****** the ticking of the clock

foolish system made by man
as if we have a higher plan
stick to this foolish clan
stick to this foolish clan
condense time in a can

someone extend my lifespan

****** the ticking of the clock

universe in each eye
skeleton hung out to dry
watch this man's bones learn to fly
he inspired us to try
but now he can only goodbye

shame we all have to die

someone PLEASE ****** the ticking of the clock

familiar black confetti fills my mind
small men replace my brain
boasting their invitation to the Anger Party
their strobes brush the insides of my eyes
and make sure to unlock the chaotic thoughts
taking my words and holding my tongue
and painting my face as red as their devil's eyes
once they are done and cleaning up
this swirling vortex escapes through my tears
leaving me to my regrets
hungover, hoping never to see another party again