I love you, she says to Adam
I cherish you, she says to Steven
I will be yours forever, she says to Kelvin
I will die for you, she says to Nathaniel
I belong to you, she says to Daniel
Marry me, she begs Louis
when she carries Alex's seed...

My window frames me in reflection,
I gaze out to the snowy mountains
Beyond myself, yet before such places
You have run to, it has been so long,
Now comes another new winter, I see
Snow drifts reaching, winds to the sky,
High atop the autumn white mountains
Paler than loneliness, white as my hair.

My life was like season of autumn,
Joys were withering from top to bottom,
I was crying for my heart was sore,
Sadness was filling in its core,
I had no desire to live but a wish to die,
Bonds with life I wanted to untie,
I begged for my death and fell on my knees,
As my life was no less than dried autumn leaves.
  
But then you came,
and my life was never the same,
Spring of joys you bought along,
Rejuvenating me like a nightingales song,
Your caring smile has eternal powers,
Which rejoiced my life made it like a blooming flower,
With your care wounds of my heart you cured,
Drop by drop a desire to live in me you poured.
  
When I regretted my decisions of life behind,
Like a hot summer wind or blizzard blowing in my mind,
Then with your love and affection my heart you eased,
Making it happy and setting it in peace,
Your caring smile acted like a charm,
Which stopped bizarre regrets in my soul, made it calm,
You are the person, who taught me to live truly with nothing fake,
With no burden of past but a desire for beautiful future to make.
  
When my eyes are full of drizzles of pain,
Then you make me laugh and take me to joyous memories lane,
You are the one, who understands my heart,
And put together its pieces which had long back broken apart,
When my heart’s heavy and I cry,
To make me calm hard and hard you try,
You make me smile even at saddest times,
Pleasing my heart like tinkling chimes.
  
A new deep meaning of life from you I learnt,
Which shaped my life, giving it a turn,
Thank you for your help, support and care,
  
And for wiping my every tear.

I hear that sobbing in mama's room
Papa is at it again
All drunk and sweaty
Oozing of lover's ***
Wearing a grin that tells of his escapades

Mama's eyes all red and sunken
Heart driven into shallow emptiness

What was she like ?
she muttered, countless times
To a man lost in his lover's fantasy

I sit and stare
staring at the empty spaces
Papa is going away, I thought
Mama is gonna give up, I feared

I hear the sobbing again
This time louder
Papa is raining curses on Mama
I hide and weep in my closet
Hoping it relieves  Mama's pain  
sobbing as mama sobs
Waiting for Papa to be gone...

Tattered and unfocused
Trees rustle in the wind
My mind fades, into chimes and hymns
A shallow breath
A cold goodbye
A tear gliding into a world that abides
A gentle sunrise comes bearing renewed strength
Honest intentions and loving satisfaction awaits
A pick to earth with sweat to brow
a warm breeze embraces those who need it now
Fields be turned, seeds be put to bed
These seeds could be intentions
or thoughts in your head
Water them well, for one day they will grow
bearing fruit of your labor
Products of your faith
your work
and most importantly
Love <3