Live fast, die young.

Live slow, still go.

the pattern of the ferns transparent leaf
backlit courtesy of the august sun
caused me pause, left me wary
of the moments construction

it was not the leaf itself or its summer surroundings
the outline design of the radiant green held form
there are few things that truly exist
how could life ever be one of them?

from the burning miracle that is our sun
light and heat escape through emptiness
such a powerful force is softened gently
to lie upon a delicate creation

this led to my eye to construct an emotion
that remains palpable to this very morning
the will to explore all that is around my pinpoint self
requires carrying questions and discounting others


October 4, 2013

The trouble with Buddhism ?-- in order to free oneself of all desire, one has to desire to do so.
Henry Miller




Alexander Nikolayevich Scriabin


‘To think is to exaggerate.’ — Valéry

endurance is frequently a form of indecision.
princess elizabeth bibseco

After leaving port
in March disguised
as the Norwegian freighter Rena Norge,
the Leopard set sail
its mission to disrupt
Allied commerce.
On the 17 March it was stopped
in the North Sea by the cruiser
HMS Achilles and ordered to proceed
to the boarding vessel
HMS Dundee
for inspection
Heavily outgunned
Captain
the raider's commander
Hans
von
Laffert
had no option
other to proceed
to meet
the boarding vessel.
Captain
Selwyn
Day
of the Dundee
dispatched
a launch containing a boarding
party
with an officer and five men
to investigate
the mysterious ship.
Hans
von
Laffert
realizing he was about to be discovered detained the party and after about an hour opened fire on the Dundee with a salvo of two torpedoes.
The steamer manoeuvred out of the way
barely in time
and the torpedoes missed
Captain
Day's
ship by twenty feet.
Day ordered
his guncrews
to open fire and a hail of shells struck the Leopard
damaging a gun
and setting fires.
The Achilles hearing
the sound of gunfire
returned to the scene and opened fire
on the raider as the Dundee withdrew.
Shortly after
the Achilles's arrival
the Leopard sank with all 319 hands
going down
with the ship.
Damage to the British
vessels was light
and the only casualties consisted of the six boarding party members who were trapped in the Leopard when it sank.

if it kills, it kills slowly
pain is easily borne
the flower pressed pages of reality
diminish nothing
affect only the memory
which of course relies
on blips and pops

after awhile you can only sense
the release of substance into the stream
that is blood
this chemical stew is interpreted
as emotion

so where is the essence that covered the  wide eyed view of the flower in bloom?

I will write
I will write poorly
I will write well
my words may bring outside understanding
or be felt by myself only
they may be hidden in nonsense
or accepted as canon
while the background noise of the day
may interfere
I will write

the big lie that is security
string them up
braid the rope from the poor
shoot shoot shoot first
am i on the list yet?
**** the fbi
**** the people satisfied
with diversions
power shot an innocent man
power hides the facts
shuffled like cards in a deck
surrounded by tinder
we are unwilling to start the fire
i repeat
the fbi shot an innocent man
and covered up the fact
with the kardashians