Imperfections is all I see still hiding deep within me, but I do it best. Hiding that  is mastermind of camouflage. It's easier to fold it nice and neat and tuck it away. It only works for so long when all the piles accumulate no more time to procrastinate. Put forth my time love emotion and utter devotion. Tick ,Tick,Tick; Ihear it running out. Live it to the fullest cause I won't be able to get it back. Not time lost, but happily found.....lets hope it sticks around

I can open up I just need a little time
Have to make sure this is true.
No one knows the pain and fears I battle every day just to make it through.
Can't just wish it away, been there; done that... It doesn't work.
Demons in my head talk too loud to remind me of a different time.
I see his face sometimes still smiling like nothing
What I am, can't escape, I'm just a blur of what I can be
Dreams that I can't fight they find themselves right back over and over
only one way to end them
Can't wait, the end is near.

No longer allowed to breathe
I can only hope I finally killed that *******, that hateful ******* *******.
Surely never growing old she begs for the bullet and prays it wont take us both
Alone inside their eyes in her mind a crowded home only with the stars in the sky she ever shared a secret
But tomorrow in her life she'll make a change and lose regret
For the first time in ages she awoke with the biggest smile
but its still unsure whose still with us since the day that woman walked the longest mile
I can only hope I finally killed.that part of me that hateful piece of ***** no longer allowed to breathe

Hard as I ******* try ain't no lie I'm bound to die being very high....
The urge comes and goes day to day highs and lows can't escape the pain I feel then you throw those harsh *** blows....
So I push on counting my crows but I always end up throwing those bows

Darkness clouding my thoughts
Time to put an end to this madness
Tried so many times maybe I'll finally succeed.
But no one will believe its only my time to leave.
Only truth and loyalty in my heart from the very start
But you believe another part. ****!
I can't wait to stop my heart.
Torn, broken, and falling apart.
Waiting on my Blissful End.