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Joys fading into the dark again, time to close off why show me lite so we can be taken away. Feeling of dread dead unemotion  that spark I cannot find any more. Searching for days but it feels like its wonders away farther farther. Don't know how to please who to believe want to make it right but being pulled left and right run to back. But let's just go back lucite from being out of my mind body and soul time to come back to reality but my dream world is so great.... I've been told nothing last forever Everything must come to an end
Darkness clouding my thoughts
Time to put an end to this madness
Tried so many times maybe I'll finally succeed.
But no one will believe its only my time to leave.
Only truth and loyalty in my heart from the very start
But you believe another part. ****!
I can't wait to stop my heart.
Torn, broken, and falling apart.
Waiting on my Blissful End.
I can open up I just need a little time
Have to make sure this is true.
No one knows the pain and fears I battle every day just to make it through.
Can't just wish it away, been there; done that... It doesn't work.
Demons in my head talk too loud to remind me of a different time.
I see his face sometimes still smiling like nothing
What I am, can't escape, I'm just a blur of what I can be
Dreams that I can't fight they find themselves right back over and over
only one way to end them
Can't wait, the end is near.
Why do you think your left behind or even standing in line, when I'm clearly here by your side. I wish you could see inside me you would have no fears all that lurks,lumes, and Lear's. One day you will see I am pure of heart. And you was the one that was a lie from the start.

Wouldn't you believe it ..it's just my luck....
Hope turn to dream
and end up make believe
promised of story book
fantasies **** I
was kissed awake
by my prince were
were is my
happy ending........
Am I being selfish?
Or is it to much
to ask to be happy.
Come on my dear
price make a scene
take your place  
become that king
and me at your side
as your queen

No inbetween just you and me as a team.
Imperfections is all I see still hiding deep within me, but I do it best. Hiding that  is mastermind of camouflage. It's easier to fold it nice and neat and tuck it away. It only works for so long when all the piles accumulate no more time to procrastinate. Put forth my time love emotion and utter devotion. Tick ,Tick,Tick; Ihear it running out. Live it to the fullest cause I won't be able to get it back. Not time lost, but happily found.....lets hope it sticks around
Fairy tails easily promised
I try to show you that
you was what I wanted in
my life but.... we cant always get what we want
I see first hand and my haert is breaking
any give maybe one day I might atleast
have some glue.........
Thats just not my luck
I dont really give a f..k
NOT ANOTHER DAY ALONE......................
Wonder, wonder what time will bring. Used to be able to see so clearly... Not anymore to be cool when it's cloudy. Let me speak up loudly, proudly. Wait and see or be seen, this princess will be a queen
right my wrongs, it's hard to be strong. Killin time, waiting on a rhyme to unfold. Truth be told... Behold wishes do come true but not for you
confusion or is it just an illusion please tell me I'm not just assuming the crazy st that luming something's not right not brought to light hidden from my site... So why do I even fight... I'm not enough of a delight what the f* gives you the right? it's like saying I love you syke but I will be polite but I think your telling some whites so pull those shoes tight cuz this just might be worth it ight
Hard as I ******* try ain't no lie I'm bound to die being very high....
The urge comes and goes day to day highs and lows can't escape the pain I feel then you throw those harsh *** blows....
So I push on counting my crows but I always end up throwing those bows
Overanalyze try my mind on for size running at full speed. Realize words change but have the same meaning. Lingering but forgotten Shurley I heard them spoken only one thing can come up this. I will be left broken and choking struggling with my own insecurities why can I have some kind of security. I'll even take some kind of purity
All are not the same..... Casting judgment were only devotion lies. Talking but nothing is heard.
Rushing to let something good go, You just don't know .
Underestimate the love that is tru,that's just for you.
Searching for what's real or pretend. Time are you wassisting using your words in haste, cutting like a knife hurts worse than a slap in the face.
So hard to please, **** I'm on my knees.  So speak up let me know what's on that runaway  mind of yours, first one to say talk to me but you just stay silent.  You are your worst enemy  I know first hand so quick to jump to conclusions harbour of your own illusions disillusions.  Fill trapped inside of my own pleas just to get you to see.......  All of me , but you just don't believe.  Why can't you see?  Why can't I be enough of what you need?  I'm not here to deceave or make believe, You alone is what I conceave of that I really need.
Don't know your needs, you won't let them speak to me. Don't know your dreams, you holding back from me. Can't compete with the love you had before, want to make it better so you'll never want another love no more.
Feelings deep inside felt with no other.I'm not the one to smother but I can't get enough of you. When you hold me tight I don't want to be let go you're the one that I searched for my whole life the love that I found only leaves me feeling much more.
You're in my thoughts all the time taking all the room; nothing left behind can't keep my thoughts contained . Am i really deranged. Feelings felt neverbefore. Can nit stop them; forever more. You are what I need to make it through,  you and me together let's make a breakthrough. Everyones lost but now we are found,  changes of season all year around .......
No longer allowed to breathe
I can only hope I finally killed that *******, that hateful ******* *******.
Surely never growing old she begs for the bullet and prays it wont take us both
Alone inside their eyes in her mind a crowded home only with the stars in the sky she ever shared a secret
But tomorrow in her life she'll make a change and lose regret
For the first time in ages she awoke with the biggest smile
but its still unsure whose still with us since the day that woman walked the longest mile
I can only hope I finally killed.that part of me that hateful piece of ***** no longer allowed to breathe
****, is it going to come to this?
Why would I lie?
Why would I try to get past your eyes?
Please you must believe I've spoke no wrong.
You asked and I said, "I can't see how you can take what I said and mix it up"
It reflects the way you make me feel.
I was letting you in but I guess you're not ready for that.
That's my bad.
I thought you was on my level of us.
Deep inside my mind lost, been left behind always last in line nowhere left to hide counting down my time sence is fading grounded blind it's deep inside my mind
She watched his every move predictions made so soon in time we all must lose. In life you must pick and choose once earned you best pay your dues each path you make past time to move future is luck, humans always lose
Can't think right have so many mixed thoughts is it worth fighting for, or am I just going to be let down again like so many times before when you don't expect anything you can't be let down
Well...... I gave in I let loose let you in, and I will watch is you tear every piece of my heart apart. I will put it back together though mentally mixing that mortar and build that wall back up I think cender blocks should be strong enough this time.... we will see
Looks can be deceiving, even kinda misleading. You get this look of pure disbelieving, far away in your ****** expressions show more than you let on wish I could take a peek what is coming a dawn, or what's really going on.
For once In my life, I felt on I was on top of the world. walls come crashing down around me. what I see is disgust, distrust... What the ****! What have I done to have this kind of luck???????
Don't know if I can do it, don't know if I will make it Much longer, time is ticking and it always runs out. Can never say I was innocent it was stolen at an early age made me a dark person in the end, but change comes around made it easier on my nightmares so many, but **** if it is new one starting of losing a life I thought I could have. Just My Luck I'm always saying it maybe that's a sign now it's my time holy s* but I'm still the one left in line. Don't want to be left behind pushed around and forgot like everybody's daily grind , but some say I'm the blinds I can't see what's in my face but in the end its theother way around........
So many things filling this maze they call a brain.
All they can do is call me insane.
I see inbetween the lines and peek on the underlane.

What lies beneath the surface?
The little demons that haunt,
taunt and flaunt whatever they want.

It keeps me from my sunshine..........
Why am I so **** blind?
Always the first in line and the one left behind....
Can it be he's not here with me.
He chose another road than me.
I think I'm bout to over load really
explode, but I've got to go at it alone
   I knew it.
All alone is all we are......
Your the one gone in clouds
looking down on me with your
guilty contonus I'm tru
you just dont have a clue
One day you will see
One day you will believe
One day you will  really get me
One day I might not loose..........
What do you want me to do?
When you lie to me..........
What do you want me to do ?
When you down,degrade and disect me.........
What do you want me to do ?
When all the things you say I am.......Is really YOU

No lie!  Actions speak louder than words.
You can only
do so
much when your
the only one being
  100................
Can it be? Let me see, will he be here with me?
Can't you see you're all I need? Can't you see what you mean to me?
Can it be? Let me see, will he be here with me?

Bring light to my dark, come on baby let's make a start not a piece but my whole heart. Now see what you have done....
made a mark !

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