Train tracks
strewn with
bits of broken glass
That shimmer in
The cold winter sun.
I think about jumping
In front of
The next orange line train

Alone and lonely
The darkness takes me.
I'm searching for shooting stars
in the night sky
but the street lights
are too bright
and the clouds are
too dense.
The rain falls
slowly, it beats
******* my window
pane.

eyelids heavy with sleep
as my heart races
and dreams await

but I cannot sleep
because my mind races
and my heart awaits

You were my everything.
And now you are someone else's everything.
And I'm sure you'll be another's everything after that.

I'd like to kick you...but really what would that solve?
Matters of the heart cannot be dealt with violence.
One must just **** it up and tell their heart to just forget he ever existed.

The universe just won’t let me forget.

Pink petal pathway
Led me to a land far far away.
Away from gray skies, rain clouds
And reality.

Loose lips sink ships
And baby,
This ship is going down

I’m burning bridges to the ground
And baby,
I’m not going to drown.

A night of drinking and partying
Ended in 2 couches and 3 people.
You playfully pushed me over
Smushing your body close to mine.

I was with someone
but  hadn’t been in love with him
for a long time.
Your hardworking arms pulled me in closer
And you kissed my forehead.

I knew that night I had to end my
Already crumbled relationship

I knew that night that I didn’t want to
Go on forever without ever kissing you.

Blue eyes beckoned,
While your gravity gripped.
I got pulled in and
Swept up by your universe.
Then, without warning,
The gravitational pull failed.
And I fell so hard.
When I reached the ground,
I shattered.
The wind gathered up the pieces
And spun me around and around
It’s storm.
I have yet to touch the ground.

A pocketful of stars
An arm full of old scars
A crumbling heart,slowly falling apart.
A head full of dreams
A world that is never as it seems.

Caged like an animal you are
Living every night and day
In
Captivity. I offer this advice; Life is                            
Hard, Love hurts, and it's
Everyman for himself.

Words slip past my lips
and around the earth while
the sword taps at my heart.

Jars of all shapes and sizes
Filled with nuts and bolts
And other forgotten things.
******* by their tops into the ceiling
In my fathers work room withA half dirt floor.  
We used the jars’ contents
To put together mouse traps
That never caught any mice.
With ***** drivers and wrenches
And tools I never knew the name of
That adorned the floor and walls.

You were late again.
She was yelling.
Light seeped under my door with words that came out in a roar.
I was supposed to be sleeping.
You were supposed to be home.
I pulled the covers over my head,
Overcome by feelings of dread.
Your voices grew louder and louder
Doors slammed and all became quiet.
I was supposed to be sleeping.
You were supposed to be home

Loose lips sink ships
And baby,
This ship is going down
I’m burning bridges to the ground
And baby, I’m not looking back

It was a once in a lifetime situation
And I blew it,
Twice.
Rusted memories cling to me
Their paint peeling and the outside weathered
But inside is still the same.
I've forgiven
While you've forgotten.

When it rains, it pours,
and usually
I've forgotten my umbrella.
Racing through the rain  
I end up soaked and shivering,
Searching for shelter.
I push through puddles and pray for sunny days
Hoping someday the clouds will clear

It’s the way I stumble with the
Droopy-eyed feel of being buzzed.
And dizzy, muddled thoughts
That have never been so clear.
It’s the slurred words I spoke
That have never been so logical.
The way I stumble around you
And the way you catch me When I finally fall.

I'm making my way through miles and miles of frogs.
Looking for my prince
I'm swimming through Plenty of fish in the sea
Praying for a match.I'm writing this fairy tale
Of love and magic, yet still
Drafting the happy ending.
I was told if I loved something I should set it free.
I'm still waiting for you to come back to me

The coffee is bitter and full of grinds
Still I **** it down hoping it will wake me
Skimming through the morning metro paper,
Hoping for a seat at the next stop until the next stop is mine
The train creeps along the tracks,
The doors dinging at every stop.
I prepare myself for the worst because then
Everything else seems like nothing.
Walking into work I pour myself Another cup of coffee, surprised
That it is better than the usual sludge.
Hoping that today will be better than the typical trudge
Through the mountain of paper work.

Tubes like snakes
slithered through our
poetry class along with
cliches about love and ***
and loneliness.

Tea time
and crosswords
and cookies
cure hearts.

talk of
gumbo and
deliciously cold
plums will always
bring you to mind.

4:17 I'm awake and aware,
shaking with nervous energy and
searching for your face in the surrounding darkness.
Like a magnet I'm drawn to you.
5:05 Laying with you, our bodies intertwined
like an intricate celtic design.
Our hearts beat in rhythm, never missing a beat.
9:01 Happy in your arms.
I could lay here for always listening to you breathe.
9:08 You're gone and I'm uncertain you'll return,
all I can do is try not to imagine the worst, but the glass is half empty and the clock ticks loudly.
9:12 Your back and I'm happy to see you but
I can tell from your face that you aren't staying.
This is the part where I begin fraying.
The glass is empty,and the sand
has reached the bottom of the hour glass.
Time is up.

Lonely and lost I read the
Obituary of my heart. It is
Verbose yet vague.
Everyone silently sits, listening to the
Story of its break. I am sick with the thoughts of its
Corruption and contamination against love. It
Keeps me from moving on.

I believe in first glances
And second chances,
That the third time is a charm

If in the end I stumble and I fall
I know it was worth it all.
I'll have no regrets.

I put all my faith in a feeling,
All my heart in hoping.
But somehow I always end up heart broken.

Is this how it ends?
No 'happily ever after',
Not even just friends?

Bits of my heart scatter upon the floor while I
Run from razorblade rain that rips into me.
On and on I run but I can’t get dry.  A
Knight in shining armor races past me to another and
Ever after passes me by.
Nothing is right in my fairy tale.

Scared to smile around you so I stumble.
Tumbling and fumbling and shaking
Under your spell. I've been
Mistreated and defeated I'm a
Brambling idiot. I'm afraid of
Loving and living and leaving.
Eternity is such a long time to go without love.

I've fallen off the radar.
fallen between the cracks
and I don't know if I have
the strength, or the courage, to make it back.

The world disowned me.
The world set me free.
But I don't know now who I am supposed to be.

I'm in a state of suspended animation
hanging by a thread
from a needle that is my life.

My mood is like spring showers,
dismal and gray,
Saturating and lasting for days.

So out of control. Hiding
Underneath the clouds.
Never stirring from my spot. I'm always
Sleeping in the
Haze. Spending my days
In and out of rays. I
Need there to be an
Ever after.

All day long I begged you To let me ride your brand new bike.As soon as the guests were gone,And the party nothing but scattered gift-wrap,I snuck outside and snatched your big kid bike.My face still covered in cake, and heart racingI jumped on, I peddled down the hillSoon the cement walk ended, gave way to grass.I slammed the breaks, they failed and I went on.I was airborne, going over the stone wall.I let out a screech and mom came running.My arm twisted, the bone sticking out.Mom screamed and auntie came running

There’s a conflict
Brewing in my brain,
A coffee stain
Soiling my new shirt.
If I open up my heart
Will it hurt?

Another hundred
Million sighs,
Sighed.
Another hundred
Million days
Gone by.

Raindrops fall
In the orange glow
Of the dim streetlight,
As I question all I know
I watch them shimmer
In puddles at midnight.

Photographs of friends
Lying before me,
Previously sat in boxes
Breathing in the darkness.
Now breathing small breaths of light.
A dead butterfly falls from the page.
An image from real life
Slips through my hands.
A couple is trapped in sunlight
With darkness forever waiting.

The leaves have
Fallen.
Gave way to wiry winter branches,
And lay decaying,
Dead
And
Dying,
Underneath my feet.

Killer raindrops
Endlessly drip down
And I frown.
I evade them, but stumble into
Painful puddles.

I climb out.
I stoop to smell the flowers,
But they're all looks
And no scent.

So I move on, running,
Traveling through time.
Darting through the days.
Moving on to months,
And finally falling through the years.

.....................     High above the world or so it seems  
                                    Staring out at the busy city below.                                   
                                          Cars are whirling by while a                           
                                     Church silently sits in the distance.                                     
                                           Lit up, like a sign from God,              
                     Beckoning me back to the religion I’ve never found.     
                                     The cars below go every which way,                    
                                             In their organized chaos.                                            
                                                   All of us just trying                                                    
                                                        to find a way                                                          
                                                               home.