the water stings
my heart aches
my soul burns

it almost saved me
but it will never heal me
my head is too far gone

there is no blood yet i bleed
there is no knife yet i bear scars
there is company yet i remain alone

alone in the dark
too deep for the cries to be heard
fading away without a second fate

there was a day when i had a cat
he was as silly as can be until he went splat
the poor old boy
he just wanted his toy
it's a shame he was such a brat.

Alone, but not in completion.
Starving, but in repletion.
Alive, but in perpetual moribund.
At home, but feeling foreign.

Still, I devise with him
and he with me.
Our hazard seems grim,
but we shall see
when our culmination comes to be.

The evil is he.
Now as I sit
on the precipice of damnation
I take in the examination
of what this counterfeit
looks to be free.

Again, I confine the twinge.
He closes in and I cringe.
Then, the axiom is revealed,
Everything must be concealed.
Despondence, Bliss, Enmity, Albatross.
I must leave it all behind,
or he will be the end of my time.

clouds are starting to surround the moon
i guess that means it's close to noon
my mood is low
with no place to go
i guess i'll try and stay till june.

there's something happening in my brain
it's causing me to stop and drain
my hopes are out
and without a doubt
i must keep pushing through all of the pain

I've never been able to fly,
but the truth is I never cared to try.
Everyone I know was out soaring,
but I just said my wings were broken.
Sometimes I believe that I'm just boring
and that's why I'm never outspoken.
Hopefully I'll be like the others one day.
Spreading my wings and being the angel I was told to be.
Sadly, the brutal truth is,
I'm too afraid to be dead when I'm not even alive.

I see a little light as bright as gold
I wish I was there instead of being cold
this winter is being harsh
I think I'd rather live in a marsh
I wish I could tell them how I feel
but I guess it's to late to make a deal
they promised me a better life
I wish i could've been a wife
they told me to listen to them
I wish I wouldn't have taken the gem
I knew I shouldn't have taken the vow
all I wish is that they were here now

her coldness keeps you numb
just long enough to null the pain
then she lets go

she floods you with her anger
too much to bear
you can no longer stay afloat

she floods your heart

your heart drowns

she has won

how do i escape
all the mistakes i made
my heart was left agape
i just want the pain to fade

when will it all end
i've already lost this war
why waste my time left to spend
when i can't do anything more?

where would i go?
there is no where left to turn
everything is beginning to slow
i have nothing left to earn

how do i walk away?
how do i let go?
how do i start each day?
how do i pay this debt i owe?

when the day reaches its end
when the sun finally sets
can i still call you a friend?
is this the best it gets?

soon the world will see
just how much you mean to me
but that's a thing of the past
you are free at last.

i wish you would tell me
just how you feel
i want to know what you think
i want to learn all about you
i crave it

it pains me to sit and watch
while you walk a different path
i want you to walk my way
but all you see is the opposite

moving away from me
while i follow
you slip further away
while i dive deeper still

to doubt is to have a high prize
just try to ignore the way a tear dries
but one day they will all see
when the flower fails to please the bee

what makes some uneasy
makes me feel at ease
the way she moves with mystery
fills my heart with sincerity

the fire burns with passion
the moon settles into its home
the stars rise with no doubt
the waves crave to be understood
the heart beats with a bleeding rigor
the wind calls down upon the trees
none will have fear
all will be celebrated

what is
will never end

but will also never be

how many wishes does it take
to get to the center of a frozen lake

how many cries does it take
to get over a heartbreak

how many years does it take
to realize i was never awake

heart beats slow.
some will never know.
only time goes to show,
that this heart will never glow.