funny to think I have been so caLm and together
amidst the greater untogetherness of my life
the laughing audience in my head cackling
at the laughable audience following my cracking

if it were set in sides of a scale
I'd be afeared to watch it balance

mayhap some creature of diRe
would erupt in a tangle of talons

that's what I'm afraid of after all,
that I am the pungent void that consumes
the eyes that glide low in the grass
and rise up with hate and ******
the teeth that bite with unclenching malevolence
bite biTe BITE YOUR WEAK ******* FLESH
AND SNAP YOUR WORTHLESS PILE OF BONES
SNAP
SNAP
SNAP
CRACKLE
CRACK
DON'T
YOU
EVER
COME
BaCK

HURt YOuR neGLiGeNT sOULs wITH thE PaIN
yOu alloWed to hIM to iNFLict On me...

but dEath still coils a leaf slowly to the ground
even for such thiNgs

Am and me poestry

  gets
fuckedy uppy

whence

I go on and on and...

per    man    ently
one or two
can't stop

wrought rusty

i ron

beer smelly

big bellied
I drin k to
u

What you see here, my dear
Is mere mierde if I dare
It does compare not a hair
Not worth a tare or pinch of air
To what lies beneath
I might bequeath a brief peek
To see the sights you seem to seek
You might suspend disbelief
If you could peep how deep
The iceberg creeps
You might weep
You might cheer
To know it all
Does not end here
You might smile
You might despair
All the while
It does not compare
To know the completeness of a creature
Is no feat where feet could span the feature
Noses, eyes, hairs and thighs are not enough for believing
Toes, ears, fingers and beards are actually quite deceiving
They in no way describe the tangled mass
Of love and hurt that's stored within
It does not compare, it's much too vast
This universe we grow inside our skin.

People with their painted faces
Pale in comparison
To those with false embraces
Swallow bad medicine
For strength to your heart
Held together with untied laces
 
Oh where oh where did you find that brush
I noticed the handle happens to be long enough
To paint your insides and complete the bluff
 
Temple worn from indifferent paces
The human marathon
Rush to fill empty spaces
With emptier icons
That come from the part
That the icon ironically defaces
 
Oh how oh how did you empty your head
Descartes tried for years but just ended up dead
Makes me wonder if it’s even worth what I said
 
A chivalrous stride still loses races
Mind over matter
But money puts you in the highest places
I’m sensing a pattern
Every end needs a start
But if I break the mold others will make traces
 
Oh when oh when did I lose focus
Guess we never know when life will try to yoke us
Maybe it makes sense that our defense is hocus pocus

From one obsession to another
Dyslexic manic depression
Like infinity
From the ocean cool serene scene
To the traffic packed fact sack
I am constantly dead
And having to wake from this
Into a skydive
Just so I believe in the Earth
That I’m playing chicken with
May I say that “chicken ****”
Can be a commendable description of character?

This whole world love love is a drug
And God the unbeknowing pusher
I felt his behemoth hands in my back
Before my fall

I think they made wings

Word
Word
Word
Word, Word Word
Trying to get out
Word
To be completely free
Word
  is
Word
  is
Plentiful shared
Word will share
Make you still
listen, learned
Word
Word
is bond
ing
construct
ive
ly
Word is free
but not complete
ly
Word is thanking
praising
worshipping
slipping
slipping out when you’re weak
holding
holding strong and marinating
in your mind
Word is
viciously kind
whatever
whatever you want it to be
soldier on the front lines
or General building a fort behind
It is your tongue's exercise
and nothing more than word
Word comes from spit
Mucous lung ****
Makes a man a hypocrite
Makes a god a prophet
Makes a poet
Makes love inadequate
Made nothing yet
So when I say to you:
"Word word word, word"
Please believe more in something there
Like my hand through your hair

Scream.
Scream firelight electric skies.
Scream torrential sideways winds.
Scream nonsense and fortified lies.
Scream names in vain and horrible sin.
Scream ****** ****** and bravos.
Scream lightspeed ways that rip the cosmos.
Scream a universal chunk from your mortal throat.
Scream jellybeans, sweet and sour notes.

Scream and I will hold you
            like you were dying
Scream and I will kiss you
            like it were initiation into the unknown
Scream and I will need you
            like you were never coming back

Scream

Or don’t scream at all

I’ll still do these things