Jesse Jas

Jesse Jas Dec 2011

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I want to jump,
I want to dive,
In the ocean so blue,
So free and so calm,
Just like the sky,
Up in the space…

I want to forget,
I want to remember,
Every single word,
Every single thing,
Every movement they take,
But I just can’t
I can’t – do anything at all…

So I pray,
And pray,
Hard enough,
So that one day,
I will fly away,
Leaving nothing behind,
No friends or golds,
Not even a memory,
To remember me by...

Jesse Jas Nov 2011

Goodbye

There have been a lot of happenings
In my life, in your life,
People changed, you changed, and I changed,
But not the feelings, not the heart…

I do love you,
And I’m sure you do as well.
There’s nothing wrong with both of us,
Or maybe it is just me…

I am not sure of what have happened,
I am not sure at all.
It feels so surreal,
It started out well, but –
Now I wanted more,
You wanted more,
But that is just human for us.

How much do I love you?
That is not the question to ask now.
I am letting you go not because of anger,
Because I love you,
Because I just can’t hurt both of us any longer…

Jesse Jas Jun 2011

Sometimes

Sometimes,
How I wish you were here,
Talks to me till I fall asleep,
And slowly you will wrap yourself around me,
And that would be my happiest moment in life.

Sometimes,
I wish you will never leave,
Because I wanted to know you more,
Because I love you that I can’t even let you know it.

Sometimes,
I wish I can always dream of you,
That we are together,
That you and I will always stay that way.

Sometimes,
Just sometimes,
I wish I have all the words,
So that I can tell you everything,
Everything that you wanted to hear,
Every word that can make you listens.

Jesse Jas Apr 2011

Imaginary Love

Only if I could,
Touch the sky
And catch the stars,
I would give them to you,
Just to make you mine.

This heart is yours
To keep or to throw,
Even if you break it
I’ll mend it right away,
Just so I can stand up
And forever be yours.

Trust me as I say this
I breathe just to see you
I walk just to be with you
And I run just to keep up with you
So that you are never far from me
And I am always near to you.

But I am nothing to you
As I am always lost in the crowd
Even when I’m alone
I am nowhere to be found,
Because you and me
Have never even existed..

Jesse Jas Mar 2011

One of Those Nights

It’s raining outside,
And how I wish I was standing there,
In the rain with the thunder,
So I can cry as much as I wanted to,
Without anyone noticing the tears…

It’s cold and dark,
This empty room,
No one but me still sitting here,
In this box of memories,
Waiting for you to come back again…

Where have you been?
Where have you go?
I miss you not, but I wanted you to come back,
Because I need you here,
You’re more than just my love…

I stay awake,
Every single night,
Hoping you will call,
Hoping you will open that door,
And lie beside me and forget everything…

Jesse Jas Mar 2011

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Please forgive me,
No words can describe how I feel now,
Even the wind won’t understand,
Even though he has travel round the world,
Feel so alone, feel so lonely,
Wish the world would just end right in front of me…

Leaving no one behind,
Not even the memories of being alive,
The fresh air in the morning,
Would be nothing but a myth…

But please just leave me behind,
When the end is near,
I couldn’t care less,
Because no matter how far I run,
The past is still with me…

How can I forget?
How can I forgive?
The lies, the sins, the memories,
Blame it all on me,
Let the flame burn me all,
Everything will still remain…

I love you,
And loving you is a sin,
But loving you is so warm and serene,
I just can’t help but to keep on falling…

Would you come back someday?
Would you forgive and forget?
Would you hold me tight and never let go?
Maybe, just maybe, perhaps you would…

Jesse Jas Mar 2011

Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow

I'm standing here today,
Watching as people walked by,
Noticed something in common,
'cause everyone walks in pairs,
Smiles and laughter on their faces,
Wondering if I ever have that moment too...

This is life and it’s pretty rough on me,
But why is it seemed so easy for others to cope?
Maybe it is true that only the strong one will survive,
Because I don’t think I’ll live longer that everyone I’ve seen today...

Love is something that I don’t understand,
Honesty is something that always have stayed away from me,
Faith doesn’t even want to shine on me,
And hope never even heard my name before...

Will I be the same with the people I’ve seen today?
Will I be a part of the world with so much memory to cherish?
Maybe yes, maybe no, life is like a path,
Left or right, the outcome is the same,
Only the direction is different but the end will still be the same,
I ought to be alone and alone I will be till the end...