i sometimes ask myself
how shall i remember you?
is there any specific way that would do justice to your
memory
the hole you left in me
the hole you took from me
that i’m getting back ever day
or at least thats what i tell myself
but in all this chaotic
dramatic
problematic
bundle of memories
how shall i remember you?
i could remember you as my best friend in the world
because you were
but we both know
that wasn’t the whole story
i could remember you as the person
who took the light out of their eyes
because they thought i might be
afraid of the dark
*
because you did
i could remember you as the person who harassed me
made multiple accounts on social media to distract me
when i started to catch on
because you did
i could remember you as the person who once
offered to teach me how to cut
because you did
i could remember you as the person
who was
always looking for a way to take the stars out of the sky
because you were
i could also remember you as the person
who
thought you were entitled to my heart mind and soul
because you did
or i could remember you as my best friend
who shared their every thought with me
who only dreamed that i would succeed
because you did
*but thats not the full story
i can't choose