Jennifer Watson

Jennifer Watson Mar 2014

Monsters

Sometimes I need to be told that you care
Because in my head are monsters lurking everywhere
Making me doubt
Making me want to scream out.
So just tell me you care,
So that these monsters can flee,
And I could be free.

Jennifer Watson Mar 2014

Lies

Tell me that wasn't you
Take back all the pain
Stop the tears streaming down my face.
I know that I'm insecure
I doubt
I fail at relationships
I don't know what to say
I don't know what to do
I want to talk to you
But all I feel is that I'm pushing you away
But that's cause I feel you're pushing me away
I want to fight back
I want to scream
I want to shout
I wanna run
Yet want to stand steady as well.
I'm still trying to figure everything out
Still trying not to be an emotional roller coaster
So that I can say what I mean
And not feel like crying.
So that one day
Maybe I can hold my head up high
And see the lies in your eyes.
Only then maybe I'll be fine.

Jennifer Watson Dec 2012

My crush

I wake up to his good mornings,
And fall asleep to his good nights.
Every time my phone buzzes
I hope it was him,
And every time it was,
I get a smile,
Cuz that's how much I really like him.
He makes me feel sweet,
And he makes me feel special,
So he rocks my world every day.
From sunrise to sunset,
He's always on my mind
And in every dream
He is the apple of my eye.

Jennifer Watson Dec 2012

Maybe

Maybe if the scars weren't so deep,
Maybe I would be able to breathe.
Maybe if there weren't lies behind every truth,
Maybe I could believe.
Maybe if there weren't memories everywhere I turned,
Maybe I could forgive.
Maybe if there wasn't hate behind closed eyes,
Maybe I could love.
Maybe if there wasn't scorn in the whispers behind my back,
Maybe I would feel comfortable in my own skin.
Maybe if it wasn't so dark,
I could see the light of a friend so near.
Maybe if I didn't feel buried,
Then I could learn to swim.
Maybe if there weren't any maybes,
I could let the whole world know my story
But until that day comes,
I'll hide behind my maybes.

Jennifer Watson Dec 2012

Future

You see the door is closing,
Not wanting to look in.
You see your heart is pouring out,
All your true colors rushing out.
For once in your life,
The tears are not falling down.
And for once in your life,
You're not afraid to be let down.
You're looking through the glass,
And all you want is more.
Not hindered by faltered of the mind,
You can see clearly now.

Jennifer Watson Dec 2012

Last Thought

As I layed dying,
Praying, "Please God help me out."
The memories flashed before my eyes,
All the good,
And all the bad ones.
The good outweighing the bad.
I remember me being there for you,
I remember you opening up,
But now here I am
The blood pouring out,
And my last thoughts are:
How I let you in,
And you tore me apart.

Jennifer Watson Dec 2012

Love Life

If I could take back every idiotic thing I did,
Would I be happy?
Would you be happy?
I don't know what life's all about.
I'm still trying to figure out,
How to walk while trying not to fall.
I have all these emotions running through me,
But what do they really mean?

I'm trying to pick myself up again,
But all I do is keep breaking.
I'm trying to learn how to love,
Without hating.

No matter how many times i say im sorry,
You wont forgive me.
No matter how many times i cry,
You cant make the tears go away.
No matter how many times i try to be good,
You make me evil.
No matter what i do,
It never will be enoguh for me or you.

I'm trying to pick myself up again,
But all I do is keep breaking.
I'm trying to learn how to love,
Without hating.

I'll let you in,
But you'll just tear me apart.
I would do what you say,
But you don't even mean what you say.
You're on your on planet,
And my message can't get to you.
I never wanted to hurt you,
But you left me no choice.