Tonight as I fall asleep,

I feel you sink into bed
Right next to me.
I feel as you reach over to kiss me,
kiss me goodnight.

I feel as you slide under the covers
bringing your body close to mine.
I feel your warmth
colliding with mine.

I feel your eyes glance
up and down my body
As they settle in to close
I feel you.

I feel you here,
but only in my dreams.
I feel you darken the moonlight,
but it's only your shadow.

That's the only thing I feel tonight.

late nights and homesick hearts never make for a quiet soul
excessive coffees and quilted secrets make the heart beat fast,
palpitating, jumping, murmuring hyperbolic hopes

late nights and homesick hearts can only be softened
when one's soul is at peace,
hopeful,
restful,
joyful.

In the summer
I stretch out on the shore
And think of you
Had I told the sea
What I felt for you,
It would have left its shores,
Its shells,
Its fish,
And followed me

You are not for me and I am not for you
It's not suppose to be this complicated
Time and space have held us apart
Like an unknown force that holds you down in your sleep when you know you're awake

I want your warm naked body on mine
And I want you to look into my eyes
And for both of us to know, that in another life we were lovers
Possibly forbidden or Pharaohs not arranged in marriage
And when we look into each other's eyes we know,
God aligned you and I

But that is not the case with you, although I swear it was for a split second
You are not for me and I am not for you

I'll *******,
If you want.
Cause I want it
Just as bad as you do.
But I also want to hear the rustle of the sheets
When you turn over in the middle of the night.
I want to feel your hot breath on my neck.
I want the stubble on your chin to graze my cheek
As you kiss me gently on the forehead.
And when I whisper "goodnight," you don't have to reply.
Just nudge me with your knee
Or poke me with your elbow.