Misunderstood faces.
Mental memory digraces
Misplaced & unintergrated
Hated yet elated
Ugly & overrated
Stupid & insulated
Cheap and propagated
Simply situated
Twisted in the eighties
Straight perpetuated
Hurt, cursed & jaded
Deadly double plated

Not in sight
not by day
Nor by night
Sinking ships
Sunlight figures
Turn grey and figureless
Lost in space
Lost in time
No rythym
Nor rhyme
Words lose meaning
Truth stinging
Emotions bleeding
Pooling into misunderstanding
Trying to piece it together straining
Looking down upon sanity
Blasphemous in my vanity
Double standards
Life's dander
Dont mean to banter
In a mental decanter
I recount my misdeeds
Still planting bad seeds
Untruths turn to lies
In a world of black flies

We are, we really are headed for hell
Whether its a fiery pit or a prison cell
We are not free, we will mot lead
We will wake up failing, incontinent, and weak
Unable to change a thing
Angry and deranged, restrained and detained.
Mismanaged and feeling plagued
In disdain, major pain
Meanwhile we refrain from doing anything about it
We sit back, **** it in and remain in a cage
We are tainted at point black period,
We are jaded from feeling inferior natured,
We are unique, geniuses
with mars, penises
******, venuses
Universal Uranus anuses
Hated, degretated, segregated, underrated.
Cursed with little patience

This is me; so free & uninformed;
Once before; so young & adored
Dreams that stretched unto forever
Heart that was broken through ignorance
A mind that could open pandoras box
The charm & heart that would seemingly never stop;
Rags for clothes; rich with music; full of lyrics; poems & rants
Bitter, but strong in a self indulgent land;
Love conquered through waves of hurt;
Building me up with all of the perks;
Charm & swagger; no longer winning
Little did I know; the end would be my beginning; with love transcending; this & that blending.
Veins appear; new spots, new freckles & moles; with veins bursting from clots.
The eyes that trap you in the night; the thoughts that silence you with stiffening fright; we wake in our deepest breath; rising embodied to see what's next.

Love equals nothing, how would I know
**** verses ***** i stay wet, but it doesnt grow
Here we go, here I am all alone
Do it wrong, it all scattered in places it doesn't belong
Smiling faslely, holding on balsy
Looking at you and I feel like I failed
Constant loser, a baby unveiled

Flipping through pages ;
Full of you and I
Moments well captured;
our legacy in still life
Browsing every picture;
smiling at every word
Holding on to time;
our albums of gold
A timeline of growth;
With journey so bold
Aside me you sit;
We only get older
A life of bliss;
In pages of golden boarders

Mush brain, empty stomach
Lifting myself, the day plummets
Walking to run,  running to drunk
Day is gone, soul depleting
Filing my patience, wanting
Hating myself, needing you
Itched, scratched, beaten, dragged
Pushing through, minute to minute
Face looks dead, body needs bed
Mind swirling, fingers play with anything
Sheets smoothe, pillow heaven
Thoughts of food, starved by time
Quakes of emotion, left behind
Bottles clear, from their emptiness
Still, there is air, trapped and unoticed
Corked and done with, Sealing me in
Silently on the cement with the other bottles