It seems there are forces, we cannot control
Leaves our hearts tangled in forest, shining light through its cluster
As it rains and its cold, we seek comfort through our thoughts
Hearts still beat, hands still feel the drops of cold misery
Mind knowing it is better to feel long than nothing
Time speeds accordingly though our routine
A seeking of relieve and ending, the sun bringing hope rays
New beginnings and well deserved, appreciation as we learn
Eyes flood like the roads, messy from the mask ive put on for you
We seek perfection through moments, these anticipated visions
Your eyes dry from the desert and ready for my rain
With you in the desert and I in the forest rain..

Scratching nails for your life
Finger nails to a ****** quick
Chest tensely beating
Dropping stomach
Staring and blank
that taste that is so familiar
Deja vu flavored
A distant memory
A comfortable thought
Holes in the ground
And then
we fall

once when we looked to the stars
back laid back on a towel
sharing hope that love stows in its bowel

then when we looked away
spending our days in dismay
wasting our time away

appreciated words
cherished time
telling you goodbye, just one more time

hands gripped, tears strained
hard as hell, no one to blame
car sitting, tissues ripping

your still here, but no one is listening
so much pain, no remorse
lets let depression take its course

when goodbye feels like forever..
kisses that just cant cauterize the wounds..
tears that burn like salt in cuts..

I  will wait and hurt..
you will hope I  don't..
I will let you down..
you will help me drown..

A darkened depth, a roaring sorrow
today I see you, though you're gone tomorrow
a vibrate glow, your smile projects
a beating heart, with no regrets
hard and lonely, a road we know
we're never ready, but here we go
a mental hunger, love neglected
high hopes, our love respected
always here, I hope you know
even with distance, I am your home

Hate, destruction, despite my pity
the hate will overcome
horrible, nasty, I'll never get this past me
horror terror, I wish you the worst
alone I will hide at home i will reside
dislike the resentment
move past the wrong
solemnly in silence,
the place I belong..

It awakens when my mind is altered
drunk and completely blacked out
the monster that cant be me

stress builds and things go without being said
so nobody know because its all in my head
just a few shots bring out the evil that cant be me

I hold it inside until I drive myself crazy
then nobody sees it coming
the monster is raging

I has to be me because I am to blame
Though I wouldn't do that if the beast were tame
I will destroy it now before it destroys me

Its mean and hateful and has no mercy
this terrible demon, by which I am ****** it vain
Someone always gets hurt, though I feel the worst

The beast inside of me is driven by pain
it dwells within me and I don't know its name
all I know is it cant be me, this horrible thing

It will destroy me if I don't have control
I will lose everything, my family and home
the one that I love will finally give up

I will become what I have never wanted to be
this burden I will conquer, the beast inside of me..

These Heart felt nothings
Unfulfilled mornings
Me left hurting
Hating myself
Wanting nothing
Maybe a little respect
Hate and bigotry will overcome us
I will overcome myself
I a sure a peasant would frown a pun me
Knowing that I do not appreciate
Loathing myself
Concentrating on oneself
Being selfish and faithless
For nothing. Can save me..
I turn for pity and yet I deserve a whip
I beg for sorrow nd hell; s what fits