well they say that your heart is the size of your fist
and my friends try to hit me but most times they miss
but your heart is a wrecking ball, i can’t escape it
and now I can’t remember the last time we kissed

and you buried my heart somewhere under your sheets
and my soul is out in the rain wandering the streets
and my mind’s in november trying to piece this together
and my body is trying so hard to remember

that there was a time when you looked in my eyes
and you told me i’m beautiful, but was it a lie
are these memories, killing me, haunting you too
and did you ever love me, dear, like i love you

were those words that you wrote to me covered in ink
that would wash away easy in the bathroom sink
off your hands, as you wash out the memory of me
while your colors still stain everything that i see

well they say that your heart is as big as your fist
and for all the times i’ve been knocked out i have missed
and your heart is a wrecking ball, can we survive this
when i can’t even remember the last time we kissed

yeah you buried my broken heart under these sheets
and my lonely soul’s lost somewhere out on the streets
and my mind’s in november trying to keep us together
and my body is shaking as i try to remember

the time that you held me and looked in my eyes
and you made me feel beautiful, and i felt alive
now these memories are killing me, do you miss me too
and could you ever love me, now, like i love you

were those words that you spoke to me covered in ink
that would wash away easily right down the sink
wash your hands of this, wash out the colors of me
while your memory stains everything that i see*

and they say that your heart is the size of your fist
and my friends try to hit me but most times they’ve missed
and your heart is a wrecking ball, i can’t escape it
and now i can’t remember the last time i kissed you.

oh i’ve cried a million tears for you
til i can’t breathe and my lips are turning blue
and now i sit here wondering what i’m supposed to do
cause i lost it all, i lost it all, but mostly i lost you

i cry myself to sleep each night in bed
cause i can’t get your face out of my head
i lay here singing to myself and wishing i were dead
cause i lost it all, i lost it all, but mostly my best friend

where do i go, cause you know i don’t know
how to be by myself
please tell me what went wrong, i don’t wanna write this song
i wasn’t ready for this

i know that you were never really mine
but i hoped that things would fall in place with time
and now i’m lying through my teeth each time i say i’m fine
cause i lost it all, i lost it all, but mostly lost my mind

i wish we could go back to how things were
and how it was when i felt like your girl
and how i thought back then that you could love me, i was sure
now i lost it all, i lost it all, but mostly my whole world

i’ll drink to your health, cause i can’t help myself
i don’t want no one else
i’ll wait for days that will never be, until the day you turn to me
but i’ll be happy if you’re well

i hope someday you realize that it’s true
how wonderful you are, the good you do
and if i never hold your hand again that’s okay too
but i loved it all, i loved it all, but mostly i loved you

once upon a time or two there lived a family
the mama and the daddy and their little girl Prairie
Prairie was a happy child, her smile big as the sea
and her eyes shone like two bright blue stars hung in the galaxy

Prairie was a girl in love like flowers with the bees
with the wind, and how he blew right through and swayed the canopy
she’d breathe him in and hold him in her chest until she’d wheeze
and just as soon as he was there he vanished easily

her eyes looked like two big gray stones, she shook alike the leaves
she felt him all around her but his face she could not see
she cried she cried “I love you so” into the empty breeze
and the only thing the wind brought back was dust to make her sneeze

a broken heart, her body was too weak to move, so she
around her wrists tied red balloons, lifted her off her feet
she watched the landscape fade away, the clouds they kissed her cheeks
and her tears they fell like raindrops down onto the empty street

she laughed and smiled although she cried so hard she could not speak
the wind stirred up and blew right through her like the canopy
she closed her eyes, apologized, her lungs refused to breathe
and the wind grew cold when he couldn’t hold her like she would with he

her mom and dad searched day and night looking for their sweet pea
but the wind had pushed her far away, like secrets kept too deep
they found her body safe and warm nestled between the trees
the animals had gathered ‘round, she smiled in endless sleep

once upon a time or two we all fall to our knees
but time has gone and will go on even so when we weep
but do not hold your heart of gold as black beneath the sheets
for the world is full of love for you my dear, if you believe

I love
I hate
I give
I take
I need
I want
I plan
I plot
I will
I won't
I have
I don't
I'm gone
I'm here
I'm mean
I fear
I'm warm
I'm cold
I'm meek
I'm bold
I kiss
I lick
I push
I kick
I hurt
I heal
I'm fake
I'm real
I love
I hate
You were
You're late

if it’s too hard to say it
then show me
but if you don’t mean it
don’t whisper it in my ear
hidden between your breaths
rhythmic and in time
as your body lies to me

walls of thick darkness don't react, fading in around me
my chest is hungry for the venom, the only soothing
i can find behind your teeth, soft clouds break in two
rain falls, suspended in the empty space of the room

if life’s a house of cards, each hand that she was dealt was too much or too little
and even when she changed the game the hands she played they broke her every time

she only wanted her child to succeed

someday she will be happy, someday she will go back
someday she’ll cut right down that scar and her heart will breathe again

if life’s a bowl of cherries well she broke her teeth when she would bite into them
the fruit was sour but the juice ran down her chin - we all thought it was blood

she only wanted to be loved like a queen

someday she will be thankful, someday she will come back
someday she’ll open up her head and her dreams will live again

~~

and if life’s a box of chocolates you know she prefers, well, any other candy
specifically valentine’s hearts because she likes to bite them down the center

she only wants it all

well life’s a game of russian roulette if she loads the gun you pull the trigger
the early bird will get the worm, the worm will get the fish hooked with one line

she’s different, different now

but someday she will be hopeful, someday she won’t look back
someday she’ll pack her bags, she’ll hit the road, we’ll meet again