I thought of all the things you do, the things that make me smile
and though the pain still beats inside, it helped me for awhile
I hope, for you, thing things I do stretch your lips ‘cross for miles

I thought of all the things you do, the things that make me swoon
and though my head is still a mess, it helped me through the gloom
I hope, for you, the things I do help you shine like the moon

I thought of all the things you do, the things that make me laugh
and though the tears well in my eyes, it helped me to relax
I hope, for you, the things I do make you feel not so bad

I thought of all the things you do, and hoped you that you thought back

I can’t sleep at night
you know I never have
can’t even dream no more
spend all day inside my head
and I won’t try again, I won’t
try to find myself, I won’t
try to hide from this, I won’t
close my eyes.

I can’t lie, you know
the devil lives in me
takes up all my time
he likes my company
and I won’t cry again, I won’t
try to find my way, I won’t
try to be okay, I won’t
open my eyes.

I can’t smile no more
my lips deceive my mind
I’m not a child no more
I’m aging all the time
and I won’t trust again, I won’t
try to be someone, I won’t
try to please anyone, I won’t
dry your eyes.

I can’t stand the morning
kills me more each day
I’m so detached now
from this unbearable pain
and I won’t love again, I won’t
try to breathe in, I won’t
try to believe and I won’t
dot my i’s.

will you leave me in the morning
with these scars run through my head
and the only thing I’m calling
is your name across my bed

but I wait
for you
I wait
forever it seems

will you hold me when I’m mourning
with your hands upon my chest
and your touch it leaves me shaking
when you lay me down to rest

but I come
to you
I come
to the endless sea

of lovers you’ve had before
and I’ll wait on the empty shore
I’ll stay with you forever
if you’d love me just tonight

lead me out of this fear
I’m alone though you’re near
I’ve been waiting all my life
will you love me tonight?

Sometimes I wonder if you really think of me. You spend so much time in your own head I wonder if there is any room up there for some one like me, with all my insecurities. I’d spend all day inside your brain if you would let me.


Sometimes I wonder what you’re thinking when you laugh right out of nowhere - no relation to the present situation - and it’s usually a joke you have between you and yourself and no one else quite understands but I am trying.


     Sometimes I wonder who we are. Sometimes I wonder just how far you want to take me down  
     this path that we are making. And sometimes I wonder about not a thing at all; and other times I
     find myself trying my hardest to recall.


Sometimes I wonder if we’d be friends if we met when we were kids, both aging much more rapidly than all our friends. And by the time we grew up, crookedly, would you be sick and tired of me? We’d see the time each other started dying.


Sometimes I wonder what you dream when you’re asleep or if you have a fantasy world like I do but that’s my secret. And I wonder if someday you’ll store all your secrets inside me and I’ll hide them from this dark, depressing, dream ingesting world.


     Sometimes I wonder what we are. Right now I wonder if my car will make it to your house when
     it and I am shaking. Sometimes I wonder if someday I’ll be driving to our house; finally a place
     where we can maybe try to get some sleep.


Sometimes I wonder if you worry ‘bout things you say ‘round me. Do you feel stupid, do you feel crazy, do you think that you might scare me? Do I steal your breath away with each kiss like you do to me? Or am I mystifying, romanticizing this time?


Sometimes I wonder what you do when I’m not there or you’re not here, because you’re interesting, and I worry because I care. Sometimes I wonder ‘bout the spaces in-between your fingers where your soul begins and this world ends and I know my lips have been.


     Sometimes I wonder if we are. Sometimes I’m really ******* far away and I can’t say the
     meanings I am thinking. And sometimes you need your space and sometimes I need my space,
     too. We like alone but alone’s better when I’m with you.


     Sometimes I’m scared half to death. Just want to rest my spinning head upon your chest and
     listen softly to the rhythm and I hope you know I’m hopeful that things will be okay someday I
     hope you know that I mean every word I say.

Dear Morning,

      Please believe me, I know you're still shining...but it's me - I just can't see how I used to see at all. When I wake, the darkness holds me. He wraps his hands around my waist. He pulls me in. I shake but I know I cannot escape.

Just hold me closer
I will obey
My body dies but I'm awake
Forced to carry on
It's my mistake

      I know you will leave me, my love; you will break me, I know, you will never love me like you've loved before.

Just hold me closer
I will obey
My heart will die while I'm awake
Forced to carry on
It's my mistake

"Super...just...
   Unbelievably well.
      I've never been better. Honestly, I
        Can't recall the last time
           I felt this
             **** good. I'm happy to be
                Alive and I
                   Love you."