///                                                    
) --                                                  
\\                                                  
                   (
                          •
                                )


~~~  ~~~  ~~~          
                          
                                        we know the long road

Come
Child

The day calls for some form of rebelliousness

•

Trained to hurt
Trained to ****

Trained to live with
Total indifference

To every important thing

••

                                (the long road)

•

We pass each other by so indifferently

Just as we've been trained to do

••

Come away with me

The day calls out for some sort of rebelliousness

Come away with me

Yes that would be the thing to do

(

              )

(                          

                            )
(
\/
/\
/    \
++

                                                      h­ey babe I see ya

••

after the years have passed our little lives by

And all we are  ...?

                                                   ( none dare say ! )

//

Futile useless memories

Of the love that we begged for

( so piteously and shamefully )

••

After the flood of pain has carried the whole world away !

••

Still

My love shall remain

True and unimpaired

•

after the memories of the love we begged for

Are washed away

•••

We shall walk empty streets with vacant eyes

And shall have no dreams

Only the hazy smog filled skies

Punctured by the cries of children

Being tortured in countless alleyways

|||

And every day shall seem like a long time

•   •

Still

I will be there

With a love both true and fine

••

I will leave some food for you

////

I will perhaps sing a joyful song

/:/

I will still say

ANYTIME YOU WANT TO

YOU CAN BE FREE

/:::/

I know you won't hear me

But I will be there

LINGERING
the inquisitorial scheme of things

LINGERING
the massive indifference we feel
toward
somebody
else's pain

" LOVE YOU"
is often said

believe and you 're dead

"I LOVE YOU"

is said to ...hurt

AND WE ARE HURT
SO VERY HURT

///  • |
<>  
/   (   \    
     ))

(       )

                The story Time

••

When

even the stars were watching

And

We were
                                            There

In the Story Line

                                                  ••
Take us away

From the great Animosity

Buried deep

In sheer Anonymity

Not really part of reality

                 Just a spectator            watching

////                                  

Dreaming of Love

But there was no - body there

                                     ••

The      Story Time

Righteously we      were Flowering

Even the stars were watching

Lovers in the fields and streets

Thru victory and defeat

But I was yours
And you were mine

In the Story Line

We were together fully

We were

In the Story

Lookin fine !

(                                                  
•                            
)          
                                                                     )
                                                      •
                                (



                    ^^          ^^

We make PUBLIC

The story of our PRIVATE parts

--

And keep PRIVATE

the story of our PUBLIC responsibilities !

••

We thusly feel so

CHLD - LIKE
and safe

//

But are we really safe ?

OH NO

NOT AT ALL !

Well she was

You know

Sorta in love with the guy

She was ******
****** over ?

Welll ,  You know

Sorta this sorta that

You know

How it is

---

(Sorta)

_

Not perfect

No

just ****** around with ******

Sorta ****** up

You know

••

It's how it is

•••

Got violent

You know

Sorta real ****** up

Love is like that
Right?

****** up ******

Well I guess

••

Scared and scarred and other things

Violence

You know

She sorta loved the guy

And he too  

Sorta

And anyway

No one died

Not yet

You know

And really

It don't mean a thing

Them bein

Who they are

Lonely tune

--

The greatest pain

--

He tries to **** himself but he's still here

••

So am I

••

I tried to drown my self

In the ocean off Venice beach calif

--

I made it back to shore

And hitch hiked to New York City the next morning

DEATH AND REBIRTH

••••••

Now

I commit Suicide

Every chance I get

•••

Life and non life are the same

•••

Embrace all pain

And forgive

••

Only you

You know

Only you are ever here at all

(                                                                      
(                                                          
(                                              
(                              
•
                                )
                                                        )          
                                                          )
                                                                       )


             ^^^^^^                          


One

The lasting honeymoon

Tha day we just won't forget

••

Goin home

Yeah

That's the name we give to it

•

It's a day past the last Ole Freight

•

Under the hills

Where the old  truth tellers meet

•

Still

///

Come child

Soft sounds

Footsteps repeating where we must go

•

So tomorrow might be here

///

i love dimetri martini

she is pimply ugly

**** so small you cant see them!

but

then again

THEN AGAIN!!!!

I said

HEY
**** BEARER

HURRY UP
WITH THE CLEANING
THERE'S DISHES NEEDIN TO GET DONE !

...

And
I GOT SOME FRIENDS COMIN OVER
SO REST UP
SOME OF EM MIGHT BE HORNEY
AND THEY LIKE YA
SO BE READY--
----
She said

Ya know
I'm gettin tired a this!

I ain't gonna take it for more than
Another decade or two!
--

GEEZ
I said

Ya musta been readin them liberated
Kids on hello poetry!

They only take abuse two
Maybe three
Years at most
Before movin on ta
Another abuser !

She started cryin
Said she wouldn't read it any more
And begged for forgiveness

I didn't give her none

It woulda just confused her

Bein a mere

**** bearer

Ya know

swirling colors!

violent union--
the  war
takes its toll
upon our trembling sensibilities

we dare!
we do!

the choice has been made
before we come here

the choice!

we wander amid the dog streets
watchin people die

in spirit

we dare!
we do!

mother!
don't worry!

i've died before

but not in spirit

never!

come

create tomorrow
out of broken today

your fate

your fate

aint neva gonna come this way again
aint neva gonna  Do  it like i did

in the open or well hid
lookin bout the same

words they truth....... words they lie

people live if the lie
finally forever dies

hypocricy keeps death alive
specially behind a smile

neva gonna simply say that fear
can make a person do some things

they wouldn't do if their sight was clear
an try help wipe them tears away

its too easy to be the fake
too easy to mess with me

AN NOW I'M FEELIN SORRY FOR MYSELF!
OF ALL THE GOL'  DERN WAYS TO BE!!!

words they truth....... words they lie

people live if the lie
finally forever dies

hypocricy keeps death alive
specially behind a smile

love love love an then
love love love all over again

beyond the sorrow an the pain
when all is gone then what remains

love love love an then
love love love all over again

beyond the horror of raw shame
when all is gone then what remains

love love love an then
love love love all over again
love love love all over again

love love love all over again

))
/(( ))\
((    ))
•         •

                                      first on the streets at dawn

Setting the tone for reality

:::::

Bozo and the clowns

The leaders of the united states

•

Got all the young boys by the *****

Girls sellin themselves for free

•   •

But do you love me

Suzy Creamcheese ?

Oh !

tell me please !

///

The days !

We spin and spin

Fall down ugly

And call it love

//                            

It don't matter none

Everyone knows it soon will end

(              
(        
(
\/
/\
/    \


++++++++


Hear

Hear my song child

Hear your own
Heart

Cryin

•••

Ain't no dream still alive

All hope is gone

You might survive

If you sell your soul

•   •

Sorry boy

And you
Little girl

••

But it's alright

We don't need IT anyway

Other truths
Still live

And even in another state

We shall be here

And with full human dignity

••

Hear

Hear my song child

And you too
Know

You may start to sing

///

It's alright

Life

Is what it is

And we too

Shall remain as long as we forgive

///

Be free

•

In whatever way is possible

//

Hear

Hear my song child

the day is done
gone!
the day is gone!
(we are liars.....s0?????)

the day has expired
children suffer

oh oh oh
only anti-american "liberals"
care
-----

i aint one a those
no!
no!!
no!!
no..no...no!!!!!

--

i kiss yer ***
HOMELAND SECURITY!
i kiss yer ***!
HOMELAND SECURITY!!

obama or bin laden
george bush or clinton!!!

HAIL....ISRAEL!!!!

i kiss yer ***!
---
the way is
..."to be lost"
we are complying
the way is
...."to be lost"

pleasant death
simple dying

we are complying
we are complying!

THANK YOU

BIG GOVEY-MINT!!!!!

...
...

little child growing
little child singing

little child growing
little child singing

OVER THERE!
SOMEWHERE!!

beyond yer
..................
...
............
pretended...................­..........IGNORANCE!

Broken promises
(Streets)

Little high school kid!
---
What are ya doing?
Where are ya?
//
lookin for love
----
Ain't there no more!

WE
(!the elders)
Simply "await"

The TOTAL WAR ahead

THE WALKING DEAD
that's what we are
////
Broken promises
(Dreams)

And now even these are gone

Every simple dream is gone!

)
(                                    
                      )
(­                
    )
\/
/\
/    \

••

She spoke of love

I spoke of death

••

The child talks from mountains

Gods and Goddesses appear

//                              
                                  ­    //

I hear you talk of lovelessness

I never hear you wonder why

•      •

She speaks of unicorns in the sky

I talk of dragons and fiery breath

••

The child stands on the mountain top

Sword in hand

//     //

We are here

We must do

What it is must get done now

••

We speak of love

and death

Alike

////

The child is born

And will not compromise

Me and the bag lady

---

We wander freely filthy alleys

Under dying stars that
Know us by name

---

****
----------------

The rules of the game are naked

The vicious love

The enduring hatreds are nourished and praised

--

Me and the bag lady

----

Love

----

We wander filthy AMERICAN cities

Where teeny- bop poetry  is the raging of loveless
Hearts thru hopeless mental landscapes
Of children raised on scorn

---

Purity

-----

Me and the bag lady

(Or her sister or mother or daughter)
I don't care if I know anymore

----

Amid robotic violence and robotic pretence of love
---

WILL YOU BE THERE?

---

The stink of the night is pure truth's

Remaining image

Amid the telling and re-telling of the the

Sheltering lie

---

Me and the bag lady

We walk  freely  filthy alleys

Hoping to finally

See you here

((  (                    
•
                     )  ))




~~~~

the reign of death rains down so gently upon us

We walk the silken streets arm in arm with demon lovers

We are at peace here

It is all so very familiar

••

I STILL HAVE SUCH BEAUTIFUL AUSCHWITZ DREAMS

she murmers softly

Gazing into his SCHOOL CAFETERIA eyes !

••                            

Such a lovely day

All our youthful fantasies run freely thru

These police streets

The music of gun fire and children screaming out in pain

••

I LOVE YOU !

they speak to eachother in tones

Of awe and wonder

And gratitude

For they have found their monthly mate

As they approach the Ammunition Store

To prepare themselves for

The New School Day

//////                                

across the street they see the ragged poet boy

( you know the one I mean )

They make special note

Nod serenely

And continue on their chosen way

i love diamira martini

she is stupid

pimply

ugly

if you met here
you would call me

the luckiest man in the world

road weary but warrior souled
young as lovers always are

we have not come together
we cannot leave eachother

we are simply

one

as lovers always are

take me with you
i shall take you home
i shall be here forever
song the dance
dance singing
we

are the poetry

and the day

writes small children laughing
everywhere
everyone

we have not come together
we were simply

born

ONE

softly...
lost in idle
despair

simple it is to be so removed
from all worldy considerations

from all sense
of worthiness

if for just a while
-------
-------

and then:

HUMAN PRIDE!
GREAT THINGS!
----
----

such self indulgence
neither
heals nor repairs

truer feelings merge
with the desire for
the sublime

AND RIGHT ON TIME!

wait a while longer
and the earth itself shall die

out of the hell of
indifference!!!!!!

heros emerging

you and i

love

(a broken beggar)
...

a broken beggar
in love

with the bag lady

---------

the rain falls

------

picnic at the beach

watchin jesus

walk on water

FINE SHOW. J C!

--------

america in the death throes

we watch the whole world die

----------

beggar and bag lady

(me and you)
........

the rain

(red)

-----------

we write our love poems

drugged out of our senses

what else can we do?

----------

the truth?



watching jesus walk on water

FINE SHOW, J C!

o
<            >
           (•) (•)          
/-
~=~

Callin you now
To come home

The war is here
The fields are on fire

And all love is gone

••

Yeah
It's simple

And it's true

We fell asleep

----

Only one thing to do

And we know
What it is

••

Callin on you
To come home

The war is here
The fields are on fire

And all love is gone

))
((      
            ))
((
\/
/\
/   \
•••••••

Whenever someone says

I NEED YOU

I reply

NO YOU DONT

WHY ARE YOU LYING ?

///

Usually

They just smile and say

I DONT KNOW

I love YOU !!

~~~~~~~

YOU
are the sun and the moon and the stars
In the heaven of my ETERNITY !
YOU
are all the angels
Gazing at god

Just to see YOU !!

Just to be with YOU !!

JUST YOU !

~~~~~~

I dreamt I smelled the holy nectar
Of creation's glory !

But it was only the memory of YOU

Left on the sheets of my bed

After YOU had gone !!

~~~~~

There is only ONE thing that is
My life

And that is YOU !!

Without you I am NOTHING !!

with YOU
I have the WORLD !

Please !!
Never leave me !!

For then I would only be

a corpse lying in a pool of blood

On the bathroom
Floor !

~~~~~~

The RIVER  flows thru the forests and fields
And they come to LIFE !

YOU are my waters
YOU my DEVINE INTOXICATION !

the very breath of my body

I am ONLY here for YOU

To use as YOU WANT

~~~~~~~~

come YOU my love

My all !
My everything !

Touch me !
I live !

TURN AWAY ?
And death is all I am dear YOU !

~~~~~~~

etc .

))      O0o0O     ((
/////     •   |||
         <>      

   /       (          )       \

   |      |

      XxxX

The singularity !

Numb with Pain !

                         Learning new        Methods

||||

She saw herself as a budding idiot

She practiced diligently

Then she fell in love and the task was done !

//

She went into the bathroom and cut her wrists

She wrote her name in the blood on the floor

Then she took a **** !  
It was nice to see her naked body but I soon was bored

••

Fly away child

Ain't nobody here really

With their head not up their ***

•

Love

Was a word once meant something

Now it's just the occupation of a *****

///
          ///

Numb with Pain

Babbling incessantly

Count the words and write it down

here we are.....!
come!....it's time
.
time to love
_

you are real
...
you've come a long way!
.
LOVE!
.
(you may)
__

**** the world!
it *****!
phoney ******* everywhere!
..........
here we are!
.
eternally!
.....
lovers!!!!
we
....eternally.....
.
in love!
....
...
here we are.....!
come!....it's time
.
time to love
.......

we may!

/\
::::::::::
)(          )(
o
------

                                                    ­      ( love me I'm lonely )

•

Love

I shall stay here

I am but a boy - child

I am but a man - to - be

/::/

Love

You show me how

To be good

And to be honest constantly

••

Someone asked me what you looked like

I said I really did not know

••

In this day

We worship this day

It's pain

It's rage

////

You say that we are stronger

I don't know

But I will stand beside you

Until the day is gone from here

•

When tomorrow comes

Well

We shall see

••

Love

We gaze unto each other 's

Full reality

We shall never forget

Anyone or anything

the simple love song

(................the quiet calm love
which.............. IS

LOVE)

i saw ................the world
and it was love

i looked again................it was gone
-----

the world is gone because our love song is gone

the quiet love song
of quiet  calm love

is gone

because our love is gone

another night a walkin the street

Along the path that leads to the shore

The thought just lingers

( no need to repeat )

BUT                                
I                                    
KNOW                        
THAT                          
YOU                            
DON'T                        
LOVE                          
ME                              
NO                              
MORE                        

you just want something       GOOD
& I'm still waiting for        LOVE THAT IS PURE

you just want to.         ENDURE

& I want to be      IMMERSED IN THE FLAME

••

Maybe we will meet

Come another day

But still I know you don't love me no more

But it's okay

••

do you still love?

can you still love
legally?

do you still love me....i mean

(you know what i mean)

are you loving anyone
are you capable?
is it legal?

are you a republican?
a democrat?
(or whatever?)

if so
how can you love
how can you love me?

are you a christian?
a muslim?
a jew?

if so you dont love me

the night is here
it is very dark
it shall be very long

do you dare
love?
do you dare love me?
are you capable?

can you love
legally

legally
legally

anybody?

(you know what i mean)

Life

Not a mere prelude to

Death

--
Got that?

--

Good

_

Quit playin with death

--

Quit inventing new forms of misery

--

Try to be the lover

Not

The beloved

---

Moral strength is Sanity

Naked
No image remains

We

We fade
In and out of time

Whorish brutality

Come
Walk with me a while

Absolutely freely

Loveliness
All we are

To die
Being this ugly

Is  really  more than
I can take

(                              
•
                          )



                                                    ^^^
•     •

                                                      Righteousness

///

And somehow / it still rains

( somewhere )

Crops still grow

( in the magic village // the mighty village )

||||

Let's go there !

With the remnants
The ragged remnants
Of the beaten human race

//

RIGHTEOUSNESS

//

Remembered memories of childhood

And the real dreams

( simple and good )

And the lovely children

( we )

Growing unto Man Itself

( which was a magic mighty thing to be ! )

/////

                                                                righteousness

As remembered                                                  

•      •

Sweet the babe song in the cradle
Playing endlessly

||

The mother and father world

•

Noble leadership

//

Real

//

Still !       LISTEN !

the falling rain

REAL

( not just a symbol of lonliness  )

Real crops !   LIFE ITSELF !

///

Come

Out of ILLUSION 'S SICK SLICK CHARM

out unto the sacred Places

Where we may find eachother's

True faces and true hearts

||

                                                                


(                    
•
                )


still free                                              


                                  ^^^

Lucky boy

•

alone on the road

                                        ( human pride )

Still the guardian of mankind

//://

The king

•

To love him is to let him be free

//

Lucky boy

///

He wanders the hills

The holy hills

••

Has no name

No real shape

//

But if you dare to know him you shall be

Also a lucky girl or boy

()
/ ( ) \
/\
•

I wanna girl !

I wanna girl - friend !

I wanna girl - friend who is a friend !

I wanna girl - friend to be a friend who is not
just pretendin !

When I get her I'm gonna keep her

I ain't gonna let her get away

Hey girl !

Wanna be my girl - friend ?

We 'll walk around holdin hands

And god knows what we ' ll do
In the night !

///

Yeah

I wanna girl !

I wanna girl to be my girl friend

( though I wonder sometimes what she might
Want from me )

Genocidal midmorning serenade
We paint tomorrow with
Corpses
We see the New Lands

God the father is here
Blessed Israel!
---
Oh the inferior races
Gone without a trace

Genocidal liberation!

Come come

If you got a lot of money you may live
To sing the free world into place

To stand before god's face
And the world death shall create

O
//     //
/\
#####

totem rising !

The magc of the hills

Totem rising !

//

Looking into each other's eyes

Totem rising!

Something

Gonna

Happen tonight

////

Was a child there
And a child's song

A dreamy child

Would you do him harm !!!


Totem rising !

New born world

Totem rising !

The first dawn

••

We are moving

We are going home

You know you are welcome

To come along

•

Totem rising !

We gonna get there

Before too long

///   ;;;
           •
<>


Emerging

--

The world is crumbling

She stands here

In the middle of the afternoon

••

( ain't no friend of the pettiness )

•

She don't say much cause you ain't here

••

Well
What do you want  ?

Piece by piece
Death is here

•

Emerging

We ain't stupid is all

We ain't got it figured out
But

We are trying

I break for DEAD
Animals

(Especially of the
HUMAN kind)

Shall we all just
"Keep on going"

Faster and faster
Past the burning schools?

And the other
"Dying signs?"

Out past the "last
Turning point

Faster and faster past
"Yours and mine?"

""


Ya ! Ya !

I vant  luv !!!!

""

Gimme !

Gimme !

Yer  luv !

(;;;)

save me from myself !

Holden onta me hand  !

Graben me my booberoonies !

Gooooood !

::

We be fer sure tagether  fer etoinity !

You n me baby !

Ya ! Ya !

••

I be a fallin fer ya !

//

So trilling !!!

YA !

We do

Fuckie - Fuckie !!

•

We be luv !

She left me
Well actually
I left her

In truth
I never was in love

Love!

How can there be love on THIS world
Which is hardly
A WORLD
at all

It's all *******
LOVE
LOVE POEMS!
--
Aint no love
Ain't no meaning to the word!

Just some nostalgic hope
We pretend to remember
From when we
Was kids

KIDS STUFF!
This love

Right?

Or are ya da
LUVY DUVIES!!
Pretending ya DONT know better ?

..
Ya DONT love me

I think yer just pretending ya love eachother

()   She  ()

///

She narcissistically

Pussified the word " love "

Turning it into a description of her

Genital throbbing

And turning each man

Into her personalized version

Of a walking *****

//

Thusly

When she saw an entire generation

Of *** addicts

Turn the world's children

Over to the war machine

( for LUV of country ! )

She was glad

And rejoiced full heartedly

In the suffering all around

for with each death

She saw a vision of herself

( or ,

the illusion of luv )

•                        •
•   •

You know

I guess that what I am trying to ask is

Something like :

2 people meet

It's a wonderful thing

BUT THEN

EVERY ******* EVENT !
EVERY ******* EMOTION !

EVERY ******* THOUGHT OR FEELING
GETS

ANALYSED !
LABELED !
ACCEPTED OR REJECTED !

AND THEN COMES THE UNBELIEVABLY
FALSE **** ABOUT

BEING LEFT !
BEGGING / PLEASE COME BACK !

THE / I' M BROKEN / HORSESHIT !

||||

Like you're in some tv reality show
Playing to an audience

In the rom / com genre
Of perpetual immaturity

AND YOU ACTUALLY COMPETE TO SEE
WHO IS BETTER AT WRITING THIS CRAP !

instead of just

Meeting

Getting to know each other

Knowing each other's lives
Families
Friends

Exploring your own perspective
Of life

Trying to understand someone else's

Practicing to be patient
Generous
Kind

•

Instead of acting like

Zombie robots auditioning for the part

Of ******* demon from hell

••

It IS baffling

//

And a bit ugly

Watching you die

//://

000
/    \
                                                           ­         ( the final incarceration. )
•

I really thought she was the one
But she turned out to be poison

YEAH
I KNOW GIRLS LIKE THAT

I saw her pain / I caressed her broken wings
And as we made love I begged her
To learn how to fly

BUT WAS SHE EVEN GRATEFUL !?

That's it exactly !
I would melt inside her and merge with her soul
And lift her by my strength and purity
Unto heaven

But her eyes were like tentacles always holding me down
And she poisoned my heart with her greediness

WELL
THANK GOD ITS OVER  !

to think I plumged my immortality
Into such filthiness
And planted my seed into such murderous soil!

Shame ! That's all I am left with though I am also
Haunted by a sense of failure for not being able to heal
The girl I loved from the monsters devouring her

But when she used them to devour me I had no choice
But to give her up unto her evil self destruction

AS PAINFUL AS IT WAS FOR YOU
YOU DID THE RIGHT THING

AT LEAST SHE HAD A CHANCE
AND THAT IS GOOD

maybe so
But still I feel so depressed
So empty
So lost

I hardly have the will to live

I hardly dare to love again

I don't have a clue

What can I do ?

WELL

WE COULD GO OVER TO MY PLACE AND **** ?

wow !

That sounds like a good idea

I LOVE YOU
she says

With hands clutched
And tears in her eyes

--

GOOD
I say

THEN GO HOME

AND SIT DOWN AND MEDITATE

DO THAT IF YOU LOVE ME

---

Horrified she says

BUT I WANT TO BE WITH YOU ALWAYS!

--

WHAT FOR?

----

WHAT!

----

I repeat

IF YOU LOVE ME

GO HOME AND MEDITATE

IT'S SIMPLE

---
---

Well

To make a long story short

She didn't

And she bad raps me to her friends

-----

ARE YOU SURPRISED?

He gone
..

Stupid song
...
You you you!

Whimp
----

Carries his bible like a bully in jail

Stumbles along like he just out a hell
---
He saw mr bojangles dancin

An he shot  him in the head
--

What's it to ya

Whimp?

--
If ya ain't ashamed of America

You dead
---

Come on!

Try!

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(        (    )        )
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0        0


   •            •             •

and the Night

( which once was ours ! )

Was it YOU I used to hold ?
Was it YOU I used to know ?

///

Why the masks ?

Why the price tag on your hearts ?

////

Even your god !!!!

For sale like all the rest
Of our virtues and righteousness

••

We were THE PEOPLE !

Oh so many years ago

///

Slabs of meat
Gunned down by the police
who

Hold the Line

Keep YE safe at Christmas Time !

///

Long storm
Heavy rain

The child stumbles but keeps movin on

//

Perhaps it will be alright

Perhaps a new world may come

(        O      )
/// • |
          <>
( • )          

/\
/\
                                    ?she?
••                                      
**** ugly

                               The beautiful girl !

//                              
                                    smoking ***** and despair
Proudly

///

Stink

Oh human depravity !                    ***** simple
Safe

<( • ) >

Slashed breast with an unused mind    ?she?

Wanders thru the cardboard images

And dies

///           Dies

Laughing all the while

                       ///

I laugh too

But I don't smile