how beautiful is my life?

when my friends are here?




.........HAN SHU!

sacred moments

NEED THEY EVER BE REAL!

(how could they be?)
-------

love

OR

airplanes chrashing into
towering buildings

-------

BUT FOR ALL THE SUFFERING

BUT FOR ALL TOMORROWS
STOLEN
FROM THE ....CHILDREN
EVERY CHILD...EVERY WORLD

-----
------

but for these
and perhaps

for the sacredness of reality itself

i'd say

KEEP THESE DEAR AND SACRED MOMENTS
EVEN IF SO UNREAL
----
----

but

for

THESE"

I MUST SAY

"PLEASE..............
please

won't you please

get it right?

On the Pier
.
Early morning pain
We
---
We plot our escape
We try escape somewhere but where?
We don't know just who we are
.
The City Lights beyond the haze
DON'T LOOK!

Ugly
Loveless
WHO GOES THERE?
----
allies
we
....
yes?

CAN I TRUST YOU.?
DO I DARE?
..
Do you know just what I am?
Just like you?

MAYBE
-
This is what we have to know

We must risk dying to find out

666
---

We wander

We touch and ****

We call it "love"

••

Delicate is the pain

Infantile

••

We wander

We touch and ****

••

We **** eachother and our boredom

With infantile perverse love

& praise eachother

as we wander

Thru timeless agonies

••

We touch we ****** we *******

We use eachother's bodies and not our hands

••

We use our hands for typing lies on the page

••

You don't fool
Me

••

Reality tee vee !

•

Flipping channels

Destroying lives

••

Wandering

Touching killing

Writing poetry

.


Vision of

The

Deep City

The hidden places

Of unknown lives

And unknown faces

•

( our streets ! )

BROTHERS AND SISTERS !

)(

And thru the night

The wild stallion races

Thru the remnants of

Our childhood dreams

;:;

( I knew you then ! )

•

And the Holy Vision of a Child !

And a Holy Mother and Saint

///


And Holy Warriors

)(

And a holy human race

)(

RUN STALLION RUN !

RUN FREE !

wild stallion

)(


The vision fades

Replaced by a heavy ugliness

::


You

You choose

From the two

Your reality !

//

The wild you rides the stallion if you choose

To go his way




.

..

From reading the poems here

One might think that young people LIKE

to be used and abused (!)

::

They certainly write enough about it

And always seem reluctant to part with the abuser (!)

//

In fact

The famiarity of the abuse

Seems to offer a form of physcic  shelter

//

Now

This is a far cry from suggesting that they SEEK abuse

But it does suggest ( in conjunction with

The heavy instances of DEPRESSION here )

/:

That LONLINESS is thought of as worse than

A horrid relationship

/:/

This is something that the

COLLECTIVE POETIC MIND

Might find some true inspiration in exploring

And might serve as an avenue of healing

love come easy

easy as the laughin child

laughs

--

love come pure

pure as the lovely child

loves
--

we are so afraid
of the moment when

eye to eye

love come

and love come easy
so easy

--

love dont need you

you just here

love is power

love gives you life

love come easy
easy easy

we buy
we sell eachother

we dont come easy and love is gone

--

love come easy

easy as the laughin child

walks thru the Park

and all the children come together

I write of self mutilation -- therefore I am

//

In these the dumbed down
Down sized days

To call someone a pea - brain is a compliment

••

The girl ate **** and said :

HEY , I ATE ****

I MUST BE STUPID

and thought she was very clever

For making the observation

///

she let some boy who she knew didn't love her

**** her .... and when he left her she said

THE TRAITOR !  HE DIDNT REALLY LOVE ME !

//

she wrote about it to her fellow sad sack losers

On hello poetry

And was so praised for her insightful sensitivity

That she ran off to find another boy who she

Was certain didn't love her so she could do it again

//

Thusly great poetry is formed

//

Pretty soon

No one will even have a brain at all

Truth

What you need to know
To get things done
----

I walk the Long Beach
      Home

.....

I want to know who is
           HERE

-------

The LONG KNIFE cuts deep

It is waving all around

-------

YIN & YANG

...

What you need to know
To get things done

---

The Long Beach leads
To
The city streets

Then to
The mountains
Along
Country
Roads

You gotta at least sit up to touch the stars !

MAYBE EVEN STAND UP!
.
Heck
Ya might even have to JUMP!
--
Well
Ya can't climb no mountain
Wearin just underwear
..
There's an analogy here fits many things
----
Naked beauty

For.......

(Wait wait!!!
-----that's a part a the last poem)
--
In this one they wearin underwear
---
0
..

Even when it's rainin the stars be there !

Why am I telling YOU?
..
Cause I think that
You gonna really try
..
Try touch the stars !
You are MAN!
(Stars ain't so high)

driftin...........
.................................(passin thru)

the panapoly of
....................... those  "indifferent"

past the kingdon of amerikka
out to where........

..................free men dwell
------
-----
--
-

where frankie-boy
walks his rounds

where words are sent up
"to awaken"

and lovely ladies walk the hills

and
those-who-love
always find

the deepest sense
of satisfaction

(past the panopoly of those "indifferent")
----
---
--
hey hey hey

let's go there

and
add a new
add a new

poem or song

add a new
add a new

true vision of man

past the kingdom of amerikka

and its panapoly of those "indifferent"

broken promises
i who have never, ever........(?)
-------------
SCREAM!
-
like a dawn
shot across the bow
of
consciousness!
ARE YOU AWAKE!
....
(dont die again!)
.................................
dont ever forget the god or goddess
that you are
-----------
......promise?......
....
hell surrounds us
what of that?
.
in a while
doom'll seem alright

the softly  indecisive "sense" that
seamlessly... enters

our  safely inconclusive vision-
of-the-world

the little lost lovers we nurture
that come and go
come and go

and leave us with a a slight tinge
of guilt we call ......sadness

over and over
till we bore ourselves into a stupor
and safely rot away
til death brings us back to our true
sensibilities

(but it is too late!
too late!)

so easily doomed!
we foul ourselves completely

so knowingly catering
to the unknown fears we have

afraid of the love
that is vulnerability

afraid of feeling
anything at all

sincerity
silences the long hard
sweep of lies

i feel the aching heart
i know the hungry haunted child
too well

l cannot sleep

i only walk the streets
til dawn arrives

sometimes i wanna die

and get it over with  but then  ....

sincerely
i
catch a glimpse
of
how sincerely you
want to live

aint neva gonna come this way again
aint neva gonna  Do  it like i did

in the open or well hid
lookin bout the same

words they truth....... words they lie

people live if the lie
finally forever dies

hypocricy keeps death alive
specially behind a smile

neva gonna simply say that fear
can make a person do some things

they wouldn't do if their sight was clear
an try help wipe them tears away

its too easy to be the fake
too easy to mess with me

AN NOW I'M FEELIN SORRY FOR MYSELF!
OF ALL THE GOL'  DERN WAYS TO BE!!!

words they truth....... words they lie

people live if the lie
finally forever dies

hypocricy keeps death alive
specially behind a smile

love love love an then
love love love all over again

beyond the sorrow an the pain
when all is gone then what remains

love love love an then
love love love all over again

beyond the horror of raw shame
when all is gone then what remains

love love love an then
love love love all over again
love love love all over again

love love love all over again

I know the pitcher got
A

Hell of a fastball
And one mean curve

But we got 1000 hitters
Crowding the on deck circle.......

SOMEBODY!

Get up there and try to hit the ball

WILLYA!
••

("I can't

Me good **** gone and me be sad!

Boo Hoo")

••
••

RAIN

Is the name of the song

In the shadows?

Is it you I see?!!

Standing TALL

heroically

TELL ME YOUR NAME AND I'LL TELL IT TO GOD

for on you

All trust is placed

••
A
Little child
is

Lost on the Street

Won't you help me find him
Please?

I lookin for you!

Where ya hidin?
(Why?)

Like REALITY got ya
By da *****!

••••

Paintin ****** pictures on yer walls

Painting pained expressions on those YE claim to love

Twisting  yer eyeballs unto grotesque shapes

------

In a moment's pure insanity

Freedom is known!

•

You really can't

GO IT ALONE

Gotta become (really)
A human being

•••
I lookin for you!

And I see you

I do!

In the ****** shadows runnin away

Laughing flower petals

all the colors in the world

/////
/////

The great tower !

The great man !

Oh great ! Shadows cross the broken Land

/////
/////

she sang a righteous song

she entered her song as a hope for a young boy

Plowing sacred fields

/////
/////

She cut herself and watched it bleed

And said

I guess it ain't no loaf of bread

/////
/////

Images !

People !  ( Images )

Negroes hanging // amid the crowd

/////
/////

HOW NOW ,  BROWN COW ?

I could not think

Of a single thing to say

/////
/////

She said she loved me

The broken girl

The old car rusting in the field

/////
/////

She said she loved me

The broken girl

We were married yesterday

The cat's  out of the bag

WE'RE  DOOMED!

•
On this mystic afternoon

••

Weaponized satellites in the skies

••

Tweeting love letters to
The hate

••

The cat's out of the bag

••

We just pretending that it ain't

••

The boot upon the face
The sword that dangles above our heads

••

Ain't no
"I love you"-s
Without faux pain

Only vague shadows on the walls

••

Eat THAT apple

Let go

The free FALL

Will take us to where

We

Gotta be

and softly.
sacredness
holy breath
........
HEY *******!
**** YOUR JOBS!!
.......
and gently
lover move
in moments and
movements
of sheer grandeur
.....
........
HEY *******!
**** YOUR JOBS!!
......
we are free men!
ONLY AND ALWAYS!
...
........
HEY *******!
**** YOUR JOBS!!
--------
and softly.
sacredness
holy breath
........
HEY *******!
**** YOUR JOBS!!

(                                                                ­    

•

                                                        ­                           )                            



#

Only YOU I see

//

The image of the last lynched *****

Forever in the mind

//

One the way to work

Cars and beat up subways

Blacks Hispanics  Whites

Hearing of the deaths on the radio

//

Amid the throbbing genitalia

Of the enslaved population

               Wondering why it's not         Working out !

//

All the children sense Doom ahead

•

I gird my *****

//

Stand by me

bodes well..so well

in shadows we are crawling
in secret we make vows
in total silence we learn of all things

bodes well...so well

wars shall end the earth soon
wars of madmen's greed

wars allowed by our lazy carelessness
our cowardliness
our own greed

bodes well.so well

knowing what matters

again

knowing eachother
and bidding

to do eachother

well

again

For sale
..

We portray whatever it takes --

-

Go on alone
Be weak
..
We are too fragile to care

---

Hurt joy love hate
--

Merge together as a long afternoon merges faces and lives into a mess

Of
Undifferentiated  misunderstanding
--

But it's a game we win at the end we say

For we make up all rules

And we claim the mastery over Fate

-- so it goes and is

Betray  with a kiss

A fake smile

And a ton of hubris

And cold heartedness

Thru the mountain
Toward the other side

The woods are shelter
Too much shelter and you die

We are ready
We know its time to fight

Our love and our life
We put on the line

••
••

(And will you come with me?)

••

•

We have walked the only beach together hand in hand
We see what's goin on and we do understand

Everything

Everything

••

Eye to eye

&

The dream

••

We put our love and our life

Forth quite freely

Just for you

yes the love we want is simply here to take
yes it is!

but what is it?
what do we want?

hidden beyond "loveless love"
hidden beyond "cluster bombs"
and "death dealing world leaders"
hidden beyond fears and phobias
and addicted madness
and perverse release

so simple

it is all here
we see it and want it

will we dare take it?

who will just take it?

its for free

+///+

Broken!

Are YE dead?

(It's really hard to tell fer sure)

••

Heard YE spouting yer deep philosophy!

MY OH MY !

••

Eh?

What's that?

Politics!

Good god !

•

We are lost

We are as if  in some endless bar on some forgotten street
Partying with strangers

Fornicating using strange parts of strange bodies
Feeling infinite amounts of intolerable pain
••

(But having a good time somehow)
•
Wanting more

••

Playing video games where we enjoy pretending
We are killing eachother
•
Wanting more

••

We like to think we are dying
•
Wanting more

••
•

Broken song

We cry

We want

We suffer
but

We don't

Dare to be vulnerable any more!


••

Why not?

••

"We're having too much fun" we say

•••

So so

So
Much fun

This
Way

and "swift boat me now!" i say, and will you?
who is this obamamama everyone

seems so obsessed with not ever really
talking about except so stupidly

it makes you puke all over the sports page?
these 5 to 4 supreme court decisions

aint nothin but pure political manure
and simply debase democracy

to be an american is to be
but always disgraced by intelligence

unless you realize that the swift boat
mentalilty is more than just  ugly

but kills, and we die as we are doing
now, on a daily basis, constantly

little jackie paper
sings for his supper

he aint got no home

little mary's just a kid
sleepin underneath the bridge

she aint got no home

america is just a lie
an ugliness in space and time

it aint no-body's home

but i'll love you
you can love me
an we will be one family
an make this world a home

little jackie paper
sings for his supper

he aint got no home

little mary's just a kid
sleepin underneath the bridge

she aint got no home

she aint got no home

she aint got no home

soul mate song
who at all?

who is here?
the prisoners walk alone

the anger is surely everywhere, in everyone
the end of life.....the end is here

i see
i feel
only pain

i know
only pain

O
==========
||| #       •|||
<>

/ ( • ) ( • ) \
|

            %%%%%%%%%%%%

no

Don't

//////

The police state !

•

no

We won't

///////

Promises

•

We shall be free

( throw away your ******* razor blades and FIGHT ! )

For ******* CHRIST sake !!!

Your numb Nutz cowardice is driving me insane !

//////

War in the streets

The police !

The mind control games !

The crazed out **** head

And you remain

the ......needy
******* the night
with raw madness

seeking  to be a
"lover-who-need-not-be-loved!"

seeking death  

--

the crippled night
collapses and damages
every child's dream

but the mothers and fathers
are in burning beds
cuming morosely
with fake unity

--

the seas yield their songs
to the psychodelic
musing
of the vagabonds and waifs

who will be crushed soon
by economic necessity

--

"who cares?"
rings loudly in the
mystic dying dawn

no-one answers

there are none to answer

no one

All the little cow girls come rolling in

( moo !  moo ! )

LOOK ! LOOK !

Here comes DA BULL !

( moo !  moo ! )

All the little girl cows come rolling in

///

Gonna be a hot time in the pasture tonight !

( moo ! moo ! )

//

Tomorrow ?

Off to the Slaughter House

//

//

Girl cows           Cow girls

Just

Dead Meat

........&
all wisdom is gone                                                                        
||
                                          ... and the very meaning of what you do or  say

//                                                                        

& we are driven into pettiness

saying nothing of importance.

Never revealing

True Human-ness

::::                                            

In the manner of a rag doll clown

In ******* convulsions

Till we are thrown down

••

Shame

To be a human

But to live like a slave

//

Come be the master

Love is simple

Truth is easy

•

Don't let your love be altered

Don't let them steal your grace

......Tiny words.......
..................
•

The empty headed man

------////--////------

Empty headed world!

(Ah yes!---- here you are!
Safe & sound!)

••

I have somethin to tell ya
But you too stupid too hear

Ya ain't been HUMAN for  too many years

••

THIS IS JUST A LOVE SONG TA WHAT YA MIGHT HAVE BEEN

•••••

What really happened to ya

Can ya at least TRY to say?
•

Of all the NOTHIN TA SAY
Out there

You say NOTHIN
So very well

••

We're dyin

& you not GIVIN a ****!

hard times
bottle a wine
cold city
lookin round
for some sort a lady
to tell me that she knows me

hard times

hard times
aint no-one
hard times
aint no home
hard time
what the hell

i feel there is
an endless road
from this cold city
i know too well


hard times
hard times

is it real
or only in my mind

the endless road
yeah i know
could be real
or not also

hard times
bottle a wine
cold city
lookin round for some sorta lady
wonderin if she knows me

hard times

?  ?
?               ?  
      ?
?
?
?

•


                                          ­              ( any questions ? )

/////////                                        

     . amid all the possibilitie

• •                        

                             Sorry kid YE gotta die

We ' re very busy here      

                                      ••

You know

Deciding which **** is gonna be in which ***** tonight

/:/

I mean

FOREVER is at stake here !


//://

So just die

But quietly please

••                    

Now that the battery of my ***** is finally charged

possibly reborn,,,,,,,,(?)

----

even the christians
dont believe

and you....(?)


silent
as always

--------

silent
as always
,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

we are cowardly beyond comprehension

------

isnt anyone  here?

-------

no

no-one

-----------

lets be frank with one another

---------

who is here?

---------

is it true
that only the ****** addict is free?

----

is it true
that only the ******* is real?

-------

is it true

that the politicians

love

love

love

us?

--------

ask a stupid question

and get

get

get

elected?

--------

i love you

do you have even the slightest

idea

of what i mean

---------

yes

silent as always

we are the only way out

we are the way in

in and out
out and in

we are the strong

never give up or forget
real power

never deny the possibility

never go away

where shall you go?

we are the way in
the only way
out of the darkness

out and in
in and out

making love

with the world

little jackie paper
sings for his supper

he aint got no home

little mary's just a kid
sleepin underneath the bridge

she aint got no home

america is just a lie
an ugliness in space and time

it aint no-body's home

but i'll love you
you can love me
an we will be one family
an make this world a home

little jackie paper
sings for his supper

he aint got no home

little mary's just a kid
sleepin underneath the bridge

she aint got no home

she aint got no home

she aint got no home

and
hypnotically

the
Broken Dawn
enters our Dominion
and shatters all Faith

shattered men
walk Broken Streets
and
dreamlessly and hopelessly
continue............
as

the game
being played
repeats and repeats.........

the Killing Images
and Death
...............................continue
in its wake

hypnotically
WE
...............continue

breaking
.........­....or shattering
hoplessly

on
....................Dreamless Streets

Killing and Dying

needlessly

sorry charlie
it dont mean a thing
(feelin sorry)
the babe done gone
...where?...
jes to get away
jes to be free
_
sorry charlie
life aint
"the game bein played"
you play it well
she dont care
__
starvin on the street aint cool
either is survivin
sorry charlie
shed rather be dead
than to hang with you
_
sorry charlie
it dont mean a thing
(feelin sorry)
the babe done gone
...where?...
jes to get away
jes to be free

Tiny child


?       0       ?
0     0

                                        ---- lost

••

Tiny child
Lost upon the road

Will you take her by the hand ?

Will you take her home ?

///

WE ARE MORE LOST THAN SHE IS !

SHE STILL HAS HER PURITY

//

Still
We are human

We want to take her by the hand

We want to take her home

//

We are the human

Little child on the road

We take each other by the hand

And go home

and someone is calling........calling!

WHO DAT DERE?

someone is crying....crying

WHO CARES!!......?

in the middle of a lazy afternoon
in the middle of a lazy life

HEY! SOON!
DA BARBEQUE!!!!!!
AND DEN DA...MOVIE!!

and somwhere a sound escapes the death
and somewhere creation becomes human breath

and somewhere SOMEWHERE takes "shape"

and somewhere one sees a  human face

and someone is calling........calling!

WHO DAT DERE?

someone is crying....crying

WHO CARES!!......?

the vapid peace
the enduring indifference

the long slave evening
after the
long slave day

we are
NOTHING
what?
we are hardly?
WHAT?

hardly human any more

go to iran and ****
for the govy
(and thrills)

go to the govy
(and beg)

for a......JOB!

in iran

work for the vapid peace
for the great indifference everywhere

The ragged  

(The  released)

He

Does the one thing left
To do

••

IF DEVINE TRUTH SUSTAINS THE WORLD

WE SHOULD GO THERE

••


(He does the one thing left to do)

•••
•

She too escapes

She walked out the gates of  high school
And

Truly died

If as a Spirit she's reborn that's something to know

••

(maybe they'll meet)

••

MAYBE A DEVINE TRUTH SUSTAINS THE WORLD

AND THEY SHALL MEET

••

MAYBE THAT THEY MEET SUSTAINS THE DEVINE TRUTH

OF THE WORLD

••
•

there is only one thing left to do

PERHAPS THAT'S HOW WE SHALL MEET

EVERY Hollywood movie ***** big time!
-
EVERY word spoken about god by American Politicians is  a lie!!
--
THERE have been no scientific discoveries revealed to the general
Population for 100 years!
---
EVERY one is more productive these days but getting poorer
And deeper in debt!
---
WE sit back nonchalantly while  the earth's environment is destroyed !
--
WE BULLHEADEDLY REFUSE TO ADMIT HOW MUCH WE ALL REALLY LOVE EACHOTHER AND EVERYONE !!!!!!
--
we say the world is devoid of love when all the world is is love
Is love
Is love

wondering

--

(in just a while we DO KNOW.....
all hopes shall be seen
as .....gone)

and so we wait

(for WHAT?)

we wait for either a saviour
or to become a saviour

or

we just wait

--

in wonder

--

we MUST defeat doom

we must

we CAN

realize the fullest potential

we CAN overcome the fear of dying

we MUST


--

just wondering

if you know

how wonderful

you are

on all cylindracals
on every straight line perpendicular or perriphery

we see sense meet veer off
hey!

aint nobody got responsibility??

or a sense of purpose

humanly speaking

----

i say my lines non-linerally

dont matter

you come

FROM ALL DIRECTIONS

with lifetime contracts in yer hands

tell me now true words
show me now true form

be the poet write your life

in blood

on these ****** streets

tell me soft love bodies
ride the endless wave

can the silly maudlin
sentimentalities

we are dyin
dyin

on these ****** streets

tell me now true bodies
show me now images of

the poet who writes with love

write

your life in blood  

on these ****** streets

before we die

on these ****** streets

Ya know
It's kinda  weird
Livin in a country
Where some of its people
Are called
" the N-word-ers"

And that we used to lynch (******)
These N-word people
While singin
Of
The land of the homeless
Slave and the free
(Or some such crap)


While Strutting around with guns to protect us from the government

Of the freest and greatest democracy ever
As if these are two things
--
While watching kids go suicidely  bat-****
And the bat-**** stupid people
Sayin anything an everything
About nothin

An me
Who used to be called an N-word guy lover
Still on the **** list for
Questioning why we are ruled by international
Financial  entities who pay no taxes!
--
YOU DONT NEED TO **** YOURSELVES  (suicide)
(They'll do it for you)
.
There is only ONE TRUE REVOLUTION
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(HINT---it doesn't use American made
Weapons!)
Or any other
For that
Matter
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It is REVOLVING
NOW
FOREVER

SEE
AND FEEL
THE REVOLVING

SEE AND FEEL IT

AND START REVOLVING

REVOLUTION

FOREVER
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It is truly

YOUR ONLY NAME