Black and red is all I saw
Unable to speak because I'm in awe
Black is red is all I see
Filling up my vision until its blurry
Black and red lingerie on a body not mine
Against another who's eyes I can't find
Black and red is all you focus on
Because what you are doing is so wrong
Black and red is what we both see
As the girl that isn't me rushes to leave
Black and red is how I feel
Black for the pain and red for the wounds that won't heal
Black and red is all I see
Because there is a cheating black man on my floor bleeding

Mesmerizing eyes sparkling like the sun's reflection
As it glimmers in the sea on our romantic vacation
Knock, knock, there is no Prince Charming to greet
No extra money for my imagination to even flee
His intoxicating scent with undertones of this foreign land
Checking off more goals as I grasp his outstretched hand
Knock, knock the odor of tired feet has become normal
My list of dreams growing yet no checks to add to the journal
Tears in my family's eyes from so much joy and pride
That I can be the one to spoil them and provide
Knock, knock, my budget is much too tight
Fear too present for me to change my life
The dream so enticing and entrancing and sweet
No need to worry, I hear the hard knock, knock of reality

They say the scars of heartbreak make the heart grow stronger
So what of the lonely heart is what I always wonder
Does it shrivel away or become rotten or hollow
What of being alone with no love to follow
Everyone talks of love and hurt but what of emptiness
I would love to even hurt because at least it's experience
No one talks of being alone because there is only me
Sometimes I feel I am the only one ever truely lonely

My head is filled with darkness but it will go away
The self pity and doubt won't be here to stay
My soul is filled with light that always burns through
To all those evil thoughts and actions I can't undo
My heart may be crushed but it will turn out strong
Things will be okay even though they seem so wrong
My head is telling me life will always be this trying
In my soul I know there is always silver lining

Got you on my mind all the time
I can't live without you is what I've come to find
I need you and want you more than you know
Just really wish I didn't love you so
So you have someone else but it's not stopping me
Or stopping you from being my everything
Still I can only watch from afar
Forced to deal with us being apart
I won't interfere because it won't last
Because fate will take over it always has
I missed you once and will now wait my turn
Because losing you was a painful lesson learned
So until that day comes and my dreams are fulfilled
Just know that I love you and I always will

I see the life I want to live in the light of her eyes
The love I can't help but give when she smiles so wide
Sending warm rays of love to the coldest part of my soul
In my arms she's a perfect fit because she is mine to hold
Seeing those hands so soft and sweet as they reach out for me
Praying that through all her life she'll always need her mommy

There is a moment beyond grasp just over there
My heart is over yonder broken beyond repair
My thoughts are scattered among the sycamore trees
You can almost hear them as the wind rustles the leaves
My opinions are blowing away with the sweeping breeze
My feelings are stretched out over the cement around me
My life is in a puzzle with the pieces blown apart
I need to get it together but where should I start
Please be my duct tape, my Velcro,my sticky glue
Show me how to be and I will forever love you
I'll give you my heart and the rest will follow
My thoughts, opinions and feelings tied with a bow
Show me kind stranger with your beautiful kind eyes
What my life could be if from these streets I rise
This is my life around me with no shelter to protect
Or maybe to pretend that everything is perfect
I have no roof, just these remains left on the ground
Show me the bigger picture than these pieces that surround