As i sit here waiting for the day that life will finally take me away
I write I write about the pain of my friends and family Of the girl I just met who is just like me Of the people i met who dont understand me Of my suicidal friend who wont believe me Of my little sister who is dieing
I sit her and I write realizing i cant change anything I sit here and write realizing that no matter how many people I save there are still people who want to die
Did you know there is an estimated 10 to 20 million non-fatal attempted suicides every year.
and no matter how loud i yell they never seem to hear me screaming that i love them
My voice is drowned out by the millions that tell them they are nothing and no matter how many people I have screaming with me
no one ever seems to hear anything and im tired of losing my voice from screaming everyday when it doesnt change anything but i will never stop because the day i stop could be the only day i could of changed something so i will never stop screaming even if no body is listening
Lifes not fair to us we live each day waiting till the night so that the dark can hid our insecurities
Lifes not fair to us because the reasons to die out way the reasons to live we live on the edge and each night we dig our nails in in an effort to hang on
Lifes not fair to us each morning we wake up trying to hid who we are with makeup each day we agree to whatever they say and we fear the day we will be alone because following is the only thing we have ever known
Lifes not fair to us I cant stop the words before I speak my fist seem to have a mind of thier own and i turn for help but im all alont all the kids it hits can run away but i cant drown out the monster inside of
Lifes not fair to us We turn for help and everyone turns away so we search for love in the wrong place and people call us a disgrace tell there children to look away
Lifes not fair to us but all we are trying to do is replace the love no one ever gave
My whole life i hid behind the curtain of lies so i can hide from the real me but as i hid i got rug burn from regret, depression and hate irritating my skin from the curtains I close my eyes to forget it all and as the burn infected me all people could see was the scars so i went deeper and deeper into the curtains and now i cant find a way out because this darkness of suicidal thoughts is coming in from all directions and i dont know how to stop the burns so i keep running deeper and deeper then i realize i was falling apart the rash had started to infect my bones and was decomposing my ability to feel to love the deeper i ran the more of me i lost then you came a long you told me to come out that it was okay that you didn't care if i had burns but i pushed you away I didn't want you to follow me into the abyss I cared about you to much for you to get lost like this all you said was **open your eyes your not in an abyss your just hiding behind the curtain