Do you love me for real?
At times I hate myself
I guess I need to learn to deal
With complications I cause myself
I couldn't care less about wealth
Just what's real
I feel you feel my words
When I'm speaking or you reading
I could lay with you every night
I stay with you every night
I've know I've done wrong
I'm living my life to make it right
I'm sure you've left me in your head
Just stay one more night
When the morning comes
Hopefully I'll rise with sense like the sun
I know loving you is fun
I know that your the one
Though with all that I've done
Even though that I've won
I can't help but wonder
Do you love me for real
Or will this relationship plunder
The thought hit me fast as lightning
It's screaming at me loud as thunder
This love is o so exciting
Though the thought of losing you frightening
I may plunder into the gutter,
and hit the darkest point of my life
like when I lost my mother.

I remember waking up a few years ago to my life ending.
Screeching still in my ear, and it's bone chilling.
A fatality to my soul like God was trying to finish a villain.
While my cousin getting High in the bathroom.
Mind you my momma dying in the next room.  
Sister had to wake

I swear,
my plate is always fuller than one on Thanksgiving day.
I'm not thankful for being made a slave,
or living in this system that'll lead to an early grave.
Tho I do rejoice in moments free of pain,
free of rage,
free of these social gauges that usually defile my name.
So I look back to a time before the screams of my ancestors.
I dream a dream of my people finally being redeem.
Our slate wiped clean
Though to obtain this my plate must be left clean.
I'm hungry for knowledge
and ancient practices that will help me bring forth these things.
So let us elevate like steam,
and bust this system open at the seams.

Should I comminate my enemies,
Or simply,
Educate those who are kin to me
Its sad to say
most of my elders aren't men to me
Don't take offense,
It's not directed towards anyone individually
But I'm Ashamed to say
most of my people aren't strong mentally
We remain in our chains even tho we appear free.
Enslaved since birth my rights were stripped from me.
Tho, I came up chasing knowledge,
I knew the truth was the key
Way before college
I learned the universe went from
zero to infinity
About zero point energy
And the truth they shroud
Surrounding this melanin
Multiplying my energy
Never dare to hide  
I don't wish for invisibility
So I see  the countenance of  
These racist faces filled with envy
Strong Black Man,
Convict even if I'm proven innocent
You can't say that makes me Militant
Just wondering why I was born here
and have less rights than immigrants.
In a sense,
I can't make it in Amerikkka,
Regardless of my diligence.
Just have to go where my destiny sends me
I know my soul is immortal
so these cowards could never end me
All my life I had to fight
Its the Will of Fire within me.
Tongue sharp as a knife  
I can feel the spirit shield me.
So I keep my boots on Mother Earth
I'll forever war for her.
I try to keep my chakras in sync,
But may disrespect you
If you accept the lies they wrote in ink.
We are the original people,
Our ancestors were Kings & Queens
Yes you I,
Even though as blacks we're only expected to die
Royalty is in our DNA,
not just in our dreams.
We've been empowered longer than enslaved
things are never what they seem.
Wait I forgot,
You were distracted by the love of green.
No not Anahata, I'm unstruck
I don't know if I'm living,
Due to dumb luck,
Or this Old Soul effecting my conduct.
Let me induct you into enlightenment
Active your pineal gland like lightning
Teach you about the astral
its oh so exciting
Tho this all begins with you my child
Please don't be frightened.

These years seem like days,
Can't seem to shake this pain,
Because I know things will never be the same.
I claim to be numb since you left me
Tho, I've grown in to a man since you left me
Sister gone so who's next to meet death,
But I'm here and I'm blessed
A man on his quest,
I'm alive, but I can't say my heart is beating
Feeling like the living dead.
Don't dwell on the words I've said
Even though every last one I've meant.
Happy Birthday and R.I.P. Momma