Jay Bryant

Jay Bryant Jul 2013

Memories

If only I could
Lose my mind to lose stress
My heart wants to think,
But my mind wants the rest.
What pill do I take
When my heart is depressed?
Can it suppress the pain?
Or is this just a test?

This fire is cold
Or, maybe I don't feel the burn.
Numb to the flesh
So, I am tortured
By the thoughts in my soul
My intimate emotions
My inner most secrets.
The skeletons come to life.
My memories bring suffering.

The pain was suppressed
The memories were suppressed
I haven't lost my mind or the stress.
These words leave my heart depressed

Misunderstood by everyone,
But I know I understand myself.

Jay Bryant Jul 2013

Dreaming

Closer,
I need her closer to me,
She seems to pull away
Except when I am dreaming
Her presence is always fleeting
If only this could be something more.
Evolve in to something meaningful
Well to her, because it means to me.
What gives me the gumption?
When I see her I hear a song
Not full of words just melody
Words are meaningless but,
Feeling means everything.
I feel her, she feels me.
Our love fills our life.
And we live happily.
My perfect reality.
Is just a dream.
I live for this
I live for my
Dreams.

Jay Bryant Jul 2013

Can We Fall In Love Again

Can we re-ignite the fire,
That once consumed our soul.
Can we bring to life
The emotions we felt so long ago.
Can we hold strong
To the words we once said.
Refill the rivers
That our love once fled.
Can we bring to light,
The things that are now dark.
Dig deep down,
And illuminate our hearts.
Can we reverse,
This pain we hide inside.
Or has the seed
We planted, withered and died.
Can we fall in love again?

Jay Bryant Jul 2013

What am I to Say

What am I suppose to say.
When I begin to feel this way.
My heart thumps against my chest.
Blood and pain swell my brain.
I'm pulled back into the darkness
Imprisoned in the terror she's made.
I gasp for air and agony hits my throat.
This agony closes my airways.
My heart is thrown to the ground.
Leaving vultures to abuse my emotions
She has hidden her face from my eyes.

What am I suppose to say.
When I'm mentally locked away.
When she takes a razor blade
And carves in my heart her name.
What am I suppose to say.
When my throat is raw and sore
From screaming her name.
What am I suppose to say.
When she torments me
Leaving me with no resting place.
What am I suppose to say.
When I think of her and,
These tears burn my face.
What am I suppose to say.
When she can not hear me,
And she has left me naked.

Jay Bryant Jul 2013

Life & Love

I lay close to the ground
Exhausted, gagged, and bound.
Life has drug me through thorns,
And beaten me mercilessly.
My hands have be grind down
So that I may not help myself.
My blood stains the floor
I screech out of agony
While these pangs deprive me
Joy and pleasure and happiness
Cannot be found within me.
For life has taken them from me.

In regards to her,
She has widened my wounds,
And poured salt inside of them.
She brings me to silence
Only my suffering can be heard.
She has conspired with life
To ensure that I live.
My torture will not be brief.
Life & love has impaled me.

Jay Bryant Jul 2013

Me & You Against The World

When the world
Takes you from me
Just remember my name.
Remember all of the love,
And try to forget the pain.
Promise you'll do this and,
I'll promise to do the same.

I apologize for this love
Because it caused this pain.
Tho, give me the chance,
The chance to do it all again,
I'd do it in the begin but,
I'd need to change the end.
This tragedy made me learn life
This love made me learn pain.

Remember my name
When this world takes you.
I will always love you
Even when the world rapes you.
It has ***** my heart and,
Molested my brain.
I apologize for the hurt.
Please forget the pain.

Jay Bryant Jul 2013

#5 Feeling High

Let the smoke feel the air,
Burning oxygen out the atmosphere.
My lungs expanding
Struggling to cope with invasion
This drug invades my body,

Leaving my thoughts on the ground.
My thoughts leave my head
I strive to catch reality
It slips through my fingers
Now I live completely in my head.

Blowing with the leaves
Peacefully being controlled
Invisible forces controls me

Leaning, and spinning
My thoughts make my lean
These thoughts leave me spinning

I twist off this cloud
Gravity bring me down
My mind lifts off the ground
The high of the drug has left me now.