When I fell in love, I lost my identity. I forgot my name, I forgot myself. Every time I looked at the reflection in the mirror, I saw all those marks on my skin where you had kissed. They formed a map that can be traced easily back to a hidden treasure; you.
And that's how I kept you alive, even when you had died.

When I was a kid, I use to slide on the curve of the moon
and play hide and seek with the stars.
The moon got replaced by the empty bottles of wine
while the stars became the strangers in the back seat of my car.

I sat on the edge as the ship sailed through one of the deadliest oceans. I saw the waves dancing wildly with the wind while the sky was furiously crying.
He came and handed me a bottle of wine so I could get drunk till I lose myself. And I did as he sat with me, flirting around. He unstrapped all my weights and removed all the regrets making me realize what I had been missing all my life.
As the empty bottle rolled on the wooden floor, he took me away with him to an unknown yet peaceful place where I truly belonged.  


My lifeless body went down with the ship as I made love with death.

Tonight I am sitting around the fire that I lit
by burning all those poems I wrote for you.
And I swear it looks so beautiful as the flames
touch the stars just like I thought
my words would touch your heart.

I felt like the first day in a new school. Strangers surrounded me as I walked in the halls of that unfamiliar place. At one side, I saw girls in groups, applying make up on their rotten faces. On the other side, there were guys who were scratching their skins to remove the burnt marks of kisses.
I shivered to see that sight. Everyone around me looked so ugly. Some of them had curse words tattooed on their foreheads while some were tortured badly.
At the end of the hallway, I entered a room. I coughed as I felt smoke rising inside.
"Where am I?" I managed to ask between all the coughing. My body turned numb when I heard a whisper, "It's hell, darling."

I have lived a thousand lives and died a million deaths.
And somewhere in between, I finally found myself.

The sky roared outside as if the world was ending. She knocked on stranger's doors for help hoping someone would take her in and provide her some shelter for the night.
Deprived of sleep, he was awake, watching the news when he heard someone knocking his door. He went to open it and was surprised to see her standing in front of him asking for help. He invited her inside and gave her a towel to dry off as he prepared some hot chocolate for both of them. She's so young, he thought. Must be a lucky night.
When he returned, he found her looking at his old pictures hanging on the wall. "What are you looking at?" he asked. "Nothing. You have a beautiful family" she smiled. "Had." he corrected.


The thunderstorm came to rest as she dragged his body in the backyard and whispered, "Thank you for the hot chocolate daddy. It was just as I remembered from my childhood memory, before you left us."