How do I heal
From the words I can’t feel?
When I just can’t relate
With what I write or create?
When the moment is fleeting
When my hearts filled with hate?
Because the love that you gave me
I couldn’t reciprocate
The passion, the care
The protection from fears
So I sink to the bottom
Drowning in tears

How do I talk to an angel?
How do I touch feathered wings?
Fallen, from the graces of heaven
To live as mere mortal things

Why does the sun rise over the mountains?
Why does it set to the bottom of the sea?
Far off, in the distant horizon
Come dive into the answers with me

This life is so much more than yesterday
Tomorrow is a promise we can’t keep
Right now we’re inhaling forever
Truth, too strong for the meek

I keep asking myself
Keep wondering how…
How do I talk to an angel?
How do I touch feathered wings?
Fallen from the graces of heaven
To live as mere mortal things

The sun sets, the stars shine, the night falls
As wings are the grass roots of earth
There’s nightlife, and moonbeams, and raindrops
If I could only remember my worth
When the moment finally arises
Do I stand up tall on my feet?
Do I rise to meet the occasion?
Or wallow in my own self defeat ?

So I keep asking myself
I keep wondering how…
How do I walk with the angels?
How do I gain feathered wings?
Risen by the graces of heaven
To become royal queens and great kings

Reverberate to find feng shui
Steer your course along the way
But let go of all your inner pain
So all that’s left are those remains
Meditate and find your peace
Focus in and show restraint
With universal feelers raised
Give thanks for the enlightenment attained

Disappointment is inevitable
When you’re held in high esteem
People let you down time and again
Although the pain is seldom seen
But the pain does go away with time
It’s important not to dwell
Because you’ll never know where heaven is
If you don’t first go through hell

I see open fields, and sun drenched skies
All hellos, and no goodbyes
A back and forth, with wise replies
A good time spent with alibis

Hearing melodies, that soothe the soul
We lose ourselves, and in a sense, control
Of our bodies movements
From high to low
Being free, and letting go
All while feeling, I’ve found my home

Wrapped in safety, immune from harm
A goodnight kiss, with warmth, and charm
I’ve been relinquished, rendered, deprived, disarmed
Found my inner peace, before I buy the farm

Do you believe in love?
I have never been so lucky
When push comes to shove
Never to be struck by Cupid
By arrows from above
I think I actually saw one hit
An innocent white dove

It seems they always miss me
By inches, maybe less
It occurs when you’re not looking
Is my only guess
And if it ever finds me
And I am unimpressed
I can then pinpoint my pain
And the cause of my distress

It took me forever to find solace
That comfort that I’d sought
Under distressing situations
I was heavily distraught
I found a relaxation
A feeling of inner peace
I strove from my foundation
To a plateau within my reach
Deserted, I had lost my way
Lonelinesses bitter cold embrace
I did away with my anxiety
It now finally had a face
I was capped to common ground
What I lost had now been found
And the chaos I’d been a part of
Was censured and denounced

They speak to me of love
But I’ve found nothing of the sort
I had great expectations
But life is way too short
I was too stubborn to settle
So I ended up alone
Reflecting back on memories
And the chances that I’ve blown
Though, I haven’t given up
Yes, I still have hope
Of finding my true love
So we can run away; elope

The pages come alive
With knowledge to share
Mixtures and potions
Magic and flare
Recipes used
Elixirs and brews
Porridge and stews
Never refused
Not even by the gentleman
With fine leather shoes 👞
But as the legend grew
You already knew
Don’t be confused
It’s just what I do

Slightly shaded under sunny skies
My skin grows tan
My throat runs dry
There’s whispers of winter
There’s proof in my eyes
The seasons, they change
But the sun always shines
Peaceful, serine
No tales or white lies
Today is one of the finest days
Since I’ve been alive

They travel towards the sky
As expression of our mood
Explosive bits of joy, ascending
Past the full lit moon
An enormous color spectrum
Magnificent and loud
A demonstration of celebration
As we stand together, proud

How do I begin to explain
The spark that you turn into flame
You’re my only desire
That ignites my fire
My only hope is that you feel the same
I long for your kiss
The touch of your hand
Walking the beaches with our feet in the sand
You’re my lover, my friend
Until the end
And you make me feel like a man

Knotted up and clenched
Eyes filled up wth rage
Relentless fists of anger
Ready to engage
Strikes down hard with force
A ****** mouth for war
Pounding on the pavement
Knocking down the doors
Into a brand new age
Dark now becomes light
Avoiding sure disaster
Like the shadows of the night

Loneliness is a heartbeats gasp
Remembrance of a lonesome past
Until the day we met and clashed
Your eyes gazed at a moments last
Seductive gestures we once grasped
Slightly above being harassed
Thrown away, forgotten, trashed
For money rendered and fists of cash

Get there with flare
Style and pizzazz
Spread your wings and fly
Towards the horizon
Past snow covered peaks
And wave with one hand, goodbye
Or run through the grass
Jumping off knolls
Into a somersault
Tumbles and rolls
Leave an impression
Wherever you go
And always be patient
No matter how slow

A caducous of petals
Fallen from a rose
Harboring its fragrance
Just beneath my nose
Wafting up my nostrils
Not that I oppose
An endless sweet aroma
Fleeting as it goes
Back to vast locations
Though the proximity is close
Rising to the Sunday sun
Drinking from a hose

Change in my pocket
That’s all I have left
I was once a proud man
Now I’m flirting with death
Broke to my bones
To my innermost core
I hate what I’ve seen
Just can’t wait to see more
But whatever it is, that God has in store
No devil nor angel’s going to walk through that door

An iceberg floats at level seas
But what you can’t see, lies just beneath
An untold story of catastrophe
That ripples the waves with a stiff breeze
And robs you of your humanity
Just like robbers or petty thieves
They’ll leave you hopeless, down on your knees
As you sit there and you beg and plead
For things you know you can’t achieve

‪The clouds adapted to fit the sky‬
‪They caught wind and then my eye‬
‪The frame, a royal blue hue‬
‪Its potential peaked, yet goes unused‬
‪The clouds fan out as they float on by‬
‪Gravity, they can defy‬
‪Shady cover overhead ‬
‪From the heat and rays the sun sends‬

The sky opens up above me
I taste tears from way up high
The floodgates open wide enough
For me to take a dive
Sinking in the deep end
I take a gulp of air
Hold my breath and dip below
In hopes to reappear
Until I rise again
Suppressing all my fears
Safe again inside my home
Until the rain all disappears

Nighttime approaches
Under fluorescent skies
Exploding in bursts of
Phosphorescent dynamite
Over open seas and tranquility
The tree of life soaking in the fragrant air
In anticipation of the morrow

Fluttering new butterfly
Multicolored wings
Guzzling up the nectar
Out of flowers in the Spring

Fluttering new butterfly
Who had caterpillar dreams
Of what it’d be like to fly up high
With it’s multicolored wings

Where does inspiration lurk
When you’re trying hard to work
But the ideas won’t form inside your brain?
Where do you go to seek
An audience of sheep
Willing to flock together
To be entertained?
It’s no easy task
Reaching out to grasp
What little is left but somehow still remains
Without ideas there are no plans
Tempting to alienate your fans
Before becoming the man, the myth, the spark to light the flame
It’s not the bumblebee that stings
But the pendulum that swings
That sets the tone
On how things are the way they are despite the pain
And the more you fight the cause
The more often progress becomes paused
And the better the chances are
That all changes stay the same
I think stimulation’s key
Because the brain needs food to eat
Or you’ll undoubtedly starve it
If you don’t feed it what it craves
So just so it’s understood
There is no would, or should, or could
There’s only do or die with tears in eyes
While dancing in the rain

Footprints in the valley
Footprints in the snow
Following me, wherever I go
An exact match from heal to toe
Earth beneath my feet
Air, crisp and clean
And good to breathe
Sun, peeking through the trees
Snow, as far as the eye can see
Resting on top of mountains peak
So bright it seems to glow
Embracing nature as it is
It’s rhythm and it’s flow
Taking steps, one by one
To fertilize and grow
And to become the greatest me
The world has ever known

The love between a woman and a man
Fades away like foot prints in the sand
Lost, but still in high demand
Are fairytales that never work out as planned
Bright days and lit up nights
They’re beautiful like castles in the sky
But dwindle into rubble by and by
So why try
When beauty is only beauty in one’s eyes
And it’s gone before you even realize

Raised umbrellas for any weather
The rain or the sunshine
Under many moons I took to you
With hopes that you’d be mine
After failed attempts I never dreamt
There might come a time
When you’d say “yes”
I’d make no bets
Not even for a dime

‪Lust and passion coincide‬
‪When two lovers kiss‬
‪Hand in hand, side by side ‬
‪Thankful they exist‬
‪Together for a moments time‬
‪In universal bliss‬
‪And when the two do separate ‬
‪It’s every minute missed‬
‪Sinful thoughts do take place ‬
‪When hearts beat in a pounding chest‬
‪And what may seem like an eternity ‬
‪Often gets addressed‬
In the height of their euphoria
They stop and get undressed
And they’re bound by when their worlds collide
Or if their problems still persist
But what may come as no surprise
Each can coexist
For in their mind
They become one
In pure subconsciousness

Her fragrance wafts and fills the air
Take a whiff and be prepared
What you’re about to smell is grand
Transported to another land
Where skies are blue, and clouds are pink
And there’s nothing else to do but think
This is where I long to be
Me with her, and her with me
We’ll ponder about a dance or two
While feeling good, and in the mood
And we’ll take each step just like we said
Forever, or until the end

Like a goldfish in its bowl
My memory, my pictures,
My existence, my soul

I’m a survivor,
I make due with what I have
Sizing up my competition
Using only math

Head to toe
In rain or snow
I’ll take you everywhere I go

Dearly beloved
I pushed and shoved
To get to you
My beloved

I bring candy
Flowers and more
Knocking at a steady pace
Upon your bedroom door

To my surprise
I know you lied
With heaven as my witness

To be quite frank
My heart, it sank
Into my stomach
When you pulled rank

To you I give a grand salute
I’ll get to you
I’m now in route

Clear and focused
Mind at ease
Hair in breeze
A sweet release

Took the bait
Must I repeat
Making love between the sheets

Caught in bed
Across the street
In a million years
Never thought you’d cheat

But I was wrong
As the radio plays our song
Crushed in defeat
Under the sun

My emotions
They weigh a ton
Pedal to the metal
Having fun
It’s just another hit-and-run

I’ll love him till the end
My imaginary friend
Who’s looked after me ever since I was a child
He’s missing his glass eye
Which was picked on, ****, and pried
His stuffing has been falling out for years
In a strange turn of events
I picked up and I left
On a secret journey of forgotten tears

Smoke rings are still rising
From a pair of shades
With a cigarette wrapped around by lips
Cool, calm, and collective
Gaining some perspective
From disinterest in a formidable domain
The hurricane was tragic
Felt a little anti-climatic
And nothing will ever be the same

Monkey see, monkey do
Do you love me?
Because I love you
I loved you once
But then you grew
Now I love you two x two
You are my sunshine
My ocean blue
My orange skyline
My godly view
Close and cozy
Stuck like glue
But that was a secret
You already knew

We run for the betterment
Instead of squandering our time
We race for the thrill of it
And for crossing the line
We reach for the finish
Just a second behind
If only for a second
Just a blink of an eye
If not in first did we finish
We at least competed and tried
And didn’t leave it up
To the referees to decide

For whom?

For whom does the butterfly land?
For the gentle soul
For that gentle nature
The gift that’s been bestowed
For the innocent
For the future that’s in tow
For that sweet supportive nectar
Wrapped up in a bow
For all the words of love
For all the sappy pine
For all the past transgressions
Whether yours or mine
And that is it’s decision
That’s where it resides
But nothing lasts forever
In the life of butterflies

I’m frozen in captivation
I can’t seem to comprehend
A force that’s to be reckoned with
Who goes by the name of Ren
As his tunes flow out of my speakers
The sounds ricochet in my brain
Playing percussion on my eardrums
Please insert it in my veins
From the melody, to the rhythm
To the words that paint a scene
He stirs up raw emotions
From the likes I’ve never seen
With his lyrics, there are meanings
Which hit so close to home
He expresses all his feelings
While hypnotic and intone
Dripping wet with talent
His greatness emanates like gold
Brighter than a lightning strike
A true sight to behold
I stare for my amusement
I dare not turn away
Because I’m mesmerized and blown away
Every time that I push play

I have a little secret
I want it to be heard
I can’t bear to keep it to myself
I hope my words don’t come out slurred
It’s been a long time coming
I’m focused and undeterred
We need to grasp on to our time on earth
When life is a four letter word
Time is ever fleeting
Life is way too short
I can always lean on laughter
As my last resort
Because we all have value
Each one of us has worth
It’s experiences and memories
As we know that life is a four letter word
Life’s filled with disappointment
Obstacles and stress
It’s overcoming that can be challenging
Being put to the test
So gather those around you
Spreading love can be transferred
There’s no need for negativity
When life is a four letter word

I’m not trying to get back to what I was before
Hidden in the room, just beyond my door.
I contemplate whether to enter, but I’m really not too sure.
It’s really way too tempting, too hard to ignore.
I’m thinking and I’m thinking, whether or not to explore.
I just can’t get enough, I’m wanting more and more.
The innocence, something that’s so pure.
No worries of adulthood, knowing what’s in store.
Will I find my riches, will I end up poor?
I take my keys out of my pocket, I know what to use them for.
I twist open the lock,
I succumb to the lure.
I’m shocked by what I see,
Seduced by the allure.
What to do with all this wealth, maybe find a cure?
Donate every cent, the abundance and galore.

I express with finesse
The mood I inflect
That would in other words vary
And make them suspect
But in turn, I surrender
And give freely at will
The key to the cupboard
To give you your fill
I’m unattached an unbound
By the forces that be
So come take my hand
And let’s run to the sea
To the bluest of oceans
To the warm setting sun
To the chains that would bind me
But alas, there are none

Freedom isn’t free
But all we want is more
When all the world can see
Is just another casualty of war
Between methodical submissions
To our ideals placed on hold
We’re all zombies walking aimlessly
Doing what we’re told
But I can sense the future
Past the horizon up ahead
No longer am I filled with hope
No, instead I’m filled with lead
Working for the minimum
Hungry, trying to get fed

He couldn’t get a handle
He couldn’t get a grip
On any situation
That glorified a whip
He stayed quite
He stayed still
He fought hard for his free will
He then spoke up
He then advanced
He finally learned to take a stance
And now he is our mayor

I once was fresh and vital
Young and full of pep
I’d climb up the highest peak
Leaping each and every step
But today I sing a different tune
I sleep while I’m awake
And perish with unripened fruit
Now that I’m a dried up grape

My inspiration was me
After all the hiding and seek
Searching the globe
Away from my home
It couldn’t hurt to have a peek

Born out of need
Success guaranteed
Passion for the well to do
Planting little seeds

Praise a welcomed feeling
After years of self abuse
It’s like my body and my mind
Finally called a truce

Exchange for new proud parents
Seems perfectly legit
All the smiles and the slaps on back
After exclaiming that I quit!

Weight up off of my shoulders
Stars perfectly aligned
A fresh start in a new career
I expect will turn out fine

Falling from up atop my perch
Spinning as I drift
Out into the nothingness
Wrapped up like a gift
I’ve sought and reached a balance
In a process that took long
To now hold my chest out far
Chanting out your song
Bold, so you could hear it
From a heavy set of lungs
But softer than an angels wings
And with the strength to carry on

I was frozen in a shadow
That was evidently cold
Just doing what came natural
Revealing flesh and bone
I snuck into a crevice
Inside a mountain made of stone
To gather my belongings
In this place that I call home

They ‪flourish in my dreams‬
‪In fuchsia waves of spring ‬
‪Swaying in the brimming meadows ‬
As if ‪bowing to their king‬
‪Yellow pollen spread by wings‬
‪Dusted effortlessly about‬
‪Pollinating everything ‬
‪Removing any doubt ‬
‪Of what will or will not grow‬
‪Being purposely exposed ‬
‪To the sun, one by one‬
‪Steady as it goes‬