Hurdles confront me
I’m standing in place
Bound by the outcome
I inevitably face
Resistance is futile
How much time can one waste?
In an existence of quandary
Beyond time and space
That’s where my mind wanders
With my head in the clouds
Aloof and in danger
Still, I stand proud
Resilient or stupid?
It’s undecided, unclear
But it helps when confronted
With undeniable fear
So, I continue, my foot on the gas
My hands on the wheel
Till I derail and crash
And come to terms with what’s real
And hope it won’t last
Driven by madness
Driven to madness
I’m condemned to my fate
Exposed to the differences
Unto which we all can relate.

There were dark days in my past
When I walked amongst the shadows
Waning in a battle field
Dodging flying arrows
Aimed straight at my heart
But deflected off my shield
Then ripped and torn apart
Until it no longer hurt to feel

A blank stare
In one ear and out the other
I hear you but I’m not listening
Have way too much on my mind
Here but not here
Pour me another glass of wine
Traditional conversations
Answering questions with questions
Verbally confused
I’m the painter
You’re my muse
Discovering the beauty in your eyes
How have I never seen this before
Your words become clear
Hovering around my ears
Starting to sink in now
I hear you
Can’t live without you
Hush
I hear you
I’m all ears
No need for your tears
I’m listening now
All my problems fade away
Hold you in my arms
Everything will be alright
Squeeze you with all my might
Never letting go
Hush
I hear you

She was a hypothetical being
A figment of my dreams
A human roller coaster
With moves I’ve never seen
She’d always catch me staring
And giggle with her charm
And just as things got interesting
I’d wake to an alarm

I am not alone
Despite my empty room
I am not a hopeless man
Which loneliness consumes
I devour every second
Of every moment of each day
And I’ll always have a comeback
For anything I have to say
I take comfort in my solace
The peace is music to my ears
I don’t waste my time with mundane rhymes
That I’ve been writing down for years
And if I choose to share it
It’ll be with words upon a page
That releases any tension
Or aggressive pent up rage
I still strive for my happiness
But I’m a bird inside a cage
That wants to stretch his feathers
And make a decent wage
Shall I conform and be resilient?
Shall I choose to trust again?
Or shall I continue on the path I’ve chosen
And stay my only friend?

I became a poet when the hurt was too deep
When I stood out from the crowd like a black sheep
When in the mirrors reflection, I did not like what I saw
When I saw in myself an abundance of flaws
That is when I took to pen and to ink
To release my ideas of what I thought and I think
My poems are my savior
The releasing of pain
My thoughts on to paper
That help me explain
What it is in my mind that I must refrain
That I shouldn’t feel awkward or even ashamed

Her words spoke volumes
They caused a fuss
Those haunting words
“I can’t save us”
It’s powerlessness
It’s a burden we all share
Flashing glimmered hope
Fades into thin air
The powers that be
Are consciously aware
Even after bloods been shed
They still don’t seem to care

Cold as ice
In arctic seas
Homeward bound
Before they freeze
Must maneuver
Through sleet and rain
Past big sharp icebergs
That slice and maim
The underbelly
Like a tin can
And sink their ship
Farewell, the end

I dance on my flaws
I’ve extinguished my past
I learned to hold on to the things I could grasp
My actions need guidance
I falter, then fade
I’m lost and I’m losing
At this whole big charade
I dance on my flaws
I reverse my course
Gently at first
Before using force
I clamor for answers
All I can find
To increase my knowledge
And fill up my mind
I dance on my flaws
From dusk till dawn
All must be present
To see who’s missing; gone
I’m grateful to see them
Perusing a cause
Bending the rules
Not breaking the laws
I dance on my flaws
I’ve conquered my fears
I’m braver and stronger
Than it is or appears
I look in the window
I knock at the door
I’m changing what matters
To beat the high score
I dance on my flaws
What’s mine is yours
A standing ovation
While left wanting more

It was music to my ears
The words I wished to hear
When you said the two words “I do”
It made me want to cheer
I’d been waiting for this day to come
For us to be a team
And now I get to call you mine
The woman of my dreams

I dream of you
Your lips of cherry red
Lying on sheets of white
In my house upon my bed
I dream of you
The fragrance of your hair
Your gentle touch and care
Your skin so soft and fair
I dream of you
Your lips of cherry red
The last three words you said
Dancing in my head
I dream of you

If a photo were a poem
It would be of you and you alone
Dim light, do a shadow make
For all that there is at stake
Nooks and crannies;
They take shape
A reflection of what light creates
Quality, in a perfection state
Just long enough to resonate

‪If I could make a wish‬
‪I’d wish for love and peace‬
‪Surrounded by all colors‬
‪Of each person, race, and creed‬
‪If I could make a wish‬
‪I’d make it just under the horizon‬
‪Where my mood flows with the breeze‬
‪Just like a dandelion ‬
If I could make a wish
I’d focus on simplicity
Where my thoughts were one with nature
In the foliage and the trees
If I could make a wish

What I’d do if I had wings
I’d chase the stars and count the rings
On Saturns outer limits
They defy the laws of gravity
They are visible for my eyes to see
Until the clouds shade my visibility
And I fly about my way
To see the things I haven’t seen
Not just pictures on the silver screen
Or a vision in a vivid dream
That opens my imagination
I’ll tip the scales of mediocrity
And soar the skies more vibrantly
To cure my curiosity
And to justify the means

Toying with my heartstrings
Playing silly games
Lending to my desires
You should feel ashamed
Feelings can be #dangerous
Can drive a man insane
I’ll not play the part of pawn
If it’s all the same
Stirring up the melting ***
Completely unrestrained
Completely unrestricted
Shouting out my name

If I were a house
I’d open all my doors
Lift up all my windows
I’m absolutely sure

If I were a house
I’d get up and leave
I’d lift up my foundation
Find refuge in the streets

If I were a house
I’d move near the beach
Far away from city life
But close enough to reach

I close my eyes
And I fantasize
Of wealthy days
And the grand prize

Winning money
That’ll change my life
The lavish lifestyle
Party till I die

Go out with a bang
To everyone’s surprise
Live the life of luxury
I will not be denied

The hottest women
To tell me lies
Gravitate
To the skies

No guilty feelings
No long goodbyes
Just the state of euphoria
And the biggest piece of pie

If only for a moment
A glimpse of what’s to come
Forgiving all my enemies
Spreading joy with there was none
Soaking up the misery
Filling up my cup
Doing all that I can do
Hoping it’s enough
Exploring holy sanctity
Never was my cup of tea
Never giving up or in
Saving me from me

She huddled in the corner
She cuddled in the sheets
She asked her Lord and savior
If the two of them could meet
She promised to be casual
Quite and discrete
In a proper manner
On a getaway retreat
Just to talk about the weather
And have something sweet to eat
Not to talk about harsh subjects  
That I wouldn’t dare repeat
Or to match wits on a topic
Of which I can’t compete
But rather sit around and get some sun
In the summer heat

Remembrance of the words you said
Locked away without a key in head
Whilst up awake in bed
As sleep is sometimes fleeting
Those words were truly taken to heart
Delving into a brand new start
Ripped up, shredded, torn apart
As if vengeance were a faze

I have to ask
Were your feelings hurt
When I no longer was the center of your universe?
Now the stars are unaligned
We’re wasting precious time
Waiting for something better to arrive
Echo my advice
Never ask twice
For a slow dance
Or a secondhand delight

There’s beauty in a silhouette
Despite the eyes I’ve never met
Her form takes shape and screams neglect
From lack of love to great extent
There’s the shadow of a marionette
A puppet on a string quartet
A solo act in-lieu of a duet
For someone who’s been heaven sent
The surest thing, the safest bet
The highest highs, the slow descent
Of lofty goals and warm sunsets
Instead, exists another ill content

I’ve been waiting since I was young
For my imaginary friend
To take me with him to the place
I never thought I’d see again
Now I’m back to claim my stake
In this concocted made up land
That I’ve dreamed about for so long
Just to say I can

I’m a poet, of course
And I’m my own source
Of inspiration that helps me to write
With pen and with ink
I assess and I think
To what led to my downfall and plight
Then I scribble it down
As my feet touch the ground
And I stay certain if just out of spite
With no room to fail
Or to outweigh the scales
The fire inside me ignites
And there you have it
A pitiful magnet
Attracting the eyes of a crowd
And with hits and with misses
I value the kisses
As I stand with my chest out and proud

I’ve been here waiting
Not sure for what
The storyline
It lacks a plot

It keeps on going
And never stops
The pain keeps growing
I try to connect the dots

I get no answers
For questions made
We shine our brightest
Before we fade

I see little reason
To hang around
I’m in a hurry
To where I’m bound

I get no comfort
From sunny days
The time is now
No more delays

I’m never up
I’m always down
My place on earth
Is underground

Life continues
The world goes on
It makes no difference
Whether I’m here or gone

I don’t mean
To sound so drab
Life for me
Ain’t all that bad

I’ll come around
I’ll find my cause
I’ll bow my head
To the crowds applause

But for now
The lights grow dim
A reflection of
The shape I’m in

Until I find
What will set me free
I’ll kneel down
On bended knees

I feel shot out
I’ve been deprived
I’ll accept
What’s to decide

I’ve got no resolve
My fight is weak
I’m in a hole
I’m in too deep

I can’t get out
I can’t retreat
If I’ve got a soul
It’s fast asleep

I paid the toll
To cross the street
I won the prize
Even in defeat

I played it right
I didn’t cheat
I rolled the dice
And took the leap

On just the chance
Just on a whim
Above the clouds
The sun creeps in

I feel its warmth
Upon my face
It sets the mood
That’s taking place

My eyes are closed
I’m half awake
Not getting sleep
Was my mistake

I listen close
Hear my heart break
It’s so much more
Than one can take

I’m ill equipped
To change my mood
I’m ill equipped
It’s understood

I’m on a journey
Not sure to where
When I arrive
Will you be there?

I need a guide
Someone that cares
Nothing else
Can quite compare

I head to my room
I take the stairs
You gently knock
But I’m unaware

What’s beyond my bedroom door?
What’s underneath
My bedroom floor?

I’ll always wonder
Forever more
Forever more
Forever more

The light that shines between us
During a sunset loves embrace
Diving deep into your ocean
From high in outer space
I’m immersed in who you are  
Like the sand between our feet
Grounded, looking back at you
Entrenched in my belief

It’s in the realm of possibilities
In my imminent domain
To make them leave and watch them go
Back to whichever way they came
I’ll no longer posture idle
While others seek their fame
I plan to make a run of it
And be a true legend of the game

You are my anchor
My beacon of light
The ocean that sparkles
My moon in the night
You are the sails that lead me to shore
My want and desire
That I just can’t ignore
You are my craving
My can’t do without
You are my certain
My without a doubt
And all that I hope for
And all that I need
Is a gentle reminder
Of the impending stampede

I want to wake up in my dreams
sail the seven seas
Put paint on the canvas
Make a masterpiece
I want to wake up in my dreams
Flying over trees
Dancing with the butterflies
hair blowing in the breeze
I want to wake up in my dreams
where the outcome comes with ease
I want to take each day as if my last
and let my soul be free

I’m distraught but unabashed
My futures in the trash
I wagered every dime I had
All my hard earned cash
I have little to no chance
Of regaining all my cash
So I’ll start again
And be back in a flash
I’ve taken my last stance
On money and romance
So I guess I’ll have to reassess my evil ways

The moon is in cahoots
With the sun and stars
Also with Uranus, Jupiter, and Mars
The shimmer in the stream
Is for poetry and dreams
Planets in our galaxy
Share a certain theme
All the stars stand out
Regardless of their shine
I know yours and mine
Will stand the test of time

Powerful pictures
Can be seen with the eyes
Theres universal displeasure
For the incessant lies
They tease us with tall tales
Promises and bribes
But all that they’re producing  
Is the country’s own demise
They wear masks with smiles
Then sell us the dream
But the evil’s always lurking
And they are not who they seem
So take notice of photos
They may be all that we have left
For the path that we have chosen
Breeds contempt and neglect

When the phone rang, I didn’t answer
It was because I had nothing to say
I didn’t want questions
Or nice conversation
I just wanted to be left by the way
To be put aside like a book
Are you a pawn or a rook?
Do you steal hearts like an infamous crook?
Do you get jealous?
Sometimes overzealous
Or are you just hoping that someone will look?
I’ve got good vision
I’ve been sent on a mission
I’ll slay the red dragon today
I’ve been given my rations
I’m filled up with passion
And I’m not even the least bit afraid

Just like an inferno
He raged out of control
A hundred miles an hour
Burning down the road
He took a left at Hell
He’d been there, you could tell
As he continued on down the empty highway
Heading towards the setting sun
Chased and on the run
But always staying one more step ahead

It was his sacred duty
To harvest inner beauty
To bring together both a woman and a man
He searched throughout the city
Found someone more pretty
Than any other in the city he had planned
He relished his new findings
Saw the silver lining
And knew they would be highly in demand
Then he set after a suitor
In hopes to find a wooer
And join the two forever hand in hand

You violate my inner core
My heart beating
Wanting more
You hypnotize
With charm and grace
You call my name
Come face to face
Not a second
Goes to waste
Or you’ll get lost
Along the way
Back to where
Your heart belongs
Singing words
Disguised as songs

I refuse to anger
I consult my inner pain
Just to find out later
I’ve only half a brain
At least it is the good half
That’s been working hard for years
I have nothing more to think about
As I’ve conquered all my fears

The dream
What couldn’t be foreseen
A touch of lips
The first kiss
The tiniest hint of gleam
A sparkle in the eye
When two worlds collide
Innocence
Eternal bliss
Head held high with pride

Little children playing games
With innocence where it pertains
They don’t preconceive or discriminate
They only know how to appreciate
The love they have
The love they’re shown
So inquisitive of the unknown
Bless their hearts
Bless their souls
May the love they have only grow.

Innocence is simply bliss
Under sun and sky
It’s spotted very easily
With the naked eye
It’s beautifully portrayed
As the focus of true pride
The darlings of magnificence
Watched by angels in the sky

The skies cast a periwinkle blue
Over vast stretches, in plain view
Along the boundless horizon
Over waters edge
Where the two connecting blues
Inevitably meet again
To decipher where the ocean and the sky begin

I’m seeing things in retrograde
It’s dyslexia of the mind
Going forward, looking back
Still hoping that I’ll find
One who can decipher
The rhythm and the rhyme
Or who can join the two together
Into something redefined
So it’ll help me see more clearly
Amid the daily grind
And snap me back into reality
Just in the nick of time