You insinuated trust
As if it were required
Chasing after poetry
Alone with your desires
A token as an offering
For the show that’s to ensue
But nothing grips my consciousness
Like the time I spent with you

Drawn by horse and carriage
Down the streets and lanes
In the middle of the winter
Only trying to maintain
Any resemblance of what’s normal
And help keep us entertained
While throwing color on the monotony
That’s grown black and white with age

I’m consumed by endless worry
I’ve concocted all my lies
That I may stand alone in heavy thought
Away from prying eyes
A true nightmare of epic scale
They’re the things I most despise
But I might be the most concerned
When I’ve been measured up and sized

Trigger Warning⚠️

It’s beauty always fades
Is what someone often says
In an effervescent haze
Hiding their never ending pain
You’ve got to batten down the hatch
As days burn faster than a match
Then grab tight and give a pull
So that you become attached
No lofty expectations
No fleece covering your eyes
Just tremendous palpitations
Before you say goodbye
To the world of hypocrites
And you, yourself, are one
You can end it all just like your friend
Looking down the barrel of a gun
Send a bullet through your skull
End the monotonous delay
Call it out for what it is
Call a ***** a *****
Or stop playing the victim
Make your word your bond
Find something you like doing
Go out and look beyond
Don’t let obstacles dissuade you
Where there’s a will there is a way
Embrace determination
Why not start today?

Taking in the sunset
Amidst a golden sky
Hands held so tight together
You’d think that they were tied
Celebrating the occasion
We’ve survived another day
Because there are no guarantees in life
Or how long we will stay

The world ends
Waiting to advance
To the next installment
Into the grand expanse
Or with the halt of motion
Conquered where we stand
Or sent into oblivion
Swept up off the land
Regardless of our standing
We’re stripped of upper class
And praying to the heavens
That this too shall pass

I saw you from afar
Where the stars don’t all have names
And the only time I wasn’t there
Was because of falling rain
Dance with me, till the end of days
Or before we go insane
Either way, come dance with me
Let us entertain

When he was reserved
He got what he deserved
Now all he has are memories
Perfectly preserved
He could pick them out
Of the faces in the crowd
He’d like to tell you more
But what he’d do is not allowed
So he carries on
He goes about his day
In constant contemplation
Of throwing a grenade

She vanquished and she stole
Every living soul
That ever crossed her path in any way
She needed us to know
That her heart’s as dark as coal
And she looks at every man as human prey
There’s nothing we can do
She’s obnoxious, loud, and rude
I’m not sure how much more there is to say
I hope she gets her just
For the previously discussed
Soon, before she gets wise and escapes!
I’m unsure how to get it done
No thought I think seems fun
But we need to make a plan without delay
So, let us all discuss
What we need to do and must
So I can get undressed and hit the hay

‪Your touch is a poem‬
‪Engraved on my skin ‬
‪Every end that we meet‬
‪Is a chance to begin‬
‪Not a moment gets waisted ‬
‪Not a harsh word gets said‬
‪Just a melodic symphony ‬
‪Going off in my head‬
‪A violin concerto‬
‪A harmonious tune‬
‪In sync with the rhythm ‬
‪Under a luminous moon‬

Art depicts the unreality
The imagination runs amuck
The focus and the mindset
You’d hate to interrupt
A stroke of paint on canvas
Gives a sense of sweet release
And by the time it takes to finish up
You’ve found your inner peace

A mix of color
Of browns and reds
Gold and yellow
To paint and spread

Vibrant to the naked eye
The canvas speaks
Of days gone by
And the days that lie ahead
Many things, the canvas said

The only thing the canvas dread
Was to make sure the starving artist’s fed
The artist, who’s face I read
Painted gold, and yellows
browns and reds

The language of love
When bodies first meet
Full body elation
From head to feet
Sultry seduction
Done so discreet
Heavier breathing
Pounding heart beat
The thumping in chest
On rapid repeat
Sweating and lathered
From friction and heat

At first we headed west
But we weren’t that impressed
So we decided to go east
But we wound up in the streets
So we ended up down south
In a town I can’t pronounce
Standing in a field of shredded wheat

I’m an utter disappointment
A letdown through and through
I’ve meandered through existence
Avoiding my own truth
I stare into the mirror
As if I needed visual proof
Of a living, breathing, disaster
Of someone I thought I knew
Don’t reach out to me, I’m hopeless
I’ve been so since my youth
Wasting my short existence
I hope, will conclude at some point soon
I’m too cowardly to end it all
I’m just waiting for my cue
To take the plunge into eternity
And end my doom and gloom
All the fight has left me
I’m in a constant state of blue
With not much energy to speak of
I’ve lost the will to do
To explore the world with wonder
For a new perspective; point of view
Everything seems meaningless
I’m withdrawn, I withdrew
Nothing new that life can teach me
Unless forbidden or taboo
I’m void of any passion
Nothing to inspire too
I’m confused as to why I’m still on earth
Simply howling at the moon
Just as a crying baby would
Fresh out of the womb

I pulled some strings
Which fueled my greed
That began as an implanted seed
That grew into enormous strength
When there wasn’t any need
I paid the piper
Now I’m freed
To set out and follow
My hopes and dreams

I’m obstreperous;
Out of control
I raise, when I’m supposed to fold
I answer when I do not know
I stand pat when there’s room to grow
I spew, when I should not show
My sentiments, my overflow
Swept beneath the undertow
And all wrapped up in a big red bow

Is it tomorrow yet?
Have I woken up too soon?
To see the yellow sunlight
That illuminates the room
I’m unaware of my surroundings
I’m in a spun cocoon
With the outcome to be beautiful
And avoid impending doom

I recognize that emblem
A spider with a knife
It’s very prominent in circles
Of every walk of life
Not those who have more money
The said “cream of the crop”
The upper echelon of prominence
You know, the people at the top

I’ve been here waiting
Not sure for what
The storyline
It lacks a plot

It keeps on going
And never stops
The pain keeps growing
I try to connect the dots

I get no answers
For questions made
We shine our brightest
Before we fade

I see little reason
To hang around
I’m in a hurry
To where I’m bound

I get no comfort
From sunny days
The time is now
No more delays

I’m never up
I’m always down
My place on earth
Is underground

Life continues
The world goes on
It makes no difference
Whether I’m here or gone

I don’t mean
To sound so drab
Life for me
Ain’t all that bad

I’ll come around
I’ll find my cause
I’ll bow my head
To the crowds applause

But for now
The lights grow dim
A reflection of
The shape I’m in

Until I find
What will set me free
I’ll kneel down
On bended knees

I feel shot out
I’ve been deprived
I’ll accept
What’s to decide

I’ve got no resolve
My fight is weak
I’m in a hole
I’m in too deep

I can’t get out
I can’t retreat
If I’ve got a soul
It’s fast asleep

I paid the toll
To cross the street
I won the prize
Even in defeat

I played it right
I didn’t cheat
I rolled the dice
And took the leap

On just the chance
Just on a whim
Above the clouds
The sun creeps in

I feel its warmth
Upon my face
It sets the mood
That’s taking place

My eyes are closed
I’m half awake
Not getting sleep
Was my mistake

I listen close
Hear my heart break
It’s so much more
Than one can take

I’m ill equipped
To change my mood
I’m ill equipped
It’s understood

I’m on a journey
Not sure to where
When I arrive
Will you be there?

I need a guide
Someone that cares
Nothing else
Can quite compare

I head to my room
I take the stairs
You gently knock
But I’m unaware

What’s beyond my bedroom door?
What’s underneath
My bedroom floor?

I’ll always wonder
Forever more
Forever more
Forever more

I only asked you to consider
Giving me a chance
A solitary moment
For your love and romance
Your eyes tell me a story
With just a single glance
So again I ask you for your hand
To stand with me and dance

Your act is a ventriloquist
Your puppet mimics what you say
Except when you go silent
Leaving all in dismay
You practiced until perfection
You two became as one
No longer just a dummy
Doing it for fun

Sometimes I wish I’d close my eyes
And not open them again
Left alone to navigate
How my time remaining will be spent
My light burns dim
My outlook’s grim
I see no future up ahead
I write these words, with a heavy heart
Laid up in my bed
There is no force that’s driving me
To get up and take part
Of the world we’re living in
Just to share my works of art
I create to feel relief
To add color to the grey
I see and feel inside myself
Almost every single day
I see rainbows in my mind
But the outcome stays the same
They highlight the good that’s left
In the corners of my brain
Sometimes there’s a *** of gold
But often times there’s not
It doesn’t even interest me
What I have and haven’t got
So I guess I’ll keep producing art
Until the air I breathe runs dry
Maybe then, I’ll get the answer to
The age-old question, why?

Today is slipping away
Soon to become a distant memory
Tomorrow is just around the corner
And you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be

Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life
What are you going to do with it?
Waste it away?
Watch each minute pass?
As you lead me astray

Tongue and groove
Soft and smooth
Drugs demand
They be abused

Hanging on each word
Don’t want to be disturbed
Go away
I’m still unnerved

Stay off in the distance
Bitter and alone
Speak if It appeases you
As I dream of home sweet home

I have an uncle Drew
Who really is quite crude
Primitive in his ways
Always walking in the ****
He never seems to notice
He doesn’t seem to care
To have a little decency
And at least wear underwear
But that wouldn’t be my uncle
As he feels the need to share
He’s just a little out of his mind
But that’s neither here nor there

The pieces come together
Each piece forms a scene
The picture can be of anything
As a concept or a theme
But when there’s missing pieces
You may want to give up and quit
But you know that there’s no better feeling
Than when all the pieces fit

Freedom is a fallacy
We conjure in our minds
It’s the mask we wear for the unaware
That helps us live our daily lives
A mirage for the alien
Lying doormat in our skin
That’s been with us since we were born
And crucifies our sins
A departure from benevolence
The collective human race
That stands there at the finish line
Laughing in our face.

He had a voracious appetite
They were fearful for their lives
His gaping maw consumed their thoughts
Until they all broke out in hives
He had a mongrels disposition
A dog without a home
But all he really wanted
Was a place to put his bone

Many questions remain unanswered
Of what little still is known
About the theories and conspiracies
Of the house of wood and stone
What all did transpire there?
Were the stories heard, all true?
Could evil still be lurking by?
And could this happen to you?

Time in its essence
Is fleeting; unkind
For those that are aging
Until they wither and die
Constantly moving
Each orbit, each path
Until the end of existence
It’s both science, and math
All time will end
But no time too soon
Perhaps some day
We’ll all live on the moon

You violate my inner core
My heart beating
Wanting more
You hypnotize
With charm and grace
You call my name
Come face to face
Not a second
Goes to waste
Or you’ll get lost
Along the way
Back to where
Your heart belongs
Singing words
Disguised as songs

How a droplet ripples
Expanding throughout time
Every decade adds a layer
To our extended paradigm
Now seconds turn to minutes
Soon hours into days
Century upon century
Still remains the unexplained

A metamorphic mountain
A metamorphic climb
A subconscious effort
To help describe what’s inside
The motivation, determination
The inspiration, and drive
The mission, the focus
The goal which we strive
The purpose, the meaning
What we’re here for; alive
Will we know when we get there?
Will we know we’ve arrived?

He’d fallen into liquid
He was drowning in the deep
He went through every motion
Until he met defeat
He fell into a deep abyss
But somehow he came to
Breathing, lying on the beach
In his bathing suit
He wondered how we got there
Was he dreaming all along?
How could this have happened?
Something was all wrong
He’d fallen through a warm hole
And came out the other side
In a universe that’s parallel
He’s glad to be alive

Baring all for you to see
Underneath a shaded tree
I look at you
You look at me
There’s instant fire; chemistry
We ****** at the upmost peak
There are no words to say
No words to speak
Just fireworks
And the urge to keep
Every memory
From now
Until eternity

The sky opens up above me
I taste tears from way up high
The floodgates open wide enough
For me to take a dive
Sinking in the deep end
I take a gulp of air
Hold my breath and dip below
In hopes to reappear
Until I rise again
Suppressing all my fears
Safe again inside my home
Until the rain all disappears

Go in with guns blazing
No thought of retreat
Failure to surrender
Sour in defeat
No logic or intention
Otherwise unique
Just another way of saying
Think before you speak

Since he was young, he had a calling
To be a trumpet playing man
Tearing through the nightclub scene
Like he didn’t give a ****
He was stylish, he was smooth
You could say he had pizzazz
When on stage, he played the room
With his harmony and jazz
Something you could cut a rug to
Get on up and dance
Or take your lady by the hand
And whisper sweet romance
Little words of comfort
Something meaningful and kind
Then take her on the dance floor
And fill her up with wine
Feel the music at your feet
Boogie all the night
Dance until your hearts content
Or when the mood is right

I bare my soul
That I may leave my mark
Something maybe that I’ve written
Somehow lit a spark
Written word can be recalled
Reread and consumed
It gives us something to hold on to
To fight the doom and gloom
Writing releases
Inspires; inclines
First with our vision
Then with our minds

I ran the last scenario
Through the filter of my mind
Searched in every crevice
Unsure of what I’d find
Until I reached the breaking point
And built the great divide
Between my brain and a lonely heart
For the love I’d been deprived
I weighed out the pros and cons
Tried to keep an open mind
Until I had to make a choice
And swallow up my pride

She came to me by accident
At first, I stood and stared
To be the finder of a unicorn
A lovely all white mare
I wrangled her up with kindness
She didn’t seem too scared
Then, I shared her with the whole wide world
Or with anyone who cared

Immersed in soft red velvet
Sending shivers down my spine
The goosebumps, they are plenty
In a moment so divine
Brushed against my face, my torso, arms, and hands
Whenever wrapped in velvet
It tends to ruin daily plans

Footprints in the valley
Footprints in the snow
Following me, wherever I go
An exact match from heal to toe
Earth beneath my feet
Air, crisp and clean
And good to breathe
Sun, peeking through the trees
Snow, as far as the eye can see
Resting on top of mountains peak
So bright it seems to glow
Embracing nature as it is
It’s rhythm and it’s flow
Taking steps, one by one
To fertilize and grow
And to become the greatest me
The world has ever known

What can I give you?
What will you take?
Something with value?
Or a big slice of cake?
What can you offer?
What can we share?
Or do you not do that?
Do you not care?
Will you take it and keep it?
Or throw it away?
And where will you keep it?
In a big stack of hay?
That’s none of my business
You can do as you please
I’ll still say “God bless you”
After each sneeze

I say this with a heavy heart
Destruction tears our world apart
Every layer peeled straight back
Under duress, under attack
Burning buildings, burning cars
Cuts so deep, they turn to scars
But the wound is still too fresh
Heavy pounding in my chest
Figuring out how to deal
With an unwanted guest
That leaves behind a mess
With no time to digest
The guns and bombs
And the men at arms
While trying to stay calm
Between the sirens and alarms

The symbol of peace
An image of love
Flys with a purpose
About and above
A gentle sweet creature
When push comes to shove
Just admiring the beauty
Of a white feathered dove

We’re both positive and negative
We only rise to fall
For every action there’s a reaction
For every brick, a wall
We stake claim to our surroundings
The world on its axis; spins
Going round and round in circles
Until every loser wins

I listened when you spoke
To detect a little hope
That could be summarized in words
And could help me better
cope
But words are only fleeting
When you misconstrue their meaning
And the promises you made me
Could counteract my healing
That’s why actions speak much louder
And can be chopped up into powder
As fine as grains of sand
But don’t underestimate their power
So say less and do more
So my confidence will soar
And I can put my trust in you
Just like I did before

It was my normalized behavior
I was completely in control
I had a chance to falter
But I put back what I stole
I’ve lost my nerve to battle
To find perfection in my craft
And I’ve come to find out consequences
Can set you on a righteous path