The day you disappeared I happened to skip school I often wonder what it would have been like if I found out over the intercom at school and not through the phone calls in my bedroom i wonder what it would have sounded like I wonder how they said it I wonder how people in my home room would have reacted they were all freshman who probably didnt know you I wonder if it might have brought me closer to cry with others or if would have made me angry to see people to pretend to be sad for attention I think maybe it was better to be alone but I feel like I am always alone now more than ever All my friends that knew you are gone now they dont care about me anymore did they forget about you too after over a year the world keeps going unaffected by you or me but does anyone know how thoughts of you still hurt me does anyone know i still miss you more than anything does anyone know I still have nightmares does anyone know I still text you on twitter does anyone know I still cry when everyone is asleep does anyone know I am still angry at you does anyone know I still hate you for what you did does anyone know know that i still have dreams that feel so real that i forget your not alive and you feel so close to me but I wake up and i am scared and remember your so far away and i can never really talk to you about any of this. does anyone still do this too because I feel so alone. no one that I know now knows about you did I even know you how could I wake up one morning and you were just gone will I ever feel better
Don't cry baby your a masterpiece Don't cry baby just keep posing for me Don't cry baby or someone will see Don't cry baby just dream **** things Don't cry baby or you'll never get these keys Don't cry baby you will be safe with me Don't cry baby your my masterpiece
I have learned so many things this year with you, I learned my former heart breaks were something I had to do to understand how much I am in love with you.
I learned that all my troubles in life were to show me how good life really is you taught me how beautiful life could be
I learned that the world looks so much better through your tinted windows the sunset in the summer looks so much better in shades of purple the sun is so much more comfortable the river is much more calm and our love is much more private
I love the way the world looks through your tinted windows
I think my favorite thing About life The most beautiful thing Is being intertwined with you To lay my head on your chest To listen To your heart beat To feel your fingers dance along my back and hips To feel your strong Overworked hands on my shoulder To feel you squeeze me And when I look up at you Your so focused And innocent looking And beautiful God your so beautiful In every single way In your arms Is where I wish to stay