something strange happens in my head
a worm that digs thought deep
deeper, twisted thoughts that I dread
I live for all of your faces
the ones that only I see
then I imagine all your faces
for a girl other than me
and I want to apologize
for this and for that
my mind is toxic, the worm is sick and
I know you love me
I know it's true
but I want to apologize
for being the one who tied you

A feeling of failure fell over her shoulders as the medicine went down. It went away as quickly as it came when all that needed to matter didn't need to matter

          right away

Ignorance is bliss for those who don't see, and if they saw

what a dissapointing sight that would be
          Unapologetic
                   As long as no one was around

          Pathetic
                    Let the medicine go down.

A feeling of failure fell over her shoulders as she saw her future like
steps
below her
feet
One by one          Your day will come          Just follow your dreams

Dreams of success so sweet
                       "the day will come for me"
Her body like fluff in the chair

Then a familiar comfort of mindless bliss caressed her everything

E a s y

          So she didn't need to care

You said my eyes were blue pearls
You hated seeing them cry
So often I needed to leave
And you always needed to try

You loved that I was the only one
Who would never leave your side
And I truly thought you'd love me
Wasting time with hazy minds

What a sad story
If you never found the worth that is
Inside of you
I see it inside
Everything that you do
And what a discouraging story
Of an honest soul who never saw it too

The pieces left one day
And I became a shell
Hallowed and cleaned

Then they all ran
They all ran from me
Saying it was me who fled

I still have my blood
I still have my hair
Maybe my eyes are a little more dead

Maybe my thoughts are more somber
Maybe my heart holds more anger
Maybe I am simply getting older

Maybe they can't relate

But to be afraid of the truth
What a pathetically sad way to be
As I mope in the comforting cloud of self pity

Change made me different
But change did not set me free

And everyone knew it
Everyone
Except for me

something strange happens in my head
a worm that digs thoughts deep
deeper, twisted thoughts that I dread
I live for all of your faces
the ones that only I see
then I imagine all your faces
for a girl other than me
and I want to apologize
for this and for that
my mind is toxic, the worm is sick and
I know you love me
I know it's true
but I want to apologize
for being the one who tied you

Time does not bring back excitement
Time does not bring back chills
It falls through our hands like running water
Running, flying through the seconds and days
spent with you

I would rip off my skin and patch you with it
You would claw at the stresses that come my way
But time will show us the ugly details
The print we did not read before we signed

I could turn myself into a monster
Thinking about all the things I know you like
I would tape and cut all my flaws
So I would not be such a strain, to you and myself, my love

Time has made your face too familiar
It drained me of all the reasons I once held so dear
And you swim in my mind every place that I go  
Will I ever wring myself clean of you

And you say it is fine as if those words change my mind
And they do every time because I never follow through

Time heals and time changes
And love is something that pushes, pulls
on our insides
Time hurts and time brings new
And love is the chain that keeps me from
walking away from you

And we have dug this hole
We have dragged ourselves all the way down
We have fallen, we have bones broken
And all that's left to do is to stare at each other
Into black hole eyes