I've never felt more alone

Than when I sat across from you

And knew you would rather be

Somewhere else

Roses are red
This life may be a lie
But I'll tell you a truth
Promise you won't cry
Existence is pain
And full of grief
It's not very long
In fact it's brief
But in this life
There's a reason to live
For the unending pain
Is deceptive
For end it does
When love is found
When two souls become one
Forever bound

It's funny how words
Can express so much

I want to die

The first, and happiest,
Sentence to change my life
Was
I love you too

It hurts so much

The second sentence,
On the best day of my life,
Was
Yes I'll marry you

I'm sorry. . . so sorry

The third, on the day
My world fell apart,
Was
I. . . I have cancer

But I just can't

The last was on the day
My heart died
She suffered so much
Braver than me
Brave almost all the time  
Almost. . .

*I want to die

It's getting late and I'm feeling
tired
And when I'm tired I feel...
Weird
Things just pop into my
mind
Like calling up your
phone
And farting into it

I'm in love with you
And I'm pretty sure you like me too
But. . .
Even I know the timing is wrong
So I call you friend and hope
For the day when we can be *more

The poems I write
Have changed for me
I used to worry
Over whether
People liked them
Or not
But now...
They have become my solace
They are where
I vent my soul

When I feel happy
I write
When I feel sad
I write
When I am exhausted
I write
When I am ecstatic
I write
Every day
I write
Poetry