I'm interested
to see who actually knows:
**What is going on?

Woke up five days ago,
Steel pressers on my lungs,
Coughing up blood...

Work is a no go,
But not a
"No Call, No Show"

"Walt I'm going to the ER,
I can't make it in,
I'm sorry."

He understood,
and I got Bear to drive
me to the hospital.

Feeling nervous,
but in a sense
like I'm over-reacting.

Then two IV's in my arm
a few oxygen tests,
and some x-rays of my chest.

"Pneumonia.....
and you developed asthma
through cigarette smoking."

At twenty years old,
I had the lungs of
a forty year old.

I've been praying for
a reason to quit.
Wow... I'm amazed....

*God sure does work in mysterious ways.

I miss you so much
Your stare, your touch
We weren't ready for love
But we knew what it was
We had different views
On every bit of news
Though we were distracted
Opposites surely attracted

I loved your unique style
Your eyes, your smile
Underneath the make-up
And through the fake stuff
I could see innocence
Behind your ignorance
I loved you, and I know
Emotion you won't show

My mind's second guess
Gave my heart less
And I hear your voice
Through my stupid choice
I was told this is my first
But the pain was the worst
We had to break-up, but still
I adore you, and I always will

I still believe, even though
plenty of people don't
I still praise your name
though so many won't

I confuse you for the
image we gave you
and also that people
give you names too

I love you though
and I still believe
because of the answers
my prayers receive

I will not fear evil
for the truth is brave
I know that because of you
I have been saved

I've been getting quite some praise
from my managers
in the past forty five days.
I've been offered a promotion
after five years
when I wanted to part ways.

So I thought, I don't have much
going on right now
except work and writing.
I picked work for the past ten days
and again the voices
kept on fighting.

"Now you have to choose,
Work or Play?"
whispered the guy I fear.
"Why not let work fuel your passion
Do both!"
Said the voice I keep near.