James Ellis

James Ellis Jul 2012

The only thing I know
for certain is I'm alive.
And as long as I am
I will continue to strive.
Simply because, the ones
I love are also confused.
The world is a dark place
with those who are abused.
But our lights can take us
so far to a place of serenity.
That feeling is like a drug
that is the purest ecstasy.
I'll continue for you, I
and those I haven't met.
So keep your heads high
and don't fret or regret.
The glory exists down
a long road that is dark.
However God will guide you
if you follow your heart...

James Ellis Jul 2012

Minds Inside of Notebooks

My emotional canvas-
a beautiful collage
of words, uncensored,
that tear through
the borders of disguise.

The masks are off
and the costumes
have been put away
since that day
I looked into the skies.

I've created a getaway-
this place is close
but takes the mind
on a tiring journey
through dark and light.

My emotional canvas
is always truthful
when at this getaway
and though it may hurt,
I'll always love to write.

James Ellis Jul 2012

"I Used to Love H.E.R." (10w)

I used to love Hearing Every Rhyme, but not anymore...

This is dedicated to Hip-Hop and the man who first said this, Common Sense.

James Ellis Jul 2012

Pandora Saves the Boy

Rummaging through boxes,
seeking truth in a large house
a young boy is in panic.

The house's gloomy basement
only brings our boy fear
sending him up to the attic.

Beyond the dust clouds
he sees a very small box
and hesitates to open.

A quick prayer is hummed
as he turns the top *****
of a box that is broken.

Opening his eyes
he sees an empty inside
and wonders how to cope.

The sight of emptiness
blesses the boy with joy
for he is rewarded with hope.

James Ellis Jul 2012

Seek and Find (Dream #1)

A search for self-
What will I find?
Things that help-
My heart and mind.

My heart brings joy,
But sometimes pain.
I see me as a boy,
And start feeling sane.

My mind brings reason,
But sometimes confusion.
I change like seasons,
Creating an illusion.

Do I believe the uncertain,
Or trust only what I see?
I have found a curtain,
And behind it was me...

This is a recent dream I've had. I've had it more than once so I figure it's important. Although dreams can be very vague, I'm going to start writing these reflections of my dreams in the form of poetry. I have found that it helps me understand the meaning of each dream a lot more. Enjoy!

James Ellis Jun 2012

Return

I died a little only to come back stronger
Now my heart beats faster and longer
I'll live for today, and ignore tomorrow
Live with serenity instead of sorrow

The most glorious feeling of this return
is that fact that I no longer feel this burn
The burn of emotions that I used to hide
I let them flow naturally with each stride

Poetry very well might have saved my life
It replaced all the drugs, violence, and strife
Keeping me focused and on the right track
Hello Poetry, I'm pleased to say, "I'm back!"

I took a few weeks off from writing to look back at the changes and progress I've made.
It was hard but it helped me ventilate a lot of the poison that was still lingering in my head.
I really want to thank all of you for your encouragement, motivation and inspiration.
I've accepted this community as a new family, and I love you all! Thank you! =)

Love,
Jimmy Ellis

James Ellis Jun 2012

Listening to My Heart

I think about my life
and how this all started
Think about drinking and
smoking in my apartment
Think about reading and
writing but I'm in darkness
**** thinking, I did it
I just listened to what my heart said,*

"Be all you can Jimmy
and what you need
will ultimately be
what you really want.
You can shine, Jimmy
Put away the greed
Don't deceive, just believe
and encourage the love.
Continue to enlighten,
challenge, and question.
This is something special
within you that's so respected.
And as times grow harder
and begin moving faster
I'm here to harbor you
during that disaster
What really matters,
well that's up to you
You had a dream my child
Now let's make it come true!"