It seems like practically my whole
Life has been just one big nightmare
I have made choices that weren't
Very good. They were almost my demise.
It started when I was a teenager
Thinking I knew better but knew nothing
Even up till today I keep doing it
Sabotaging everything good in my life
Or not making the proper decision
Choosing something that will keep me stuck
Or not choosing something that will help
Me to move forward. I want so badly
to finally come to realize who I am
But even at this age I feel stagnic
The face in the mirror looks flawed
That there is no wisdom behind it
Just confusion
Demons buried deep down
That don't want to see the light of day
Where do I go from here
The mask is so clearly seen
And I don't know what to do about that
I want to step ashore a free man
See the world aknew
But society wants to keep me shackled
To my problems
They want me to fail
Cause then things would make sense to them
But I want to break free from these chains
Find out who I truly am
And what I like and don't like
Find out my values
I've been buried for too long
Walking this planet in a haze
I want to finally break free

Fools come and go
Like myself if you had to know
I rush in to most of anything
And then I feel the sting
The burning sensation in my mind
Wondering if there is still yet time
I have wasted my ******* life
Chasing after things that don't matter
I want to do what is right
But tend to do the opposite
I fall to my knees
And ask God why
There is no reply
Just the beating of my heart
Waiting for the truth to shine

You have a right to your opinion
That's what being free
But I also can say *******
Get a ******* life
And leave me ******* be

I am fighting for my very life
It's a journey that has been brought upon by myself
Years and years of tormenting myself with alcohol and drugs
Have warped my mind into an endless obsession
That only a spiritual experience can relieve
Not to mention my mind has a chemical imbalance
It's been that way since I can remember
Days go by in which are a struggle
Finding the courage to make it through one
Can be a challenge within itself
Am I looking for sympathy?
Am I looking for pity?
No

Just letting my feelings out
It's good therapy

Crazy
I feel it in my bones
Hazy
My eyesight is alone
Forever an ignorant man
Not much do I know
Hard to understand
Backward emotions are a show
Kicking the habit
What the hell was I addictive to?
Oh, the alcohol was it
My whole world was taken away

Love is the knowing
All things fade away
Time explores many avenues
As a result bliss
Returning to truth
And heaven bound
The light ever so slightly shines
Becoming dim no more

When the time comes,
Will I be a grown up man,
Melding with the stream of life,
Or will I take cover
And hide like I always do?
Will I give back
What was so freely given to me,
Or will I grab a hold of the prize
And never let go of it?
I don't want to be that
Selfish man anymore,
Where all I care about is more,
And how I can get you to like me.
It isn't easy to give up on that,
I work at it everyday.
The more honest I am,
The better I feel.
I don't want to lay my head down
At night and think to myself I wasn't
Much of a human being today,
That I could of been kinder
And gentler to other people
Who are struggling with how
To do better too.
In the end,
Our hearts all be the same.