james arthur powell

james arthur powell May 2016

Down on myself
I need an uplift
Something to make me smile
Something to make me feel good

I've been going through a depression
Not eating anything
Everything looks bleaks
The sky is hazy
And I've been feeling weak

Is there anything to save me
Come on, just one ******* thing
I can't live like this another day
I'm going straight out of my mind
Nothing seem right anymore
And I'm curling up in a ball once again

I have a choice in the matter
I can be as glum as I want to be
Or I can look at the positive things in my life
They're out there
I have hope
Haven't lost that

I wake up and there is sunshine
I take a breath and air seeps through my lungs
I stand up to make a *** of coffee
realizing I have a roof over my head
And I'm able to walk
Make that coffee
Have coffee

I step outside and feel the warmth
I see the sunshine
And hear the birds chirping
I can hear
I can see
And things don't look half bad

I see the cars passing by
The hustle and bustle of everyday life
People walking their dogs
Or just walking
I see the day turn into night
The stars are a blanket in the sky
I hear dogs barking in the distance
I see a shooting star
I make a wish
Realizing things aren't half bad

james arthur powell May 2016

Lost In The Jungle Of Life

Hell is like a pit
A bottomless pit
No where to hit bottom
Losing all senses
Going under
Going down
Feel the air
As you fall from grace
And your eyeballs pop from your sockets

james arthur powell May 2016

Treasure

Sending out a prayer to the Universe
Hoping my friend will survive cancer
He had it once before and beat it
Now it returns in full force
And wants to **** him
He's going through treatment
Very weak in his battle against it
I pray he won't give up
For he has been a treasure in my life
And in the lives of others
I pray this prayer find it's way
To the right force and cures his ails

james arthur powell May 2016

The Remains Of The Universe

I awaken to a brand new day
May the universe hold true
And find it's way to my heart
I'm mostly an arrogant *******
No humility within my soul
I take so much for granted
And it's hard to let go
I find the wrong in situations
Not looking for beauty
And my mind is so negative
May the universe find it's sway
Help me to get through this day
And I will surely do my part
What that consists of only heaven knows
But if I look to the universe
Surely things will get better

james arthur powell Apr 2016

Sick Of It All!

Down and out
Feelings of loneliness
Flying high on the wings of despair
Can't seem to live a peaceful life
Everyone wants to **** with me
Who knows what tomorrow will bring
Maybe I'll burn the whole ******* down
Cause what comes around goes around
I'm ******* sick of it all
Want a better way of doing things
But you got me tied against the wall
And there isn't a point in smiling
Nothing to smile about here
I just have a no energy left anymore
Nothing to be sincere
I'll just close this ******* door
And find a way to disappear

james arthur powell Apr 2016

Let The Darkness Go

It's hard enough to live
Without jumping from this bridge
Call it an original sin
One that can't be taken away
But sometimes the thought crosses my mind
And I wish for the ******* end
Though I know I have a purpose
Or I wouldn't still be here
I have tried to commit the act
Through other ways
But I have survived only by God's grace
Why I'm not really certain
I guess I'm not too much of a loser
And just have got lucky in that respect
There is a wall I have built
That a certain amount of people get in
Maybe I should open up this wall some more
And let a variety of people get to know me
That is if they would want to
And if not that's okay too
I won't try to judge this go around
I hope I won't get judged back
But if so that's okay too
I'm still just a freak
Freaking out half the time
I just don't want to lose my life
For stupidity anymore
It's better to let the darkness go

james arthur powell Apr 2016

Hold Back

I can't do this on my own
I need someone in my life
To tell me everything is going to be okay
To tell me everything will be alright
I have searched the world for true love
Came up empty with all of my attempts
No one wants a guy like me
I'm really hard to take at times
With all of my shortcomings
My selfishness and the like
But I'm loyal to the end
And have a big heart
My friend

Is there anyone out there
Who can change a guy like me?
I'm willing for the sacrifice
To do away with what I need
Is it all just a dream waiting to unfold
To came into form with all of it's merits?
I seem to only find the crazy ones
The ones who aren't good for me
My heart can only take so much
Than it's off to the void
To hold back the love I can give away