My thoughts are fleeting
So much to think about
Why I die again over you

It's beyond me to come up
With an answer to the riddle
And to hope everything
Becomes whole again

To fall backwards
Catching a glimpse
Of a life brand new
Only to come up empty
In the long run
Has plagued my heart

It hurts to think I must
Leave this place and
Find myself without you

It seems to me how ridiculous people are,
they try so very hard to bring me down.
I don't know if they mean well,
or they just do it out of spite.

They talk how much they care,
but they won't lift a finger to help me get around.
Today I'm over their *******, I wish them to hell;
not one soul can save them, not even Christ.

They're the kind of people only a switchblade
looks pretty good, and the decision just to decide.

Slash them, cut them, make them feel pain.
It's all neccessary, make them bleed out like rain.

What is the alternative, not a ******* thing?
I've just gone crazy here, gone ******* insane-

Make them bleed out like ******* rain!

I cry for ******* balance
but all I get in return is ******* chaos.
Nothing neat and tidy,
just trying to survive the storm.
I look around at the world
and find no solace in anything,
everyone is in too much of a hurry
and it drives me ******* crazy.

The times are very hard
I try to press onward but
Don't get very far
The days are long and weary
So many anvenues blocked
And my eyes are very teary
I cry because of the pain
It seems like it won't go away
I search out for an answer
Like it ever had the key
So lonely inside and
Heartbroken that I wish
Someone would come
And rescue me

I want to scream
everything is falling to pieces
The world weighs on me
And half the battle is never over
Never will be

Someone ruscue my tortured heart
It's been falling apart
For years I have ran away
And nothing saves me today
I'm still hurting from the pain
It won't subside
I look in the mirror
And want to cry
Smash it with my fist
Cause I'm the only one
On my **** list

Why do I feel the way I do
All I have ever asked for is some peace
But nothing seems like it does the trick
No distraction for this cracked up heart of mine
All has been chaos in my life
Years of hitting my knees
Praying for the heavens to ignite a fire within me
But all I see is the devil chasing after what I believe
The temptation is too strong and I fall to pieces

The nighttime is such a lonely place to be
Inside this crazy mind of mine
Searching for the answers but coming up empty
I want to scream and shout
I'll never know what life is all about
I have so many doubts
Why I feel the way I do
Not knowing if I ever knew
What was true
Can't you see
It's written on my face
This ****** life puts me in place

And I tried giving you my love

But all you wanted was my

Money

Poor little old me
Can't anyone see
That I am unique
And differently
If I only had a glass
Filled it up with wine
I would be a winey ***
****** up in my own mind
It ain't politically correct
To think more of one self
But I do it all the time
Not very humble
I say ***** being humble
I'm just trying to live life
If that means I'm not asking
You for help then don't get mad
I've taken hard knocks to
Learn that I'm just bad
I've buried my emotions
Deep down in my soul
Not to let you see all the commotion
And to think you know me
Is hard to believe
I'm just ******* human
Can't anyone see
...that...
Human
Not unique
To think beyond that point
Is beyond me
I bleed
Smoked a joint or two
Drank to oblivion
On more than one occasion
And now you want to control
My life
I don't ******* think so
I've made many mistakes
I'll make many more
But the one mistake I won't make
Is to give you reign over me