You think you're making friends
You're making failure
Follow trends
Just like a sailor
That will end up in a ditch, a rut
Or just a ****
But coke you'll never have enough

An attitude alludes
That you are better and you choose
What we will do
And what's yours too
If you can see it
You can't stop it.

I dream of rigged lacrosse matches
won in 4th quarter
overtime

of chess games won with en passant
(what exactly is that?)
of horses falling at the first hurdle.

I dream of Martian landscapes
through sand-dunes of heartache
because as a child, at McDonalds
I was never allowed a milk shake,

while in my waking hours I have
absolved a multitude of sins for
lapsed nuns, ringmasters and troubadours.

I have filmed riots,
marathons and abortions.

I have seen things
pickled in jars
holding open heavy doors.

I have tried,
like an idiot
to commit all this to
memory.

Days are best with rain
and when you aren't around,
I prefer a storm

The storm will keep me
in good company instead
also more coffee

You treat ***
Like a pack of cigs
Get your fix
Off to the streets.

Pack a day
Pack to many.
Ash away
Keep puffing.

Don't waste a second
Lying awake
Without that sweet sensation
Of nicotine between your legs.

Sore throat?
You light another
I warned you
Why'd I bother?

Burned out
Cashed out
Smoked out
*****.

You'll never learn
Until life gets to far.

I am no ***
I am not to work hard
Or to tire by strenuous activity
Nor am I an English school boy who acts as a servant to an older school boy
Nor am I a Cigarette

I am no ******
I am not a Bundle
Nor am I a bundle of pieces of wrought iron to be shaped by rolling or hammering at a high temperature
Nor am I a Bundle of sticks

I am no FAIRY
I am not a mythical being of folklore and romance usually having human form and magic powers

I am no FRUIT
Do I look edible? Do I give off a citrus aroma?
Nor am I a product of plant growth
Nor am I FRUITY
I am not relating to, made with, or resembling fruit

I am no Queer
I am not worthless, counterfeit
Nor am I Questionable, suspicious
Neither am I mildly insane
Nor To spoil the effect or success of

What I am is a homosexual
What I am is a male who likes other males
What I am is just another Human being who happens to be **Gay