I cant pretend to know what others go through,
I know others have it a lot worse than I do,
But I also know that others are better,
Full of emotion .

I've stopped being sad,
I don't remember the last time I actually felt something.
I'm only ever numb,
Like there's a void in my soul.

I see happy people,
Sad people,
Angry and confused,
And I just wish I could feel a tinge of any emotion.

Some people say that there's noting worse
than going to bed mad.
But little do they know,
Going to sleep numb is the worst.

When a person goes to bed mad,
They have the opportunity to wake up happy;
But if you go to bed numb,
You'll still be that way when you wake.

I'd rather feel something,
Than feel nothing at all.
At least when you're sad
You know you're not dead.

We had a few beers, and then a few more...
The empty box flattened on the floor,
read something like twenty-four.

We danced to made up melodies...
A pair of socks and two bare feet,
shuffled around aimlessly.

"Look at the stars!" you said, staring at the ceiling...
All I saw were cracks and paint peeling,
but I found it was worth believing.

sunrise.. old sun.. new day.. there are new days everywhere. . if you do wish to return I promise you this.. I will make one day our day.. I will name the day after you. just to have it once.. spend it with you.. because having it once will be forever to me.. and I choose forever to be named after you..

I can be having a bad day.. Where nothing seems right at all.. Where Bad luck puts all its weight on my chest.. Sometimes it seems like I can't get up at all.. But what I find amazing is how all of it fades away in an instant..

It happened when I was walking down the hall and she smiled at me.. Just a smile.. LOL, wow just a smile.. Your smile melted all of that away.. That smile lit up every star in my galaxy.. Although for a moment, your smile seem to light my hope..

And so the day became better. Stuff broke down, got a flat tire, but the thought of your smile makes all that seem like hurdles for me to jump over.. And nothing more. No more naming things like that bad luck..

That alone feeling..
Comes and goes..
You feel it in the depths of your beating heart..
Everyone is here and your alone.
It does not last long..
But it truly is there..
Its as if emotions felt throughout life resurface from time to time when not used..
I suppose my happiness is the reason for such a forgotten feeling..
The loneliness just misses being felt..
And so it comes and goes with me..
I feel alone among everyone around me..
Sad gray man in a gray painting..
But then the colors return..
And I bid loneliness farewell..
The gift of loneliness today was this poem you read..
I am fine again..
(Time felt alone today.. 5:51 seconds.. )

I ride around my small little town..
I see myself riding my bike down those streets and sidewalks..
Memories run back to me on this little drive of mine..
Seems so very long ago..
Playing football at the park..
Racing down those hills..

I drive around my small little town..
Things have changed..
Even the days themselves..
Sometimes the nights look like they did when I was young..
I get a glimspe of magic from a star..
Summer loves fade..

I ride around my small little town..
My memories sing to me ..
To remember is a gift..
A gift you can always give yourself..
And you will never be disappointed..
So go take a ride..