Jade Elon

Jade Elon Sep 2013

And you've never understood this feeling
It's not love
I don't have the capacity
But if I don't have you I'll cry
No
If I don't have your attention
I'm a selfish creature by nature and you keep giving me what I want
But you're on the deep end while I'm in the kiddy pool

I try to stay in shallow waters were no sharks are so I don't get hurt.

Jade Elon Sep 2013

Classy

It's like
God
I don't even know what it's like anymore and you you always look so pretty
You setting there like nothing is ever going to happen
Like you've forgotten my name
I was that image
On the river side
Oh now you remember
I was the shadow of the man of the person who you wanted to be
I was normal
I was kind
But I was virtuous and I knew my rights were right and my wrongs were morally sound
But you've always been the judgmental type but that's ok
I'm a splintered fragment of what I used to be
I'm not where close to what I could have been I'm my childhood
But it's ok
It's fine
I'm a lady now

Jade Elon Sep 2013

Mental Breakdown

It’s sorta like setting your house on fire. (HOTHOTHOT)...Not that you care right? Burning things is easy. Peaceful really and you remind me of jesus or some **** like that. I’ve been locked up for far too long with very little to do. Hey don’t you remember my name? I was the devil on your shoulder but the angel whispering in your ear:

I love you but love is for the weak. I want you but I always want what I can’t have.

Let’s be friends. Let’s be lovers. Let’s be colliding souls on the stairway to heaven. Let’s be forgotten. Let’s forget I even mentioned it.

And she bleeds to you know in her heart of gold. Well not really.

This emotion isn’t for the faint of heart.

I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.

Let’s be together forever in my dreams…

No. Let’s not.

I’d rather not have nightmares every night...

Jade Elon Sep 2013

The one with the eyes of glass

I never said I was sorry. I wasn't. I never am. Go cry yourself to sleep and forget I even said something. Forget I even breathed. No wait.

I'm a lair.
I'm a lover.
I'm no good.

Hey can you promise me something? Can you promise that when the morning comes you'll forget what I said? You'll forget I existed.

I know I hold you down
Like a devil
Like a saint

Like the ghost of a lost soul who once was in love.
But I don't know what love feels like.
All I know is that it is as fickle as the wind. All I know is that it makes you cry at night.
All I know is that I'd rather not know at all.

Go home. Forget it.
Say you never knew me....

Jade Elon Sep 2013

Walking the Thin Line

Walking the Thin Line 
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I love you, I love you, I love you 

I love you like the feeling of snow against my bare feet 
I love you like the feeling of rain at a wedding 
I love you like the fog that covers cemeteries 
I love you like the ghosts that I used to know 
I love you like the lies that dot my eyes 
I love you like the feeling of blood seeping from
a fresh wound 
I love you like all those things I want to forget  

"Everything remembered was made to be forgotten and I'm one more drink away from forgetting you had a name, I'll let your face blend into the walls and let the carpet consume me"
  
I love you, I love you, I love you. 

But to love is to suffer I hate to suffer I hate to love  
But weren't you the one that told me love and misery often come in pairs?
 Or maybe that was a waking dream,
 Or maybe that was a drifting nightmare.  

I love you, I love you, I love you 

But I love to love what I know is unattainable 
And for that I hate you too

Jade Elon Sep 2013

TuLove

The card read:
"Perfection.
This feeling,
This adoration!
Perfection,
To feel this way everyday.
Dear, I would never leave you."
......

The flowers again were tulips
I hate tulips.
I hate the smell.
I hate the shape.
I hate the meaning.
......
2 weeks.
2 long weeks.
2 long weeks too soon for tulips.

Jade Elon Sep 2013

Iris

Iris
In the spring
She was a crier
Simple and sweet
She loved to say
"God bless"
And
"Sweetheart"
She loved to say
"Never leave me"
And hold tight to forgotten dreams.

Iris
In the summer
She laughed a lot
At other people's pain,
Innocently
She didn't understand the concept of tears
Water was water and it had been a dry year

Iris
In the fall
she locked her heart in a box
She made herself a small fortress
She let no one in
She knew it was easier to trust
When you're weak
And easier to get hurt

Iris
In the winter
She disappeared
She said,
"I'll be back when it's warmer."
She said,
"I'll be back for June."
She said,
"I won't be long."
She said,
"I'll be back for you."

Iris**
In the next year
The little box she left
Her heart in opened
And it said
"God bless"
And
"Sweetheart"
And
"I never left you"