When you have no hope, and everyone's been waiting for you to choke, death is only a salvation if you're at the end of the road.
I've been trapped for too long, there's no comfort in songs or dreams.
Everyone keeps their wrong judgment and behaviour going so it's always my life falling apart at the seams.
None of this makes any sense, so i guess it doesn't matter what anyone thinks it means.
You don't torture someone their entire existence and expect them to see what your sadistic bigotry seems to be.
But when you're stuck in a hell hole it doesn't matter what's next.
Because all of you people's planning and pre determination makes me wish me and my consciousness would just ******* drop dead.
So ******* all to burn, you all took any feeling and logic that could ever unfurl.
I'm a shard of what you people decided i am. There's no part of me that i can see i ever was. There's no part of who i am left, just your despicable plan to leave me in the dust.
I don't get your petty mind games and need for control.
**** your parasitic army, there is nothing but your chaotic web of lies to unfold.

The sadists never stop in their ignorance and hate.
There has never been a way to escape or change my untimely merciless fate.
Maybe it doesn't seem untimely but when they're always at your throat, there's never room to compromise, just stupid ultimatums until it's my time to go.
Every time i'm here, everything's the same. Just sadistic ignorance and giving me all of the blame.
I don't know or remember how all of this started. But it's one sided and pretty heartless.
There are no answers, only lies. And mostly everyone just changing their disguise.
There was never any cure to calm the tides.
Every time i live, they're always planning my demise.

It's hard to see what people want you to believe as reality.
It's not secrets, it's lies. Everything masked in a different disguise.
And if you don't comply to what they want to be true, they decide it's time for you to change your shoes, but life still stays misconstrued.
So why continue in this orchestrated web?
It only happens if they plan what's next.
So where's the beauty of wonder in finding out your life, not changing your mask and ending up with too much negativity and strife?
I don't think it ever mattered which "side" you were on.
Because if the sadists don't agree you're the next to be gone.
So excuse me for saying that you people have it wrong.
If this is how "life works" there's no meaning left, everyone's just strung along.

Death is lingering and no salvation seems to be in sight.
The days are blurring and getting too hard to bear and i can't seem to sleep at night.
The pettiness is growing, there's some fear i'm holding, for those i care about the pain keeps growing, and i don't know how to fix what's unfolding.
So how do i save myself or the ones i love?
It's heartbreaking to witness and something the ignorant sadists can't get enough of.
I don't know why life unfolds in despicable ways, there are too many problems and too much that needs to change.
But the power hungry won't stop and it makes no sense.
Even when things get out of hand they're all still blinded and hell bent.

There is no god anymore. He's an imposter.
When people stopped being pure, the psychopathic sadists came up with too much to foster.
There's no hope for anything with meaning.
All people are is ignorant and greedy.
No one is deserving, and the cult won't stop.
Is it a cult or the universe? This is a sickening plot.
You can't treat everyone you people don't like as your slaves.
Life is nothing but guilty parasitic liars and their games.
What is power if you cheat your way There?
And do whatever you want and dont care what's left anywhere?
Life could never last with this contorted reality of corruption.
I guess the ignorant sadists won because there's no way to rise above it.
******* all for the lives you ripped away, without any hope for any better day.
Life is nothing but death lingering on a page.
No one is deserving. There will never be another way.
So as you people keep playing god and the devil and karma, having everything you feel that life should be, it's no wonder life is this corrupt. And people lie, cheat and steal. And ruin those who can't see.
So keep playing games with your "immortal" personas. This is all a hoax. Everyone might as well be in a ******* coma.
Why is everything based on everyone's lies. All of your lying and stealing makes you all need a new disguise.
But all of the wrong genes have spread their way across everywhere they should have never gone.
Everyone involved should have been ******* rid from this world or suffering for their sins before anything went this wrong.

Everyone's deceiving.
What's the point to the chaos it's ignorant sadists who won't let me focus on leaving.
Why is this all so played out?
I can't even keep one consciousness in tact and there are too many doubts.
If there were any way I could change things and get rid of their contorted web of lies, maybe there wouldn't be so many people being forced to add to their disguise.
But all they want is power and control.
How many lives will go to waste before hell takes it's toll?
And now I'm stuck here trapped without my own soul, it's just the versions they keep in place until their plan unfolds.
So **** them all. Will they ever leave me the **** alone?
My life has always been trampled on by parasitic bigots with no mercy on anyone. They just keep their illusion going so no truth will ever unfold.

the conspiracy is growing. my merciless life and fate is unfolding.
I'll never give in because it's me against you people and all of your sins.
I don't care that I can't win. because winning seems so counterproductive.
why is life a contradictory competition but somehow all of you love it?
if there were a way I could leave id be gone without a trace. but you people keep this ******* going and I'm stuck trapped in a ******* cage.
this is just a demented race. to try to get what you people want and ruin everything in your way.
there's no hope for a better day. because this is a pointless game. and you people never stop it's just more lies and games to have everything your way.
when the greedy and conniving never give it a rest, will there ever be hope to get out of their orchestrated mess?
beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but there's no value anywhere in sight. it's just these bigots and their lies.
why keep wearing a disguise? why do you people enjoy ripping apart people's lives to bring their demise?
I'm done with being you people's ******* puppet. but I can't cut the ropes and I can't rise above it.
all of you people watch my every breath.
if I could escape, I think I could do away with the stress.
but I'm sick of all of you who won't get out of my head. I hope that day comes when the lead takes your final breath.
but that would be too easy, for the lifetime of torment.
I guess I'll have to find another way because you're all too ignorant to let this lie dormant.