Sit and be still
Close your eyes and forget
Think of something happy
It hasn’t even begun yet.

Then a ***** and its in
A drip drop and its started
Try and be nice, the
Nurses aren’t cold-hearted.

Open your book
Please try and get away
Cause these drugs will take hold
They affect you everyday.

Don’t worry about the future
Forget about tomorrow
I am with you right now
Through all of this sorrow.

This is my dream
This should have occurred
I should have been there
Before our connection was blurred.

Not free.
Shut down and broken.
But it beats on, strong.
In me it lies,
but it does not belong to me.
Still it beats on, strong.
I fall.
Hurt and alone.
But it beats on, strong.
Providing me strength,
pushing me forward even when I resist.
Keep beating strong,
with time we will move on.

i'm terrified of seeing you again.

and it's very different because it only ever brought me joy

because i would see the happiness and joy in your eyes


and i'm terrified that i'll just see hatred
towards me


for hurting you
but i would deserve it.


and you deserve to be happy. i wish i could
erase all the pain that you are feeling

and hold you again


but i can't

because i chose to let you go.

this loneliness is so difficult


and i miss you.



but being strong for yourself is better than being weak for someone else.

Out there,
nature plays;
the wind blows,
the tree grows,
free.
Concentration,
civilization,
obligation
seem trivial.
The only purpose
is continued existence
to thrive
from its
divine
creation.

I visited the place where we last met.
Nothing was changed, the gardens were well-tended,
The fountains sprayed their usual steady jet;
There was no sign that anything had ended
And nothing to instruct me to forget.

The thoughtless birds that shook out of the trees,
Singing an ecstasy I could not share,
Played cunning in my thoughts. Surely in these
Pleasures there could not be a pain to bear
Or any discord shake the level breeze.

It was because the place was just the same
That made your absence seem a savage force,
For under all the gentleness there came
An earthquake tremor: Fountain, birds and grass
Were shaken by my thinking of your name.