I sit in pain
As my mind starts to collapse
Trembling fingers
On the verge of a relapse
Stuck thinking about my evil past
And so many people
Say there here
But I'm alone
Not physically but mentally
I'm unstable
I'm unable
To wear this smile anymore
I'm wondering the point of change
When my soul and mind stay the same
And to be honest
I'm the one to blame
Because after all it was my actions that made my life go aflame
And as I remember I feel intense shame
But nothing compares to my severe pain
I can feel the throb deep in my brain
The voice screaming saying I'm insane

So I cry and I scream
And I beg and I plead
But my mind
It still bleeds
And my heart
It still needs
And my soul
Fights this disease
But how long am I alone
Do I fight
Or just go
Am I loved
Or despised
Am I a hero
In your eyes
Or a *******
Or a failure
Or a loser
Or a disgrace
This face
This face
Had had to many tears
Over so many years
So I must say
Who will stand by my side today

I wait for the day
My sickness releases me
But how can that be
When i was born to die
I need to escape
And i will remake
I will decrease
And **** ill be king

As my golden crown
Hits the ground
I am your jester
Your clown
I sleep in secrecy
I dream more then you can believe

But dreams are not real
And beggars cant be choosers
I will die
But not by your hand

Listen to the baby cry
Watch as his mother dies
Life has no ******* signs
Figure it out on your own

As my golden crown
Hits the ground
I am your jester
Your clown
I sleep in secrecy
I dream more then you can believe

Twirling the world
Glass hearts shattering

Tears as brutal as bullets
Down to the ground, thundering

Wounds hungering
For pain and suffering

Armored boys and girls warring
Adults, too afraid, we're cowering
Faltering, the future is wavering

Water colors merely disappearing
Only mud drooping, and smearing
As we watch it engulf our mired territory