We started talking again
and I thought
"maybe we can finally just be friends again"
but
once again
we started being how we were before
you started being the most you
and I stopped ..
          stopped lying to myself
by putting words into my mouth that my
mind would say
        not my heart
I laughed
and said
"I can never just be friends with you"

j.f

I realized that I didn't actually love you
I only loved how you made me feel
and
who you were
but I was young
and
I thought that the way you made me feel
was love
the way you would
     listen to me
hear me
and
     promise me things  
you were like the petal and I was the rose
and
just like the petal
you soon started to die
and
eventually f
                      a
                         d
                             e    
                                                             ­                                       away

you lied to me and broke your promise
when you said you'll never leave
I lied when I said "I know"

because look at us now
you're at your house
  laughing
and
  talking
like I was never in your life
I'm here
  laughing
and
  talking
like you never were in my life
and
after all I actually think I'm going to be okay

j.f

I fell in love with the way
      he slowly started
falling in love with me
      but when It all stopped
it didn't matter
       I was still falling for him

j.f