I finally saw you again after 34 days
and
in between those 34 days
I strongly believed I was over you
but then I saw you
                 I remembered
how all your imperfect flaws made me fall for you                        
                 I remembered
how you made my stomach fill with
little
      colorful
           meaningful
                    butterflies
                  I remembered
how your words made my heart melt like wax
and then
                  I remembered
that I'm not actually over you

j.f

we both knew we were meant for one another
but
we were just two lost souls
grasping for air
searching for a place to fit in
that we never realized
how one day one of us
would just
give up
and
stop trying

then it hit you
you finally realized
that the one you were searching for was standing in front of you all along
but now ..
now it's too late
she is falling for another
while you watch
as she watched you simply not try and give up

j.f

We started talking again
and I thought
"maybe we can finally just be friends again"
but
once again
we started being how we were before
you started being the most you
and I stopped ..
          stopped lying to myself
by putting words into my mouth that my
mind would say
        not my heart
I laughed
and said
"I can never just be friends with you"

j.f