A desperation grows with every diminshment
Of what once was me to a soldering ash
As the boundaries that kept me afloat
Vanish into a cloud of poisonous smoke
I draw you in with my tongue
Yet warn you away with my eyes

I wish so much to hold you close to my heart
Yet I fear your presence and wish you to be gone
I want you to change faces to the one that I loved
The one that I yearn for, that I am dying for
Yet I don't want that either for I fear it will lead
To my demise as the sweetness on your breath
Is bitter on mine, the sourness seeping in
And so I blow it out with medicine in my lungs
My only release aside from my impending doom

I want for all my troubles to subside
But instead I prayed yours to be put on me
And here I stand a man of my word
Watching you frolic, your hand entwined with another's
While I ponder the necessity of my life
And find it to be pointless, worthless
How can on be loved and love in return
When they don't love themselves?
When they question why they are a piece of a picture
Solely because they were a let down, a lesser?

With a troubled sigh and a nodding head
I close this fraction of my thoughts with this
Perhaps the sun is only beautiful when it shines on you
But is devilishly deceptive when its glorious glow
Is directed towards those around you

May infamy strike its curséd name
Maiming, mutilating, mundaning
As my battered body and tattered soul
Struggle to gain a foothold
Grasp at nothing for a breath
And wither with every passing moment

I have wished for solitude
But it was meant to be serene and silent
Not a deafening blare of desolation
I am alone, I am alone
It's me against the devil
And the devil is winning

I can feel his grip tightening on my mind
Idle for too long, yet equally active
The stench of despair curls around my nose
And curdles my blood like aging milk
Lethargic weeping plagues my day
And unmitigated fallacy my nights

We had grown so close, you and I
I could feel the blanket of depression lifting
The fog clearing, the sun shining
But whether it be an appetite for destruction
Or a fear of inevitably deeper attachment
You went away, far far away

You are my sunshine, my goddess
Why must you hide behind the storm?
Banish its painful treachery
Shed the scintillating beauty of your smile
Upon my dreary heart once more
I need your light

But that is only a wish amongst dreams
Has my destiny changed
Or is this the course I was meant to take?
I could care less at this early hour
Because I'm lonely today

A heated, serrated blade
Drives deep beneath my skin
Boiling my blood
Tearing my flesh
Smashing my bones

I stand without feet
While I smash without hands
Demons drive my soul to Hell
Where I bask in their glow of hatred
I drive them away with my smirk

Do not cross me
You know nothing of my potential
Crazed psychopathy is euphemistic
To the destruction of my wrath
Leaving nothing untouched by my flame

Ayer  era así oscuro
Viví sin la sonrisa
-El sol- de mi diosa
No pude ver el futuro
Respirar estuve demasiado duro
Necesite mi mujer hermosa
¡Por Dios! Ella es preciosa
Soñé sobre sus belleza infecciosa

En eso sueño, floto en los nubes
Los ángeles cantan y bailan con amor
En Al alto de mi corazón, Te engarbes
Nuestro es más hermosa que un ciclamor

The gravel beneath my tires
My heart pulsing
Blood throbbing through my veins
The green house on a hill in sight

The dogs barking as my door closes
I walk upon your wood porch to hear your voice
My heart skips a beat
As you leave your house

A night with you again
A night of many words
Most of which unsaid
But I could hear them

As I leave
I can smell you on my jacket
A smile crosses my face
As I go back in time

Lunar guardian
Silently watching over
Lovers reminisce
Within your beautiful glow
Whilst the darkness fades away

Oh majestic sun
Rise o'er our dreary, paining souls
Erase our frozen hearts
Give them newfound birth this morn
Destroy an overdue tragedy

Sweet solitary moon
You have returned unto me
Protect my aging soul
Shatter the monotony of cycles
Bring us eternal sunshine

Amor, Amor, Amor
¿Donde estas?
Estaba traído encontrar tú
¿Adonde estaba ido?
Estaba vido en el oscuro
En la día
Todos lugares en el mundo
Pero no estas aquí
¿Sales con mí corazón
Y nunca volvería?

I feel your brown orbs scanning my skin
My heart gently skips a beat at the feelings of old
Long past when I thought you to be beautiful
When I thought you to be near angelic

However, days, months and years have passed
Since I heard your voice and cherished its sound
Now I silently applaud my feeling of deep disgust
For the heartless creature that you are

Although my heart skips and jumps
I no longer will feel pressure from your freely moving eyes
Only the pleasure in knowing that my love is far too grand
For you frail hands of blood stained glass to handle

You ripped my heart from my chest once
And I swore it would never happen again
At first it was difficult to say no
But it is now twice as much so to say yes

Tall grass reclaims its territory
A swingset slowly rusts away
The family oak remains strong
While centuries of history
Go unheard

The words I wish to express
Are right here, ready to flow
An impediment halts their delivery
Could it be the lonely lighthouse
That I wish to compare myself to
Is no longer to be lonely?
Is it that I can sense you warming once more?
I hope that is why I'm wordless tonight

Smoke rolls over the ruins
The solitary garden of serenity
Lays ablaze, desolate
Crying in the droughted fountain
Filling it with sorrow
Making wishes with invisible pennies

A calm wind approaches
Of no storm, of no extra pain
Sincerity in slightness
Clearing increments of fog
The sun beaming somewhere

Tears no longer fall
The fountain gains clarity
Lost in the obscurity of ash
Barren grounds find reincarnation
Sprouts bloom again, simplistic beauty
The sun shines once more

A table is set for hundreds
In the chambers of my dying heart
At which is to be sat many a notable guest
Lonely, Sad, Fearful, and Disgusted too
Where they are to converse on the goings on
At a mile a minute all together
A harmonious blare of monotony
Where which each conversation is sensible
Yet together is disjointed, annoying
Me being the willing fool with a broken heart
Tried to listen in to find my ear sadly unattuned
To the discourse of utmost importance
I guess it's a part of living dead

A sight of such simplistic beauty strikes my eye
When I note the hour of the night grows thin
I feel her heart beating to mine so nigh
And I see passion written amongst her grin
Perhaps the words I wish to hear
Shall be spoken by her tongue
Breathing the words I long to fear
The sweetest song ever sung
Should my life be graced the chance
To hold her head so close to mine
Why it ought to be celebrated by dance
Have you ever held the Divine?
Perhaps this is a chance to take
For the wealth of your love to make

The Grim Reaper
Is an alcoholic weeper
Searching the earth
For souls lost at birth

He lays his bare knuckle against my door
I welcome him, another sailor washed ashore
He offers a drink which I do not take
I am allergic for goodness sake!

However, I offer him an ear
Everybody needs someone to sit and hear
What he does not know is that I've been to hell and back
I have walked through his abysmal black


I have lived where there is no life
My world tends to be nothing but trife
I feel his pains, as I have felt
I cannot deliver what has been dealt

The Grim reaper has left my home
Left free to wander and roam
He walks out looking like me
Walking around triumphantly

He became me
Before I became bones

Days like these hurt your heart
Drown you with sorrows
And haunt you with many demons

Days like those a while ago were happy
Light on the heart
And marked by many laughs

But, there is commonplace between this opposites
I'm still sitting here
Loving you

Whether you be pained
Or laughing uncontrollably
I'll always be right here

There is no end to my love
Only a beginning
One that I will forever cherish

You are my sunshine
And I'll never leave your side
I love you, unconditionally

A familiar feeling from a foreign face
The feeling of eagerness, the hope for future
Something I have longed to feel
Since my world has grown dark
I've wanted to die for so long
But won't you make me want to live again?
Won't you take this withering flower
And turn its chin upwards towards the sun?
Bring an end to my endless night
Make me feel the warmth of your glow
And let me flatter you with words
I could make you my princess
But I'd rather you be my angel
Save me from the death fast approaching
And deliver me to a newly opening door

He has devoted his life
To laying walls
Brick by brick
Big walls and fancy ways
Ornamented with oriental designs
Opulence is a must
It protects a sacred being
Well, sacred to me
But the wall comes tumbling down
Every night when I think of you
Everything crumbles down
A flood of tears wash away the bricks
That once protected my heart
By sunrise,
He's laying the same bricks again and again

Shadows projected upon mine dreary wall
Painting murals of death and betrayal
Dancin within the flicker of the waning moon
And the candle, slowly dripping its last wax
Yet the wick still remains
It's not a fuse; it burns too slowly for measurement
Truthfully not at all
But once the wax has eroded away
Leaving my wick bare to the world
It shall sing its songs of love and longing
To which you shy away
The youthful flame dies out to be lit again
Not today, not today
It's too cold for fire now

Many eons of history compile into a lonely monster
Recklessly abandoning the loves of his day
Destroying the hearts of those around him
Devouring the hope of the youth
Bringing night to the day

Having lost his own heart
A tremendous wall was built
Unable to be scaled yet left incomplete
Those that wiggle their way in
Can stay if they wish
Yet I know they won't
Nothing in life is forever
Except death, forever sanctuary

Death is a mental institute
When our hearts have endured enough pain
God removes us and imprisons us
Yet we care not
Because we are fed pills of Ecstasy
And left to forever wander on a playground

But I want to break death
It has no place in my world
I fear happiness as it is always followed
By pain with more magnitude
So I wish to stay unhappy, human
And resist my Forever Sanctuary

Slinking about step by step
With perfectly fluid motion
Seeing the world through eyes
Devoted to feline curiosity
The petty masters stand in awe
While I fall from three stories up
And land on all fours, unscathed
I am a cat, and I love my life
Sleeping through the hours of the day
To awake at night to scavenge
The little tailed furry critter
That you may be afraid of
But this is my dinner
Oh I love my life

Ting ting ting ting ting ting
"Thank you, have a Merry Christmas"
Ting ting ting ting ting ting

Why must you walk by?
You just had small money in your hand
Why must you put it away?
Do you not see that others are in need
While you tuck your green in greed?
Curse you youth of today
I give my time and patience
And feeling in my hands
To watch many walk by
And only a few donate

ting ting ting ting ting ting

Split me in two
Very unequal portions
Of who I am, who always was
And who I'm tryin to be
Forgetting the world that
Made this way
And welcoming the world that
Is making me that way
Saying goodbye to you
And saying good morning to them
Oh but the misery of when I hear your voice
And want your sweet caressing lips
Entwined with mine in a forever kinda moment
I can't write enough poems
I can't write my heart out enough
It's all out there
It's there for you to see
Come find me

Whispered words in the dead of night
Break the abysmal silence
*in due time, weary traveler
You'll forget why you were in anguish
You'll forget why you came here to me
But you'll never forget the lessons from your stay

The world has grown vile
There is no truth left
We slay our kin for fortune
Laugh at others struggling to stay afloat
Allow a slip of paper to dictate our lives
And the Heavens weep

Death and destruction plague our lives
Warring nations combat
Over lines of pure fantasy; control
Children are scarred forever by its teachery
Parents are slain for no gain
And the Heavens weep

I have learned that I have no place here
Loveless, lifeless
I have no reason to be
The grim reaper is my saving angel
And on this day, with me
The Heavens weep

Never ceasing to shed light upon my dreary days, you're the sun to my sky, the flower to my garden
Endlessly loving and caring, feeling and seeing, you have the heart of an angel and the face of a goddess; divine duality
Vast degrees of beauty emanate from you, meet my eyes, and melt my heart
Early hours of my mornings are filled solely with thoughts of you such as this moment while I compose
Rarity, uniquity, you're one of a kind my rose. You hold a place in my heart that no other can hold simply because nobody else is vaguely comparable to you

A** lthough the earth is treacherous and destructive to your pristine beauty, I have great faith that you will remain purely innocent
Loneliness should never be felt by you for if you look to your side I will be there whether in spirit or in body
Olfactory senses tingle with delight as you draw near; your scent is one I have yet to forget
Never fear the night for I will stand guard with a lantern in hand: no demon shall trespass your glorious soul; even if the cost may be my life, I shall fight for you to my last breath and beyond
Every day I'm here with you, oh it is so so true look around, you're *never alone

Downtrodden by a burden that is:
          Irrevocable
       Unbearable
           Irreplaceable
Yet, I see no evil
I fear no evil
There is no evil

The holder of the burden is:
             Gorgeous
           Amazing
                Divine

There is no escaping the burden
The burden is a gift unto me
Which I cherish from you

Yet it seems to:
           Destroy
          Sadden
              Devour

All sense of safety set ablaze
Treachery in beauty
Disgust in anguish

Deep within the dusty catacombs
Lay a stone, cracked and ancient
Having weathered centuries of battle
It yet pulses with life, although feebly
Pilgrims trek miles to lay gold before yet
Fools, you have no place here
they vanish into the air
My heart, the last testament to my journey
Wishes to slumber alone
How it was meant to

Vastness
Myself and I
Wand'ring by our lonesome

Emptiness
Nothing in sight
An empty palette

Solace
The peaceful calm
Washing over my broken soul

Beauty
God's work of art
In Its simplest form

Lonely
I wander the seas
Searching for land to crash

When I look into your beautiful emerald eyes
I can feel love reciprocated upon my heart
I can see a coastal sunset, easing all of our pains
A calm salty breeze ruffles your hair
As we cross the white sand, hand in hand
Serenity washes over our souls
Once lost, but found with each other

But then I step back
And I look at you not into you
And I see turmoil and pain
Stress and disturbance
Why can't you look into my eyes
And see the same as when I look into yours?

We love each other
More than words can ever express
Three simple words with such boundless meaning
I love you

A rush to my head
The toy soldier stands at attention
Hearts pounding
The plastic men file in ranks
Sheep to the slaughterhouse
Eyes widening
The belly of the beast
Opens its void, its mouth
Stomachs dropping
The sunlight fades at noon
Darkness

Two worlds
Disjointed in physicality
Yet uknowingly connected
Collide brilliantly

The night’s grim demeanor
Destroys the serenity of the moon
Ravishes the sacred
Hearts of the unfortunate few
Who dare brave the soulless vacuum

Where ignoble hate
Defines one’s belonging
Siphoning life from
Those around their fancied niche
To fuel their self-righteousness

Some fall victim to
The unreasonable, harsh wrath
Of the wretched demons
Whose empty skeleton bodies
Are devoid of happiness

But here you yet stand,
Angelic guardian,
Protectorate of the lonely,
You stand pristine, unmarred
Your smile banishes the treachery

Your beautiful smile
Transforms any place to a home
Captivates my heart:
You complete the person I am
And I love you more each day

i look into the glass
and see stains returned
amorphous, lacking definition
but a fire burns in the middle
passion and desire
consuming the image
and the mirror breaks

Muted expression
A songbird perched upon a winter pine
Alone.

Not a chirp
No songs of spring
Nothing but silence

Staring out towards the rising moon
Where we both tend to gaze
As if there's commonplace

Perhaps the bird doesn't sing
Because it's trapped in its own cage
As am I

The brilliant aurora of the sun
Evaporates in a vacuum of sorrow
A world unlit, shamed by darkness

A steel wind penetrates my soul
And sheers the joyous sparkle from my eyes
A life unseeing, blinded by desolation

A blanket of snow warming my heart
By numbing me of my pains
Unfeeling, paralyzed

Dear beautiful rose,

Day and night come and go seamlessly
because there is no differentiation of time.
Without you, there seems to be nothing more
than the drifting of a lonely soul through the universe.
With a faint acknowledgement that my life still exists
I fade into the warmly dark recesses of my thoughts.

These thoughts, however, are far from dark in their content.
Within my mind, enslaved by my longing heart,
I can clearly see you and me.
We walk together as if there was no pain, no struggle.
All that exists is love that is between us;
the love that I know remains but is captive to fear.

The darkness of these thoughts, then, comes from the explicit difference
between the movies of my mind and the painful reality.
Despite my falling into constant dreams,
I still hold hope for reality.
I know somewhere in that fearful beauty,
deep down where no normal eye can see,
you yearn for a reunion of our hands,
the renewed embrace of our loving souls.

Could you be more beautiful?
It must be impossible
Your smile, oh so bright
Is the reason that stars fall
Jealousy of a glow they cannot match

Could you be more beautiful?
With your walk of grace
Leaving celestial life
With every inch you touch

Could you be more beautiful?
With such a melody of a voice
Soothing my pains daily

Could you be more beautiful?
As my heart falls every day

Could you be more beautiful?

Sinking deep beneath my flesh
Seeping your beauty into my soul
I can feel you beating with my heart
Welcome home sweet love
I've missed you here

Scarlet shining lakes surround the temple
The life of unnamed martyrs lay silent
The livelihood of millions, destroyed, vanquished
The gates of Hell opened, the wrath amongst us
A kid, youthful and playful
Lays still in a pile of millions
Another life ended senselessly
By a ridiculous spitting contest of thrones
One day, one day, maybe the wars will end
Maybe blood will no longer be shed
By our own hands. Maybe

Cool mist rests upon my sleeves
While a frozen breeze stirs fallen leaves
The songbirds chirp their last songs vibrantly
Before the first night of frost, they leave triumphantly
For the warmth of the Spring, my heart grieves
Their return will bring its joys, it believes
So it sits by the window looking  skyward expectantly

These long months shan't be so lonely and cold
Not if I can have you by my side
Within the arms of one another, we shall enfold
Living happily together, with only love to betide
So have no fear sweetheart, take my hand
My greatest wish and my only demand

I light up my empty soul
And watch it disappear into a cloud of smoke
As I burn away your memory
I feel the emptiness inside me grow
A massive broken universe devouring my heart

So I feed the demon inside me
Throwing hearts at him indiscriminately
Trying to fill the void you're leaving
But it fails and I continue to weep

The world watches with dismay
As I wither in front of their eyes
And succumb to the poison within me

You've become a cancer to my heart
But I still love you

And I fade away into forever night

White fluff drifting downwards
Slushy goo making the drive unreal
But a voice
Her sweet southern vocal
Fills my ears and heart
Twinkling eyes full of diamonds
While her smile
Outshines the moon
That familiar aroma
Of you levitates around my nose
Although not in my arms
Like you should be
You're right here beside me
And my soul is happy

"Healthy" servings of burdens
Pile up on either side
A hole of despair "is" forming
I wish to fall into its embrace
Yet I fear its cold demeanor
"Death" could only be sweeter
If it was for you
As well as in your name