I'm learning Arabic
Unlocking the treasure
Of a million tales unheard
A look through different eyes
I'll post in Arabic
When I know it enough to write it

I've seen the sun fade a thousand times
But none could ever compare
To watching it with you
It's like closing a book
Just to open its sequel

Let the beat absolve your soul
Fall into the waves
Melancholy with its monotony fades away
The world becomes a crashing wave
That I ride every day

El día que tuyos ojos
Vieron que míos
Eso era el día
Que mí corazón bajó

Reunition of two lost souls
And it feels so right

Watch my heart shatter into millions of tiny shards
Picking up the pieces
Gluing them back together with my tears
Back at your door in moments
I miss you

Muted expression
A songbird perched upon a winter pine
Alone.

Not a chirp
No songs of spring
Nothing but silence

Staring out towards the rising moon
Where we both tend to gaze
As if there's commonplace

Perhaps the bird doesn't sing
Because it's trapped in its own cage
As am I

I'm saying goodbye to the community
I'm writing something grand
I'll be gone for a while
But I may post when I'm done
epic writing day one starts now

Slow regression back
Down down down
A home that I love so much
A slow freefall back to familiar ground
Where I wait for your heart
Sigh

I love you
I can't be with you
There is still hope
I bleed my heart
We fall apart
We fall together
I love you

Tall grass reclaims its territory
A swingset slowly rusts away
The family oak remains strong
While centuries of history
Go unheard

Days like these hurt your heart
Drown you with sorrows
And haunt you with many demons

Days like those a while ago were happy
Light on the heart
And marked by many laughs

But, there is commonplace between this opposites
I'm still sitting here
Loving you

Whether you be pained
Or laughing uncontrollably
I'll always be right here

There is no end to my love
Only a beginning
One that I will forever cherish

You are my sunshine
And I'll never leave your side
I love you, unconditionally

Desolation, withering trees dropping sadly
Green grass now turned to frozen nostalgia
Oh what great joy life was
When my home was green with life
Surrounded by an eternity of happiness
But death came quick
As I slowly perished inside
Forever never was so short

I must follow my heart my mind and my dreams
All colliding and contrasting
In the same breath

I must be with you always
It's what my heart tells me
You're my goddess

Yet I must move on from you
I'm driving myself mad
My mind flees to my Angel

I must leave my home, see the world
My dreams are bigger than here
Yet I must stay with you

Freedom bells ringing in the distance
A scolding scowl crosses my face
I'm stuck behind the bars of my own heart
Free me, my Angel
Take me from the hands of thine goddess
Whom I love so dearly
Pry my dead hands from her lovely waist
Revive me, give me renewed life
But cry not one tear when I run from you
It is inevitable, I already apologize
She is where my heart belongs
Where it will always be
Just stay here with me for time being,
Will you?

Blood sweat and eventually tears
Spilled upon waxed pine
For seemingly nothing

Hours upon hours
Weekends
Weekdays

It's all over
Time is taking its course
Leaving tonight behind

The end is always bitter
Yet the beginning is so sweet
I'll miss this forever

I'm not sure
If my days drag on forever
Or if they simply run into one another

I'm not sure
If my heart is numb
Or if I'm incapable of feeling for another

I'm not sure
If my soul is reclusive
Or if I myself am

I'm not sure
About much
Right now

But I am sure
About this
I still love you

Blind my eye
Deafen my ear
Numb my soul
I wish to feel nothing anymore

Vultures pick at the carcass
Of who I was
I only know pain
That love
That happiness
Was just a short high
An addicting drug I can't give up

A rolling landscape
So much distance
Between my past
And my future

Paradoxical split between the worlds in which I inhabit
Space and time discontinuum
For which art thou represent?
Nonsense you buffoon!

Insanity, sweet sweet insanity
Chill my bones yet warm my heart
Unorthodox orthodoxy with power
Eat thy young

The void always welcome weary travelers
Yet travelers that embrace the void
Are no longer travelers
For we love and loathe our void

Loving and loathing
The story of my passing through time
Completely unfinished
Yet left resolved

What is it that I speak of?
I sincerely wish I knew
I am only a medium
For the being inside of me

Is that not what we all are?
Just bodies withering ever so slightly
Whilst our souls remain forever youthful?
This life can make your soul grow old as well

Or is life an act of duality
In which we sleep at night
So that our souls can show us their lives
And awake to show our souls ours?

Nothing makes sense
It isn't supposed to
That's why there is faith
Whether in nothing or everything

I am nowhere yet everywhere
A tiny speck yet everything I've ever known
I am a clown confused in a circus
Switching realities, or rather fantasies

When I look into your beautiful emerald eyes
I can feel love reciprocated upon my heart
I can see a coastal sunset, easing all of our pains
A calm salty breeze ruffles your hair
As we cross the white sand, hand in hand
Serenity washes over our souls
Once lost, but found with each other

But then I step back
And I look at you not into you
And I see turmoil and pain
Stress and disturbance
Why can't you look into my eyes
And see the same as when I look into yours?

We love each other
More than words can ever express
Three simple words with such boundless meaning
I love you

I can see it in your eyes
You put on such a pitiful disguise

I can hear it in your laughter
We're here for happily ever after

I can see it in your smile
Don't you wanna stay a little while?

I can feel it in my soul
My heart needs your control

And I can feel it in your soul
You love me as I do you

Write my name in blood on your walls
Bask in all its glory
Take it all in
Now burn your wall

You don't even deserve to see it
You deserve nothing
Other than to watch me and my goddess
And melt in your own envy

Bleed
              Bleed
Drip Drip Drip
Let it all out
Bleed the pain
Do not feign
Its all real
Yet so surreal
Pain, goodbye

If the sun shall never shine
My heart will still have your light
I don't need the fire to continue this fight
I have the love of the divine

If the sun shall never shine
I will still find you
No amount of dark can bind you
You're my goddess, a diamond so fine

You're sweeter than the finest wine
And I have found this:
My life is to be filled with utter bliss
Even if the sun shall never shine

Taco brunch in a bathroom stall
Liquor filled urinals hang from the ceiling
Where IS the ceiling?

Rooms filled with nothing
Empty space, except for a disco ball
Groove in the black hole

Scar tissue covers the air
A hurt earth lingers in the void
Where everything and nothing exists

Possibility ruins imagination
How can dolphins play checkers with cats
When cats hate sea urchins?

Neither rhyme not reason plagues my mind
There is nothing within to plague
Just another void amongst voids

Why is that star shaped like me
Whilst I roam within shadows?
No

Bone started to crumble
Into monumental skyscrapers
Destroyed by a lost ant

You smile at me as I walk past
My heart has no reaction
I merely smirk in return
Not in disgust
That's just me

But You on the other hand
When You smile at me
My heart tumbles upwards
Towards the boundless heavens
You put my soul in sweet serenity

In my ear you sit and preach
Tell me to hold my faith when all else is gone
Now I want to thank you
For getting me through this storm
And allowing me to see the day

The words I wish to express
Are right here, ready to flow
An impediment halts their delivery
Could it be the lonely lighthouse
That I wish to compare myself to
Is no longer to be lonely?
Is it that I can sense you warming once more?
I hope that is why I'm wordless tonight

Dear beautiful rose,

Day and night come and go seamlessly
because there is no differentiation of time.
Without you, there seems to be nothing more
than the drifting of a lonely soul through the universe.
With a faint acknowledgement that my life still exists
I fade into the warmly dark recesses of my thoughts.

These thoughts, however, are far from dark in their content.
Within my mind, enslaved by my longing heart,
I can clearly see you and me.
We walk together as if there was no pain, no struggle.
All that exists is love that is between us;
the love that I know remains but is captive to fear.

The darkness of these thoughts, then, comes from the explicit difference
between the movies of my mind and the painful reality.
Despite my falling into constant dreams,
I still hold hope for reality.
I know somewhere in that fearful beauty,
deep down where no normal eye can see,
you yearn for a reunion of our hands,
the renewed embrace of our loving souls.

I feel your brown orbs scanning my skin
My heart gently skips a beat at the feelings of old
Long past when I thought you to be beautiful
When I thought you to be near angelic

However, days, months and years have passed
Since I heard your voice and cherished its sound
Now I silently applaud my feeling of deep disgust
For the heartless creature that you are

Although my heart skips and jumps
I no longer will feel pressure from your freely moving eyes
Only the pleasure in knowing that my love is far too grand
For you frail hands of blood stained glass to handle

You ripped my heart from my chest once
And I swore it would never happen again
At first it was difficult to say no
But it is now twice as much so to say yes

My sweet goddess
You float in my heart
Carefree and beautifully
Crafted by the hand of God
He made you special
He wanted you to be
Far beyond angelic
And that, you are

White fluff drifting downwards
Slushy goo making the drive unreal
But a voice
Her sweet southern vocal
Fills my ears and heart
Twinkling eyes full of diamonds
While her smile
Outshines the moon
That familiar aroma
Of you levitates around my nose
Although not in my arms
Like you should be
You're right here beside me
And my soul is happy

Beautiful does not match your great allure
You draw me in with such intensity
It is amazing how you are my cure
To love you, I have a propensity
It is hard to watch you move with such grace
To stand there as elegant as a rose
And not grab you by your beautiful face
And not kiss you; it causes far too many throes
Please, I beg you, end this brainless contest
I am destined to be the victor, yes?
I have already passed your endless tests
Do you not see I'm better than the rest?
Just go ahead and fall into my love
With me by your side, we will rise above

At daybreak, the contest shall commence
Loaded upon chariots, we begin
As trumpets blast through the blissful silence
Suddenly striking my face, a sharp grin
I shall not be defeated, she is mine
I know this much for she has told me so
Yes, my ears have been graced by the divine
And I wish for everyone to know
None of you will rise to be victorious
You have not walked through enough torture
She is a goddess, forever glorious
Her beauty is pristine, tis beyond pure
To anyone who wants to make her their own
This sacred struggle is already won

Goddess standing before the mirrored pool
Watching ripples twist and contort her face
Beautiful flesh refracted upon the cool
Where unworthy men praise the hallowed ground
I stand above, chuckling at them all
Have they no shame to wear on their forehead?
Do they not know that they cannot stand tall
Enough to win the heart of my beloved?
Apparently not, for there they remain
Waiting for her to abandon her post
That day won't come, they'll endure much pain
Tonight, we rest after a friendly toast
"May the best man walk with her through the door
     And share love with her forevermore"

Flabbergasted, the whale wails
Lonely upon the sea drifting ever apart
A sole ****** raises his tired sails
Forever trapped in solitary solace

Winds warping the canvas
While ominous clouds encroach
The salty breeze stinging his taste
A bitterness within the calm

Peace drowns with the fury
That the storm has yet to bring
Fear not, creature of the sea
The troublesome life is far from over

Another night trashing about
The rock and the roll of the bow
A lullaby to a tired soul
Slowly rocking to dreamless sleep

The gravel beneath my tires
My heart pulsing
Blood throbbing through my veins
The green house on a hill in sight

The dogs barking as my door closes
I walk upon your wood porch to hear your voice
My heart skips a beat
As you leave your house

A night with you again
A night of many words
Most of which unsaid
But I could hear them

As I leave
I can smell you on my jacket
A smile crosses my face
As I go back in time

A heated, serrated blade
Drives deep beneath my skin
Boiling my blood
Tearing my flesh
Smashing my bones

I stand without feet
While I smash without hands
Demons drive my soul to Hell
Where I bask in their glow of hatred
I drive them away with my smirk

Do not cross me
You know nothing of my potential
Crazed psychopathy is euphemistic
To the destruction of my wrath
Leaving nothing untouched by my flame

Lift from the smoldering ash
Mount your chariot "soldier"
Have you no shame in your failures?
Do you not wake to taste the blood of your foe?

Trumpets blast from the crumbling stone walls
As the moans of dying men play the symphony I cherish
While the trickling of blood sings it's sweet verse
I ride upon sunset, dagger between my ribs

I need not this chariot, I combat by foot
No foe can match my brutality
Watch as my slain victim crumples
Like the paper that he always has been

I am forever victorious

Before the dawn when all is still
My mind races to and fro
Remembering our best of days
Dreaming that you lay beside  me
Watching the stars fade into the Orange glow

While you sleep so peacefully
Turmoil thrashes about
Within your lovely heart
I know you still love me
I can feel it

Why then, do you hide it?
There ought not be a single pain
Nor a single fear
Because I am here, arms fully extended
Awaiting you to fall into my  embrace

Just do it

All I can taste is
  Your lips pressed against mine

All I can see is
   Your beautiful eyes looking into mine

All I can feel is
  Your soft hands embraced around mine

This is all I desire

Perhaps life does not exist
Tis just a dreary film shown in the heavens above
Showing the lessons of what to do
Or rather what not to do
When placed in Home

Perhaps life is not physical at all
What we touch and see is not there
Projections to end our fears
Of floating lonely in space

Perhaps life has no love
No gain or loss
Because it simply tis not real

Perhaps life isn't real
And neither are the feelings that come with it

But tis indeed, and I do love you

Ting ting ting ting ting ting
"Thank you, have a Merry Christmas"
Ting ting ting ting ting ting

Why must you walk by?
You just had small money in your hand
Why must you put it away?
Do you not see that others are in need
While you tuck your green in greed?
Curse you youth of today
I give my time and patience
And feeling in my hands
To watch many walk by
And only a few donate

ting ting ting ting ting ting

Blood filling the sternum
Of the work horse grown old
The rusty iron of an old train yard
Stagnate pools of ancient prosperity
Fill the scene of yesterday's tomorrow

Instead of futuristic gizmos
Zapping up our daily needs
We worship a silly piece of paper
Watching the ruins around us fade away

Instead of helping one another
Stand from a nasty fall
We fill our pockets with jingling candies
Trying to sweeten our sour lives

Instead of being the beacon of hope
The self proclaimed city on a hill
We watch the struggles around our walls
And laugh at the ones within

A day of reckoning is soon to come
With it we all fade to dust
A rebirth is in store
But it will not bring new life

Only more death and struggle
Because Lady Liberty only holds her torch
Shines upon her own achievements
And leaves others in the dark

Wheezing, she stumbles upon a notebook
Coughing the blood of her own horse
Rusting away like her prosperity
She reads of what she learned a day ago
But forgot for today

She awakes in a cold sweat
Still torch in hand
Will she have learned to shine towards others
Or will she only brighten herself?

Dollar signs painted upon walls
While psychopaths grieve it's surreality

"Not real not real, must have more"
They all chant in unison

Gobbling and devouring wealth
The black holes of greed that they are

Never feeling love nor happiness
Just the want for more and more

Million dollar cars pour from golden driveways
As monogramed gates open wide

Wouldn't you wish to peer inside?
See the extravagant joys that await?

Scarves cover their bones, they are without skin
And soul, they lack as well

Instead they have it replaced
With the almighty dollar

Many moons have passed
Since I held you in my arms last...

And many more may come
Before I can hold again
But I will continue on to the marching drum
Until our love will rebegin

I have spent many nights
Looking upon the lonely moon
Taking in all the lights
Wishing to be with you soon

I know your heart has folded, retreated
Back within your castle of safe solitude
But my love for you cannot be deleted
It is true, it is of such great magnitude

No words could ever express it
I would wait for you for the rest of my days
But I know you'll come back, so I don't stress it
I will live until then through the haze

But come nightfall
My head turns to the starry sky
Watch the moon bring light to all
Wishing that I could hang my head so high

Many things have I learned
Compare to this patience
Many days my heart has yearned
Slowly fading away with decadence

Oh beautiful one, hold on
Many moons have passed
And it has been far too long
Since I've held you in my arms last...

The Grim Reaper
Is an alcoholic weeper
Searching the earth
For souls lost at birth

He lays his bare knuckle against my door
I welcome him, another sailor washed ashore
He offers a drink which I do not take
I am allergic for goodness sake!

However, I offer him an ear
Everybody needs someone to sit and hear
What he does not know is that I've been to hell and back
I have walked through his abysmal black


I have lived where there is no life
My world tends to be nothing but trife
I feel his pains, as I have felt
I cannot deliver what has been dealt

The Grim reaper has left my home
Left free to wander and roam
He walks out looking like me
Walking around triumphantly

He became me
Before I became bones