Jacob

Jacob Jan 2014

The truth can set me free
But the lies make me quiver
And second-guess my feelings
Only to bruise me once more

This whole thing they call love
Is so unbearable
When I can't have you
Or call you mine
When all I need
Is a good reason
To continue on living

Hello heartache!
Here you are again
Please spare me the trouble
Of going to the dark side
Where I might not return
And give me the news:
Is it a happy ending
Or is my heart
Going to shatter
Into a million pieces?

Jacob Jan 2014

Open Hearted Fool

I couldn't accomplish what you wanted from me;
I was your disappointment
and you made it obvious
we were unhealthy.
We crossed paths in our relationship
that train-wrecked any hopes of happiness.
My life was a nightmare
whenever I was with you.

I felt controlled and abused
and you played with my heart,
but I always wondered
why I couldn't try.
Why was I so naïve and dumb
to not understand that you didn’t even love me?

Jacob Jan 2014

Hope for the Hopeless Mind

This bright mind of mine
is ready to give it's all
and speak the absolute truth.

But you see,
it can't do that.
This mind sees road blocks
The size of Goliath
and runs away like a coward
back into town.
Why does a simple hello
feel like an idle journey
that I cannot complete?

What my mind says
and what my voice delivers
are two exact opposites;
they are distant planets
who despise each other
and have no intentions
of ever coming close.

It feels like everyday
my mind is at war
and I can't gel in these pieces of myself
unless my mind can conquer my voice
and create something endlessly beautiful.

Jacob Jan 2014

This Love Feels So Right

We cross paths
and I want to scream at the thought
of you and I not saying hello;
because I know that it isn't a simple kind of romance
and society will always want to tell me what's right,
but why does wanting you feel so wrong
and loving you feel so right?

I can see us together in my dreams
with my arm around you as we sleep;
we embrace our warmth beneath the sheets,
and that is when I love you the most
because I can't see us elsewhere.

Does this heartache last forever
if I never give up on you?
Nothing ventured, nothing gained they say
and the worst of it is right now
because I have no courage to pour my heart out
and say that I want more than anything to be with you.

Maybe one day I can call you mine
or say that your once my everything
but I know better than anyone
that you either stay forever
or have your heart broken once again,
leaving yourself to wonder,
were they truly the one?

All I can tell you
is that when I think about us together,
this love feels so **** right.

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