What Shall I Say Then?
                     I know I am-
                 Addicted to a haiku
(About you). I love to
   Talk about your cu
     mulonimbus cloud
      coverage. Wispy bo
        ats on the sailing se
           a of sky. Forest lea
             f hiding spot betw
              een to cracked up
                branches. Twig s
                   nap laugh and
                     summer chuckle
                      rhyming with the
                         honeysuckle. Tw
                           o thoughts deep
                             a shovel-full of
                               fresh black dirt
                                so flavorful. R
                                 oots and berries
                                  Sweet and sick
                                    Sapling thick m
                                      ilk thistle stick
                                       among your lo
                                        ng thin fingers  
                                        Molded rocks
                                        the dew and moss
                                       growing on the bed
                                       sheets. All leaf and
                                      green; the sylvan scene
                                      pine scented thunder
                                     wonders. Rain fall tap
                                    Oil and sap; butterflies
                                   seek some shelter
                                  from hail and shame
                                red cheeked rain
                               pit patter on
                             in the river

I've grown so accustomed, oh
To my little spot in space and time
So Alisha told me come over later
I can problably change your mind
So I took the time out
As the clock spins a wheel around
And the radio plays the song
The one that stuck inside my head
About being
all alive
little dead
So the read lights slap me
Down at every single stop
Until I reach the corridor
The place all around with cops
But I don't mind OH
I lit a cigarette and saw
Her wave me down from
Alabama or Arkansas
I stepped inside with
Trepidation on  my tongue
I saw the faces
Of people who I didn't know
But they knew Molly
And they knew Mary Jane
So we got along with
Conjunctions in between their names
Now I can't recall the words
Or the ******* a soaking dose
She said her name was Something
Have you ever seen a ghost?
Are you tripping
Hey man
Not yet
Someones flipping
through a t.v stuck on mute
But the stereo plays a song
One that I know quite well
Something dances and she sings along
But she's dancing with someone else
Ally loads the pipe with
Dimethyltryptamine
She said it's alright Oh
You can split it up with me
then
the plastic inhale
I count to three or four
I see Something looking
up at me from the floor
As if she knew the code
To a secret quiet door
In the middle of time and space
She said
You can save the world
But you've gotta **** the human race


Than I was a space invader
I had a ray gun in my hand
A sunshine walker
Maybe God is who I am
Or was it fractal light
Oh,
It could have been the end of time
But it was only five o'clock
It was only five o'clock
On the tenth day of June
I can see the face of God
And I speak the name of doom
You know when it's quiet
that tingle on your neck
You feel so connected
With everything
You disconnect
i find
the way to
take it all away
But I just can't come back
Now that I Know it all
God opened the safe
I found what I wanted deep inside
Yet
I want to much
so I climb in and fall
Into a black invasion
Of my senses up against the wall
I am everything that I have
You are every bit a part of you

then she came so sweetly
Did you even have to say my name
I tried speaking
I forgot then anyway
I really didnt have a tounge
But i sure have a mind
I bet you have one too
If you only ask me once
If you only ask me once
If you only ask me once
You would exhale
I would break
Into pieces on the floor
There I will awake
In the arms of a lover
Or maybe someone knew
Something held me closer
Her skin like morning dew
She whispered sweetly
Now you really know the way
But if you had to ask me
I really don't know a thing

last night I was the throat
Today I am the knife
Wish me luck
This wound
I cannot heal
I am caught within the wheel

Ive done the math
In my head
Even the square root
Preparing A new trajectory
Readjust
Readjust
Readjust

This new silence I can understand
I cherish our reconciliation
Clarity
I have not known
Silence so resplendent speaking:

*I have no true use for you
But I'd like to watch you cut and lie your way out of this one

Like a sculpture
perfectly etched  marble

her hips and breast
my heart leaps
then guilt
I am god
does she not understand
that I could break and shatter her
but she laughs
The is hard to come by
So it's come by mail
You open your mailbox
and read the letter
until you cry
the ground is cold
and your bare feet

Like a match burns
I took a scalpel to my life
I realise what I need and what I don't
I don't feel important
You are important a trusted and friendly member of our company

I run on the treadmill until I feel fake
When I'm thirty I jump off the treadmill and ***** at my own tremendous waste of life
Maybe I will sit in my office and stare at my diplomas and awards
Wondering at how I could afford a sports car

I'm tired of life already

Is what I tell them when I drive fast
Hey
Slow down
Be careful
Hold on
Hold back





If you go running off at the mouth
You will only have your heart broken


I decided

I don't want to sit in waiting rooms and fill out form after form with my social security number
Let me see your driver's license
Swipe card
Debit or credit


I would rather pay now than later
Later is gone in a ball of fire
Later I will die in a traffic collision
Later I will get cancer
Later I will be happy
I know I will be happy and fulfilled
Just after my favorite show is over

Tommorow you might be gone
Tommorow you might get sick
Tommorow I might lose you


But today you are mine
We are going to make summer heat and throw rocks at windows that may or may not be broken by tommorow


Fail a test
Just one
And your life turns into a black abyss
Drip out
Move downtown
Stay with a friend
Get to know someone
The library has all the books you need
Trust me
That its not so hard

You could be gone with me ......your heart beating a hundred miles an hour as you smile so big
Your sure widen
You hear someone scream and laugh
You feel free
As we speed  down an old dirt road

You get a taste for freedom
And your addicted

Come with me please
Today

Its swallowed me whole the blackness of it all. The winding roads of your heart. The drop and rise of your voice
Like butter
Like jam
Like honey

You smoke your cigarette on the porch of your rusted **** trailer
Curled up with your chin on your knees
In a broken spray painted plastic chair
Your veins run blue
A dark evening in which
The orange cherry glow around your lips cast shadows on the wall

I don't understand why I love you
When I hardly know you
Your black hair
Soft skin

The torn siding taps on the wall
The cool wind through the porch
The wind chimes make beautiful songs
As you blow smoke in constant notes of sadness

Surrounded on three sides by dark mist covered mountains
7 country miles to the nearest person

My head spins
As the old warmth grows from my stomach
You have so many empty pill bottles poking up from your purse

You sit quiet as you begin to float off this broken porch
Out into that cool night of nowhere
Her green eyes glow bright
Outshining the naked sixty watt bulb on the wall
Moths circle
And bump against the warmth

I never want to leave you
As you put up your hair
As the truck turns to rust in the yard


But you know
That I know I'm nothing special
And you have plans that don't have room for me

Southern Belle
With a head full of dreams
Your skin smells like fresh cut birch bark
Your hair like a warm summer night


*"You know
It gets beautiful around here
Once spring is in full swing
I was hoping you would at least stay til then"

Everything is good and golden and bright
Even now when the wind through my window seems
So quiet and filling
When I **** myself for stupid ******* lines
Of thoughts no one understands
Wicked claws black teeth
It's cold night at your hair
And moonlight in your fingers
Where sunshine comes down
And wraps as it lingers

I wish voice could pierce your mind
Like a twilight zone mosquito
******* brains from the innocent
In a small country town

Broken plant pots
You once through down the mountainside
And she said I listen to it for ours
That window
That moonlight
Ones that a pack of dogs howl at
And nuzzle the silence
Beer Cigarette beer b eer cigarette breed
Beer cigarette
Now I'm speaking in a language I can understand
Where I can break cheekbones
And shoot at anyone who steals from me
Old boy









*****









Grow up

Be something

Go somewhere

Care about someone

Make something matter

Stargazer

Dream phaser

Time delay




Sleep

I will not think of you in the sunlight
and when night comes you are not on my mind
But
I dream and my soul aches
Because I have not yet learned how to stop loving you

*I walk with you through a field I once knew
Where the wheat has grown knee-high
You speak the silent language of dreams
We walk past the ancient walls broken by time
Ivy grows between the cracked stones

Spin-bycicle wheels
As I turn onto Salerno st.
A canal to cross
So I can toss
My backpack into bushes

Duct tape
Rubber gloves
This is love-true

Blade or tongue
I've become
Something

Poncho hood
In the wood
Calm
Begins to rain
Sane

Hammer-I feel
In my chest
Creeping mist
Tooth-smile

I know you don't love me
Like I love you
I'm just another stupid
Boy to you
Skipping over words
Getting tongue tied
Shaking high school fingers
At your ***** line

Stupid boy
Shutup you don't know what love is
It's not something you put in a poem
Or a stupid metaphor about roses that are blooming
While others fall apart

I learned to keep my mouth shut a long time ago
Children seen and not heard
Keep that mouth shut and your ears open
And you learn a lot about the world
How people treat you and decieve you
And leave you for dead
Stop looking for good samaritains
They don't exist
Take why you can
The world is done when you die
Bite the hand that feeds
Then spit in his eye

Yeah they say
They say
They all have somethin to say
And if you dont believe something
You follow on anyway

I know one thing though
That I do love you
And I heard when you said
"Id leave you for dead
If I ever got the chance to"
You said you would rob me blind
And leave me broken
Rub dirt in my eyes
Give me a curse  
At the side of the road where no one will stop you  
Left to lick my own wounds
And bleed out under glowing
Silver full moons
Yeah
You've told me
I've heard what you say
That doesnt mean I'm not gonna love you
Anyfuckinway

I am just the lightbulb
Swinging in the attic
If you would just
Shut up
I am the static

Little ghost
Show me your play things
Tall bedposts
You are always swinging

That's the record
Play it again
If you speak up
You'll only blend in

And I wish
I wish to **** I was someone else
Take my bottle from the shelf
Grin, kiss, smash me

But here you are
Lily hand
Sail my ship
Read my stars
Kiss me

Crystal ball
Palm reader
Your eyes say it all
Your lips say it better

Black arrow spins through
Cold winter air-catching breath
Cleaves the heart in two

You don't see what I'm putting up with
How I am lying here with gritted teeth
And a stomach full of acid
Creeping its way up my throat
You said you didn't want someone with a heart on his sleeve
So I tore it off and it stayed where it dropped
For someone so obsessed with looks
It sure was easy to sew these eyes shut

Are we moving in the right direction?
Someone who is strong
        You know I had a dream about us once
         And we were up on the roof
        I was afraid to sit on the edge
           But I did it any way
I've listened close for any sign of moment of betrayel in your camp

But not so much as a scratch from a mouse

All I see is your power

Your strengh

Your unwavering courage

As wind billows through your tall bright banners

Always a thousand reasons why not

With only one reason why


If I never would have read your words I never would have known
How you can spill black couldrons of malice, but show beauty still
You can open up the sky with your words
Build a storm in its belly
But still feel pitty if it rains down on me

I can feel your combat boots

On my front teeth

At my groin

Snapping my ribs

Still even then, you reach down for a kiss

Its not always so great to live alone
I wish I could be with you
Just talk and share a bowl of cereal
Refrigerator magnets
Pictures on your wall

Sometimes I wish I didn't have to come home
and sit alone

I bet even t.v would be better with you

I bet things wouldn't be so dull
If I heard just a moment of your laughter
Echoing off the walls

Lights would shine brighter
Even the lightbulbs would glow like el sol

Make dinner
Listen to music

I would turn down the t.v
So I could better hear you singing in the shower
I wouldn't mind vacuming
If your feet walked my floor
I would sit like a child
Underneath the lights on the vanity
As you brush your red hair
And make jokes about whatever we want

But you aren't here and you never will be

So instead "Ill get smashed on southern comfort"

Ive now pluckecd the eye of god
and digging into his throat with my teeth
The warm red spray
taste of blood metallic
On the razors edge
Everything balances
Words fuckthem all man fcuck em all
they are useless and meaningless next to the creature
of life humanity
and the beauty
of your blood red
upon my finger

He spoke and was king. The barns were full of hay
and we rested in the shade of the tall stone walls.
He taught me to sleep. in the Library we slept perfectly among the silent books
He taught me to read the shapes of letters

He told me where I could find you
and how to read the shape of your lips
She asked me in the cold night air
If I would read to her on the marble steps

I spend the afternoons asleep on the cool river bank
Drawing stories in the dirt
Imagining distant lands in which-
We walk through overgrown ruins and speak to statues that sing and dance

The loneliness gets to you first
A chill that runs up the spine
Culminating in hair standing up on the back of your neck
The fires are lit on the roadside
And the dark one culls me
*his whispers are inside you
If you listen you will hear them
When the loneliness has gotten to you

I am on my second...No third I think......
Red pill of the Night
I am surprised that I have not become smaller
Or is it
Larger?
No one ever really remebers do they?
Question? No answer
I am compelled to get up from my plight
A beer soaked boredome
I have no idea of the people surrounding me
Or why they all seem to be so uptight
Although the rich boys have laid their suitcoats upon
The velvet arm chairs
It's almost unbelievable this air that I breath
For a moment I think I have become the center of our universe
Or I forgot where I put my matches....that spilled box of matches
Yet I wiggle my way out of the smoke
Understand that I have to walk out and pick these matchs up
While pretty rich girls laugh and drink beer
How cute they think they must look
Drug addled
Becoming the girl
I want to take home to mom.
Good Ol' fashion American Capitalism
Buying and selling and smoking their imported African Marijuana
Taking *** shots off of brandy bottles
I bet if dad knew you were in his brandy
He'd beat your rich boy ***

Ah the glimmer and the silver glow of this place
Shimmering left and right off of bottles and jewelry
I have a knife in my pocket that seems to grow heavier and heavier
As I rest on this brand new White
I MEAN SOFT EGSHELL COUNTRY WHITE
Leather Couch from Europe

I can breathe it all in
and breathe it all out
you know when you don't belong
A weapon in your pocket becomes
A weapon in your hands

Put me down like a dog
I'm all but beast
My fangs snapping at your ankles
My fangs snapping at your throat
I feel your human incisors
Digging into my chest
Your tongue on my pulse
The pulse of your tongue
Over a stone wall
Under the brambles
Snagging at your hair
Catching thorns
A cut on your bared white flesh
Put me down like an animal
Or I will bark at your house until morning

To Em
I’ve been tryin to send you letters for the longest time now
But they’ve got me movin  
Bed to bed
Hospital to hospital
Everything is dirt here
They say Im gonna lose both my legs, Em
Truth is I’m scared
I’m far away from home
In this ****** jungle
And I’m just trying to survive
I don’t wanna die Em
I wanna see you so bad. I Know
This is all a dream and in a minute Ill wake up
And you’ll be layin there next to me warm
Your hair all soft on my face
I can smell your perfume

Teardrops

Tell me Em that your waitin for me
That I ain’t comin home alive
For you
And you ain’t there
Em, your my life
Your my angel
Savin me from all of this
I lay here and listen to full grown men cry and beg for death
Men screamin for their mommas

Teardrops

I lay here quiet with my pillow over my head just dreamin about you
Bout us
In my bedroom wakin up in the morning cause the dog wont shutup and has to ***
And I can just get up and let him out
I just wanna walk on the grass in the front yard
Inside your wearin my Led Zepplin  shirt just smiling at me standin out there like a fool
I just wanna hear the dogs bark down the street again
I just wanna see my room
**** in my own toilet
Sleep in my own bed
Brush my teeth in my own sink
And for ******* christ’s sake take a shower

I think about you all the time Em
And if I die
I promise no matter how bad it hurts
Ill be thinkin bout you
Takin me to heaven
Kissin me on my shoulder.  Huggin me on my neck

But he became an astronaut
And had his first mission to space
Dear John this is Houston
You’ve seem to have gone dark
Please reply?
But astronaut John didn’t reply
Because his tether had broken loose from the fuselage
And he was now at the mercy of space
Quickly floating out into the endless unknown
Johnny was scared
As he floated for hours
And days
Off to find better adventures
Off to make better times
Off to find what I can’t

Man was I down
"I had just lost that girl that hurts the worst to lose"
That night I was feeling it bad
"She came in and said goodbye looking like an orchid"
Sure enough she wasn't answering the phone
"So the girl finally answers and says i found someone who actually cares"
Strange how someone
"Who is your sunsets and sunrises"
says you dont care
"Stranger still how after four years"
Together for ***** dishes, school, parents, needles, records, burnt matches, coffee, flowers, sunshine, phone calls, I love you. midnight.
I love you
"you told me where you had been all those times"
in his bed
So me and that girl from work smoked some ****
and watched the world spin on its head
"I cant believe this world exists"
with the radio still playing
we didnt ****
"like i know you were *******"
looking up through the window
strange how life went on without you
strange how life drags on without you
strange how I dont remeber
"the last time I drove this road alone"
Its so beautiful this time of year.
"life is still beautiful without you"
leaves blow by
and pass behind me

Here I am just for you
Telling you in Times New Roman
**** the placebo affect
Remember when I was actually alive
Before I started cursing in front of you
I know your secret little bird
You won't say it aloud
But it runs down your arms and telegraphs over and over
From your fingertips
It won't slip from your tounge
You won't allow that
But your eyes smile 300% lone signal lights
I braved the cold and learned to listen to the wind
And I found a great maw in the earth
So dark and deep I could not see the bottom
I stood before it listening to the snowfall
Until
I fell inside and was made warm forever

You were dandelion cute
You kissed me
And I kissed back
You giggled when I jokingly bit the tip of your nose
I listened up real good
When you said
"It may feel weird cause my tongue is pierced"
I listened up even closer when I pulled down your underwear
You had a moment in my ear....making me gasp and shake in excitement
My eyes must have
Cha-ching
Cha-ching
Because you laughed
And pulled me closer
Leading me inside your soaking dream
You weren't as bad on top like you said you were
You twisted all the right ways
Until you had me so close I could taste It
I had to make you stop
we played house on every surface
Until morning came
We fell asleep in the shower
The taste of you
Still tight on my lips

Her shirt is tight
Thread fingers
click click click
The heat is unbearable
yet you creep closer
Spin
Its so easy in the heat of the dark
To meet certain pressure points
causing chain reacfions in the shadows
The taste of your lips
The heat of your burden- do not bare this alone

Flicker
The smell of you grows thicker the words fall over as you whisper
Your fingers timid
lips  trembling
You made my heart cheat as it races
Fingers and spaces
click click click click click
The actors play
a game for us
Everyone is perfect
everyone is uptown spending money

You curl closer to me
The weight of a gaze
The green eyes blade grass
You laugh quietly in perfect angles
inteflaced fingers
I fell in love
Roll credits cut copy edit

Wake dream
Its hard to say goodbye
Shadows
Cigarette burns
Make your move
One step ahead
Angel fall asleep
Fi e with me
your body against me
The up and down down up of your breath is enough
Like crushed pine needles
new bloomed flowers
Your smell in the room
Where the heat-drifts on the skin
silk flesh white
Your head onfmy chest
You sleep softly
You dream
(I hope of me)
House lights
Cheap ticket love
Dark carpet shadows
I protect you
Sleep
(I dream of you) whisper warm
Always of you i dr

Weaponized Body Corded Steel Peaking Through Porcelain
Against The Grain Against The Wind Cold One This Is It Hold
On Fighting Through The Stream Of Life Strife Brother Can You
Hold It Alone Alone Alone Alone

On The Cusp *******

I
    M.    
    
Looking     at the sky alone



Something
Ur king
  Cannot
     Condone

I don't use a bookmark
Or fold the precious page
I remember where I stopped





Even after days

Books
are
stacked
as
tall
as
me
In piles                                       'round my room
Some nights I lie awake in fear
"This book
(Gulp)
is over due"

A S.W.A.T. team breaks down my door
And cuffs me on the floor
They'll find the evidence on my shelves and stacked around my door
And drag me to the the little room to make me sweat a few

The moustached cop with coffee stains yells:
THESE BOOKS ARE YEARS PAST DUE!"

But I don't fear the ******' cheese
So when moustache left the room
I used my skill with paperclips, and left the handcuffs strewn
I grabbed myself a hostage
To hightail it outta here
I made it to the front door
Smiling ear to ear

To the Mexican stand off

The bang bang bang


I whispered in her ear
To stop all the crying and whimpering
Her eyes do full of fear
"I promise that you'll see your kids;

I will not hurt you dear

The Pigs creep close
My voice it croaks:
"ALL I WANT'S MY ****** BOOKS
AND WE'LL ALL WALK OUTTA HERE


I'm an outlaw now
A vagabond
Walking through the Wastes
I will not see my home again
Or any friendly place
Nothing now but the open road
And a bag of way-past-dates

Yeah, come over for dinner
It had been such a long time
Since I had seen other people
I have been a creature of solitude
These past months and I had
Wrestled in my mind with
Death and the fire

I was restless I guess
Not nervous
As I knock on the door
Your wife answers
She's hardly past twenty
Her hair is red and blue eyes

I could die there on the doorstep
But I enter and tell jokes
It is easy to make her laugh
I think She had
a glass of wine
before I arrived

You and I talk about
Nothing in particular
You play music and
I sit on the carpet smoking
a ciggarette
as your wife
picks up
my glass
and fills it to the brim

it has been a long time
since
Her shirt
came up the slightest bit

then suddenly the room
is smaller
and you pass me the pipe
Your wife sits across from me
I can't help but watch her breathe
The inhale is exquisite
Machined so perfectly

Your a shooting star I think
Speeding right between us
And the moon
the sea
Your moving at speeds so incredible
That my mind spins a million turns
Just from the walk of your voice
Your laugh makes me smile
Right here in public
Embarassing the life out of an interstellar being
When you laugh
Your scotch flavored lips
Taste purple or green
Beautiful shining sunlight pours through the car window
Beautiful shining sunlight pours through my mind
This is such a endless moment
One untouched by written word
Not poisioned by a spoken sound
Leaves waving on a tree
Swaying in a gentle song breeze
Listening to the sound of nothing
Hearing all about the meaning of such a  sight
Some things in this world no one can understand
Except the warm touch of a shooting star
Between the moon
Between the sea

they gathered around
thick as the forest
calling her name out in chorus

I don't want any part of this
                           I once thought I loved you
          

\ you  whine and moan
about the big fluffy bed
a mattress of down          
and pillows velvet red

but the girl that i love
sleeps on hay
and she's out working
in the yard every day

You wear a pearl necklace
And great golden dresses
Banners of your name
Hang down like tresses

She grows roses
roses with thorns
her hair is plain
and messy and short

princes with names
I cannot pronounce
battle for your hand
but you only pout

...but she gets five lashes
                                   if the chickens get out

your tower is tall      
         You say too tall for me
your hall are great
                       too great for me
your tables are long
your gilded platters full
but you are still hungry
a lone starving fool

but
the one who I love
She is quiet and sweet
we share a loaf and some broth
on the side of the street
As your great castle glistens like a diamond in the sky
I watch her pick roses with a smile so wide

It hinges on
This first sip of wine
By your eyes
Consecrated

I am a mountain
I am the sea
I am the wasp
Delay
Decay

Sober whisper
At this table
Cloak and dagger
Growing
Straining
Just to hear
It hinges on
This sip of wine


Are you there? Hello? Hello? I can't breathe the walls close in coffin lid I can hear the nails splitting the pine I need to hear you

One more time
One thousand
Words on paper
Something in
The eyes of blue
Touch
In a laugh
So complete with
Fake eye wrinkles

She's an actress
Cut
She's dancing for them
Disconnected
For the money "Honey"
Heart bone dry
Fake sigh

Unopened
Perfume laced
Your letter went
Into the fireplace

They had a feast in your honor
I decided not to go

I decided to walk the great gardens
Balancing on the high stone walls

Jumping here or there
Listening to birds sing

Sun up
I was nobody in particular

Getting lost in the buisness of things

I could have been a beetle walking on a leaf

I could have been a fox
Watching you from the quiet of a hedge

So when I lay down on that green grass
Everything so altogether warm

I didn't think about you
or me
or your monologues

I thought of a hand full of bees

Pulling at my body like pollen
Spreading me out over the life

The pond full of hungry coy
Hyacinth

A silent crane watching me

I would swim in this pond
But I am satisfied to loom above my reflection

Seeing myself reflected on the background of heaven

so love deeply you I. Though sadly I see in my minding eye. A life long without you. So short is my minds eye unknowing dark futures-I long will stop their hauntings. Lingering echoes echo soundly. Maybe dreamer I can hold your eyes. As artifacts in museums silencencing laughing boys. Eyes whose crystal stare read the heart of the strongest, and blink so heavily without remorse.

Drunken farm hand
I will always be
But summer comes
Full and sweet
Grass grows

Yet I sit in my cabin
I drink myself to sleep
Thinking of someone
Who is far far away
Where hills are unbroken
And cold in the night

Spitting tobacco as I clean the pens
The dogs walk behind me
My only loyal friends
And we are alone
Out in the pasture by the gate
Where cars never drive by
One streetlight shininig lonesome
Onto long dirt country road

I was drunk
I couldn't even stand
So I lay there in the pasture
With the snakes and spiders and dogs
Thinking of you with all my power
Just wanting to hear you speak
Underneath the silent heavens
Waves of stars in a bitter black sea

Finite or not time presses ever downward
Three seconds or nine from now
You'll empty the magazine
Words more violent
At the speaking

Blink and saturate again the sting
Sleepless nights end to end
Cyclic systems self-contained
Between day and dream
Rent the seam

Tenderly now
******* alone the wound
Gentle licks of blood trickle in wake
Sweat and hair unbroken stare
Silently reeling through the space of it
Pictures bare feet and lamplight all
Aching for not

I prefer my hours unreasonable, And my friends and allies insane.


I prefer my fingers broken, and my phone disconnected


So even if you tried to call, I wouldn't get the message.
Or be able to reply.

Leave a message after the tone
Beep
You don't need me to jumpstart your solitude-
You seem to be doing fine on your own


I prefer my memories erased, and my saviors visible.
Not that i need saving.
Not that i need your help.*

I gave up on humans a long time ago
I prefer my my birds singing, my ears ringing
As your words echo in my head


I'd leave you for dead,
If ever the chance came my way.
I am no Good Samaritan,
As it turns out


I prefer my ink black anyway, and the horizon invisible
Losing my place, is what I always seem to do
Looking for the sounds
Listening to the sights

*Left in a cold darkness that is absence,
Of mind, of body,
But most notably, of you.

Thin as piper
Was your whisper
The chill from a passing ghost
Someone just
Stepped on your grave
And hung a black cat crossed the street
Stepping ******* the cracks
Spilling salt

They say its bad luck to break a mirror
And even worse to be reflected
In the shattered remains

They say don't sleep with your feet sticking out from
Under a blanket
Because demons with
Skeleton hands
Will reach right up and take you

That's why I let sleeping dogs lie
Why I never **** pointing east
And don't you dare smoke one cigarette
Before flipping the pack

There is a deeper run of color
More raw scarlet and burgundy hues
  splayed
Eying pitiless
 edgewise mouth spangled with tobbacco
Hindsight plays into the corner
barred tooth
wounded & scrabbling at the wood
Without purchase
Come now
Look at you
So pitiful and gorgeous

I'm at heavens gates

Where fiery seraphims

Hold a no tresspasing sign

I am at the gates of hell

And I swear it looks

Just like the entrance abc liquor

hello world

i am a single sprout of earth

breaking from my seed case

A single elm branch

Am I

bending in the cool midnight wind

I could be that lake

Where the fireflies reflect

where snakes sleep coiled

next to the garden path

and if I wanted

i could be impaled by your daggers

and fall right to sleep

Now I'm looking for a foothold

Frozen Ache of wind

Blowing on the northern *****

The clouds are frozen solid

And they fall on my head

They pierce my skin

but I laugh at your pain

because ive stabbed the needle



Oh this wind

at your funeral

the grass is green and long

and the roses that lay

long and sharp

in my silent shaking hands

if you would just open the sky for me       let the rain fall    let the clouds billow and thunder  send bolts of heated lightning down upon my head
I think I would feel nothing
or the quit beating
of my own heart
like drums down the river
where the jungle is deep

Dear Everything
Tonight I may die of over stimulation my frontal lobe ****** by a televised illusion- of her listening to records black coffee the needle scratches
Her eyes shotgun blast to my chest second glance whiplash running
All the red lights in my brain she steps onto the street as I follow beneath in sewer tunnels like the rat to peanut butter smeared traps Squirming between the cracks in the pavement To
An old brick high rise looming I watch from the alley as one window
Lights her slender shadow ******* heart beating watch ticking
I climb the rusted razor wire fence the old fire escape to the window my knife blade slipping between the catch unlatching silently I slip into the bedroom flower
Scent engulfing my senses her form softly breathing eyes closed
I stand above her wishing I were dead ripping at the hole in my chest How must she taste?
Picking at the wound she has created crawling inside to infect with her canines snagging the muscle tissue startled awake she looks into my eyes snapping the trap on my neck

I drank heavy from the river
To quench my parched lips
Clear cold water against my
Hands

I am always thirsty
I have broken my teeth
On the ancient rocks
To show loyalty to mother nature
I let her **** me
Without giving her my name
I let her spit in my face
To teach me humility
I let her pluck out my eyes
So I could see the color
More clearly
She stabbed a screwdriver
Into my ears
Until I heard them POP POP
So I would know the beuty of silence
I let her peel my skin
With sharpened stones
So I would know every breeze
You were not easy to me
As you tore my tongue from it's roots
So I would remeber the taste of blood
Forever
Take my fingers
Take my toes
Arms
and Legs
I am dead already
I died a long time ago
The day I was born

Wanderer
I've been called
Born with the wind at my back
Dirt at my heels
Push me along
The backpack is all you need
Put down your things
Lace on your boots
Get walking
The stars will guide you

When we used to cruise
In your car
You were always curled up next to me
Legs wrapped up in the seat
The feel of your head on my shoulder
And the wind blowing through the window
Heaven

Now we drive down on full moon nights by the sea
And you're more intrested in the window than me
I couldn't reach you with a ten foot pole
Even if I wanted to

I huff
You sigh
Blue eyes closing
Silver cobwebs on your lashes
Look pretty in the moonbeam's glowing

Oh my God
Have you ever felt this?
Man, its great
You become one with viscus
And his holy ember
watch the poppy smoke curl
Into 3 dragons
blowing smoke into the
in
finite
bed time
I can see your magezine
left upon your side table
but it is boring to me
speaking to me without sound
I can hear muffled echoes
in some alluring ancient tongue
Riddle me this
sweet Adeline
why have they gone and put the roof
where your feet should be walking
why do you have a slipknot Cd?
Why do you have empty pill bottles on the floor?
Why are your posters coming to life

And pestering me for the time of
Roger I will get you as a tattoo on my fore arm
if it is the last thing I do
I was gonna get that poem of Helen's done too
In perfect script
oh Helen your words are so beautiful

I want to mold them to.my spirit
I want to.wrap them upon my arms
and sell them to.the poor and blind
The fuzziness is returning now
Telling me to go the **** to sleep
and if I never wake up again....
I want you to know that I love you
I love you I love you
I love

You went

La


La

******

We were going mad-

I heard you laugh

Like planets spinning

Gentleman Jack ****** my head

I felt ok, sally

Like I'm sailing on a boat

The eggs you made were runny

So you rang my bell

I'm just a chipped-tooth liar

Running around the town

I smell the beer on your breath

I feel your tongue in my ear

Run run run run

To the river

I feel the flames at my heels

Right on kitty kitty

You have a hole in your tights

The peppermint on your skin

made

Made my lips fill with blood

Like a ride on an elephant

Take a walk with a giraffe

We dug for dinner with the ant eater

Naked feet in the dirt

With your hands and your smile

You make the big world feel alright